under your wings

When I was younger feeling small
when I laid my hands in yours
I felt the sadness fade and disappear.
When my heart would fall and break
I just looked up at your face
the smile you gave me brought me back to him.
The only place i knew where i will be save.

Under your Wings, I am forever
Under your open skies I saw
because your love for me was everything
I needed to be strong im always home..under your wings.
In another place and time
how the memories rewind back to my father
who hold me in his arms
oh and I knew that I was loved
for who I was no matter what
the smile he gave me we would never be apart.

Under your Wings I am forever
Under your open skies I saw
because your love for me was everything
I needed to be strong I’m always home..under your wings

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listening to this song in the train station. a raining morning, traffic is slow. laogong will fly to Taiwan this afternoon. Saturday I will get back to music classes with royee n Eva since laogong is away.

soon gonna be April. time flies. have done my income tax submission. gonna renew my roadtax by this week. shouldn't be any more due dates to catch up. is time to work on sis's wedding preparation. start looking for nice songs for some video editing.






pictures taken last night with angel while waiting for laogong to pack his luggage. can see my gal grows up. they getting taller, they are more independent.



royee doing painting while I was cooking last sunday. angels were taking afternoon nap. I fried cuttlefish. can sit down n enjoy the foods and cold soya bean with laogong. suddenly, I felt free. sometime i do rethink, would I feel bored if I stop working? when bbb might not my full companion when the need of freedom is needed by them?



sometime, in working day, bbb were playing together in the room and I sit down n chit chatting with mum or watching drama series. hmm they lock te door sometime, coz they dont want maid sister to disturb. hmmm bbb are big now. I do think to start my interest to learn new skill.



sewing is one of them. did ask laogong to buy a sewing machine for my birthday gift :p then I want the soup maker too! laogong said, u want everything! no aa, am asking for a portable DVD player from sis :p coz my mini laptop has no DVD player, and now I have the mood to watch movies or drama series. but it cost nearly rm1k. gonna kill my sis then :p April, is a good month to ask for everything :D



ok ok, better deal for sis is - buy me some pots and vege seeds for my gardening syiok! much much cheaper right? I like to see the seeds grow up to be something totally different look than the seed look. amazing. and n I see HOPE too!









love from family on relax weekends - priceless! ^^

tonite

Have I told you lately that I love you
Have I told you there's no one else above you
Fill my heart with gladness
Take away all my sadness
Ease my troubles that's what you do

For the morning sun in all it's glory
Greets the day with hope and comfort too
You fill my life with laughter
And somehow you make it better
Ease my troubles that's what you do
There's a love that's divine
And it's yours and it's mine like the sun
And at the end of the day
We should give thanks and pray
To the one, to the one
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tonight I dive in this song.. love Olivia ong's version. soft n yet string enough to pull my feeling off.

think of the sudden death of a company colleague who got heart attack in the office, watched the video clip on japan tsunami happened last Friday, thinking of my best friend who decided to visit japan as per her existing plan which the nuclear radiation warning is still on.. thinking if heart attack happened to my papa at work, sad stories happen to my friends and family.. hmmm so hope, everyone gies to where they want to be.

just now, angel and Eva told me, they want to go up to the heaven, the hell is for devils. hmm I imagine angels are flying in the heaven ^^

suddenly, I feel to see rainbow.



pic taken by angelina roinn

inpiring notes

love this note from my Digo to my cousin :)

'到今天我们还没成功，就代表我们做人做事有不足之处。江山易改本性难移。难移不代表不能移，只是很难而已。要改变先要学会接受，不要忍受；要有决心，不要信心；要虚心，不要自尊心；不做少爷，叫人老爷。忠言逆耳，良药苦口，吃苦当吃补。机会是给有准备的人。
对欺负过，看不起过我们的人最好的报复，就是活得比他们成功。到我们成功之时，我们已经不恨他了，要感谢他。因为没有他们的鼓励，我们就不会成功。'




u can make it ^^

milk with dha-aa

'DHA 是人体所不能制造的一种脂肪酸， 必须从食物中获取。不过， DHA这种长链脂肪酸， 是身体从短链脂肪酸中制造， 只要提供身体短链脂肪酸， 身体就会依需要自行制造长链脂肪酸。
但是，在牛奶中加入 DHA， 就会制造出长链脂肪酸。 长链脂肪酸不稳定却容易被氧化形成毒，对小孩身体其实很不利。
科学家以为自己比大自然更聪明，所以从实验室制造“营养”给人类，他们以为人体不会自己制造。 当人体原本会制造但却没有机会，久而久之就不会自己制造那些营养'

last 2 weeks laogong showed me an article on newspaper. it talks about the harmful effect of food nowadays with added nutrient or permitted colouring or softener. 1 of the foods are baby mill with dha and aa added that stimulate smarter brains and brighter eyesight. which according to the report, this synthetic dha and aa used material that may cause harm to children in long run.

then, I search thru net, that are news on US has banned production of milk with added dha and aa in last year. our body can generate dha by our own. but if we rely on the added dha and aa which is not naturally in the food, then our body system may stop using the function as it should be. mother's milk contains dha, but not cow milk. so the synthetic dha and aa can bring illness to our children.

I am not confirm all about this yet, I will read more on this topic. but as of now, laogong doesnt want to buy added dha and aa milk. finishing the current stock then go for normal one. he is the person in charge of milk powder and diapers at home, so let him decide. I will look for food list that contains natural dha and aa or helps stimulate dha and aa by our own body :)

body health checkup

I have collected my annual body checkup report. as I mentioned in my fb, I pass all with flying colors! :) except for urine acid is low. this is the 2nd time I got the same result, low urine acid. will further check on this. many website forums said can ignore this, unless it is high, then will get joint problem.


test list for woman including few cancers test.


this is for man.

after collecting the result, we went for brunch. then pass by this traditional Chinese medicine clinic.


wahh!! free consultation n treatment! me n sis went in to check the details. ya, it was totally free for all treatment including 3 days medicine. so, we registered ourselves for freebies :p



sis asked about her knees pain. doctor said her knees having wet qi (wet air) this normally cause for us who taking cold shower especially at night, n let the aircond directly blow the cold wind to us. so treatment for sis was - ba guan, the cupping. the doctor moved the cupping, to get the wet air came out. u can see from the pic, sis was sweating, crying, yelling.. the doctor kept on changing the cup to smaller size whenever my sis shouting here n there :p



for me, I go for my big belly. coz night time my tummy can grow big so hard! doctor said, this is not wind, it was cold gad inside. u can see marks on my belly. ya, doctor said, this is water-toxin. whenever the gas wants to release from my belly, then it would be like steamer that generate water. not vey clear on this, but the root cause for my big belly is my spleen n tummy is weak. they can't do things together well. in fact, this is the 2nd doctor told me about my spleen. my mum said, when I was baby, my mama's grandpa checked my body, he told my mum this too. so, moral of the story is, take good care of your children body part from small. coz when come to adult, not easy to change the body condition. I do acupuncture n warmer that day. from the picture, u can see my red belly after staying under warmer for at least 15min.


this is the charges list for normal day.


we have our free3 days medicine. the we top up for another 4 days medicine. coz I dont think we can see the different by consuming 3 days medic, coz Chinese medicine normally slow n steady then only see the effectiveness :p (opps.. why sis belly is big in the picture? quite swelling leh)

take good care ya everyone!

sis wed - wedding gown

last Saturday we went to choose sis's wedding photos gown n confirmed all the details eg shooting date. hmmm to set the wedding shooting date, sis needs to check Bruce, herself n my schedule. she wants me to follow her on shooting day so I can snap some making of pictures n also, to make her smile :p funny sisters hehe..





snapped few pic on dinner dresses too, won't share the pic here, later on when I compile all n edit them in a video clip, then only u all see la. these pictures are from my iPhone :) 2 of us made the wedding house full of laughters :D coz we non stop teasing ourselves, made fun all everything as everything seem to be so interesting n funny. even to get the nu bra nicely fit, I can laugh till eyes wet ooo :p

more stories from my sis's blog
http://poohmehmeh28.blogspot.com/2011/03/blog-post_12.html



can't believe this silly funny gal wants to get married soon hmm >.<



her contact pic in my phone ^^

bb boy travelling

royee gone to Thai with my papa n mama. gal gal at home, they don't want to go grandma's house. me on the way to work :(

last night brought bbb to pasar malam, bought some food for today n bun for royee to bring along.


while waiting for my popiah order, I asked them to see uncle fried the carrot cake :) love to see them always hand in hand ^^ my hope is they can take care each other when I am not around :)



love this pic. he was ready to go out, got him to snap few pic. in fact, whole night he hug n kiss me. stick to my body :) unwilling to leave me but the heart is flying to the travel trip already :p


^^


bye bye!

happy women day ^^

女人不必太美 只要有人深爱
女人不必太富 只要过得幸福
女人也不必太强
只要她活得尊贵
got this sms from my mama
the message says,
women don't need to be too pretty, as long as there are someone love deeply
women don't need to be too rich, as long as she r living in happiness
women don't need to be too strong, as long as she stays in respect ^^




message from company CEO 'dear ladies' :)



prayer from officemate Asmiza to me :p

tonite, again laogong comes back banting :D sometime when we are too get used to stay separately in weekdays, when I receive call from him to tell that he is gonna meet us at night, terkejut I n my bbb :p
'why papa comes back de?'

in fact, laogong does his own thing even he is on banting. much longer time with his laptop than children homework. I fall asleep 1st then found him sleep next to me on the midnite. then morning when I wake up, he is reading newspaper in the living hall. but as what ppl always tells, don't complain about husband this n that, as long as he comes back everyday. ya, need to appreciate this :)

may all women be blessed n be loved ^^

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women day :) last night when I reached home, I saw my mama was waiting for her friends to pick her up. my mama said, they wanna celebrate 38 women day. how nice for us to have a group of girl friends in old age ^^

royee asked me, mummy why 8th of march the calendar have many women pictures? I told him, 8th of march is women day. all gals day. 'then, when us all men day?' hmmm I don't know..

talking being a women, now I am at the stage, enjoying my role as daughter, sister, wife, mother, and working woman ^^ stage by stage, we going to experience more n more that going to pile up to be final chapter of our lifelong memories :)



when I was young gal paktoring, think of future babies names when dating with bf ^^ then, the happiness of having my 1st baby boy being recorded in a secret diary :)


marriage.. happy to have a partner to be with. the passion of love may be faded when time goes by.. but the relationship string would be always be tighten up when more common memories created.


being a mother, when my children have occupied all my heart, I can spend full weekend to get in touch with them. I can be very creative n silly. I can be very sentimental n sensitive. every single words n actions from my bbb, touch my heart - be blessed or be hurt.


how my future gonna to be as a woman? see my children grow up, 1 day see them bring their boy friends n gal friends to show me - mummy, I am able to take responsibility to take care my love.

^^


a woman who always give hope n prayer to her everyday n LOVE ^^

happy women day to all!

ovarian cancer check

received the forwarded mail on Friday, telling about the symptoms of ovarian cancer..

"Ovarian Cancer Whispers"

Watch for -
Pelvic or abdominal pain or discomfort;
vague but persistent gastrointestinal upsets such as gas, nausea, and indigestion;
frequency and/or urgency of urination in the absence of an infection;
unexplained weight gain or weight loss;
pelvic and/or abdominal swelling, bloating and/or feeling of fullness;
ongoing unusual fatigue;
unexplained changes in bowel habits.

If symptoms persist for more than 2 weeks, ask your doctor for a combination pelvic/rectal exam, CA-125 blood test, and trans-vaginal ultrasound.
A pap test WILL NOT detect ovarian cancer.
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is my response when I read this. I got 6 symptoms from the list, n the symptoms with me for 2 years? I have the thought 'I would rather say all these happened to me is because I am too fat!' hmmm...

came back home continued reading the book that talking about the cancer patients story. the part that I continued, was talking about ca-125 test - to tell the patient if the cancerous cells are increasing or decreasing. suddenly, I think I need a test! shared this with laogong, laogong asked me to start fasting so the next day to go for body checkup.

Saturday morning I went to bp lab. my last full body checkup was at dec 2009. this time, I chose the rm550 package, with tumour checker. so not only check for ovarian cancer (ca-125), I check for colon cancer, breast cancer, n few cancer that I can't recall it now. when the helper taking my blood, laogong asked 'if relatives got cancer, would we get it?' the helper said it is 20% higher chance for 2nd level relatives. hmmm.. my auntie removed her womb coz of cancerous cells few years back hmm...

will get result next Saturday, hopefully all will be alright :)



evergreen.. the everyday blue sky ^^

early winter solstice ^^

children learning festive celebration in the school..





royee: wai po, how old am I?
grandma: you 6 years old la..
royee: no..
grandma: you are not 6 years old, then how old are you?
royee: I am 7 years old, coz just now I eaten tang yuan, I have grown 1 year bigger already
grandma: ....
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see my boy face getting sharper? compared to last week big round face? the boy been eating quite a lot recently. pity the boy, now he is under his daddy control, 3 meals a day, if taken rice, then no milk. 3 bottle if milks per day the max. so when the quota is fully used, pity royee says 'mummy, I feel to drink milk' then ask sister to make milk la 'papa said cannot, 1 day only 3 meals, I have taken 3 meals, if I drink milk now, papa will scold me de' hoh!!! so the pity ooo..

devil mummy always has superb idea :p 'baby, morning u didn't take milk right? in kinder, u eat only small portion of porridge right? so we don't count that as 1 meal. so u eat lunch, then dinner. so now take 1 milk, them 3 meals a day only ma' no, I after lunch take 1 milk ooo, before go for evening walk, I drink again ooo :( 'aiyo, evening not count one, coz u did exercise right? so the milk become sweat already lo' later papa scold me.. 'aiyo, u fast fast drink la, then u go to sleep, this is secret shhh..' ok ok, SISTER, I WANT MILK :D

hahaha laogong always said I too soft to my bbb :p I ready from patenting articles, children at 6-8 years old, normally they will become bug eater. coz this I'd the time for rapid body growing n more activities too. so children need the calories to let them stay energetic. it is better we let them eat healthy foods but not to stop them from eating. the better way to control their weight is, increase their activities, so the food intake is balance with the energy output. so guess what? my bbb do sit up every night! siblings helping each other to do exercise :p evening my papa or Digo bring them to playground or beach side to exercise too.

see, bbb n laogong are so concern about their body weight, only me.. hmm non stop thinking where to go n travel then try nice foods with sis? this Friday night want to eat ikan bakar or sotong bakar ^0^

thursday lo~

when I put in title of this post, I checked again the calendar 'today is Thursday? sure?' time flies sooo fast! sometime when I think of stopping working, I would have this thought '5 working days in a week, with 20days annual leave, at least 10 public holidays off days, why do I need to stay at home?' hmm

yesterday I shared with my boss about my 'stay home mummy' plan. pass few years, the feel to stop working is very strong, when bbb were still small, need more of my attention. but now, they play together, they watch tv, they go exercise with my dad or Digo, they go weekend classes... in fact, sometime I feel lonely n nothing to do without them. I go n look for them instead of they come to mummy. so, what's the purpose of I stop working?

of course, I can do more for my children if I stay at home n fully monitor them, but if I work, with the income, I can spend more on their enrichment class eg language class, drama singing dancing taekwando... n with the company insurance medical coverage, we save quite much in medical expenses n no worries more when medical treatment is needed.

my boss said ya, better to let children equip with the skill sets n prepare them to face the future challenge. continue working, n work for my career enhancement. hmm time goes by, requirement n need change, thinking also change. now I enjoy my role as working mother. after work, I teach children home work, revision with them. weekend, cook for them. quite a balance life :D



last night revision - angel


morning reading games, Eva is teacher, angel is student. when angel answer all the question, eva said 'ya, very good!' :)

my bf

'每个嘴里说不想恋爱的人，
心里都装着一个无法拥有的人'
love this quote, it tells those ppl who say don't want love relationship, there is someone in the heart who the person can't own him/her.

well, back to my bf story. recently I have more phone calls during working hours, I have calls to ask me what time I am coming back home, what I am doing, taken my meals.. sweet voice from this boy..



my royee, nowadays, he non stop calling me to report what's happening at home, or just chit chatting for nothing! mummy~ mummy~ non stop. he normally waits for me to kiss him good night then only sleep, so this thing always happens..



just hoping, when royee got to know more ppl numbers, he won't calling ppl n chit chatting for fun, so my phone bill wont be costly. now har, even he steps out from the house to follow my family members go out for meal 'oh!! I forgot to bring my handphone! I want to call mummy' hmmm in fact that was the house number, but normally only he makes calls :p great thing, laogong is paying the bill :p

beautiful 1st march

ya a brand new month ^^ a very good morning with laogong kisses n children laughter. good gals n boy, got ready n waiting for me :D step out the house, cooling feel. I told bbb 'wahh what a good day, this is time to sing this song..' what's the song? royee asked. I got in the car n play this song, n sing with them :>

清晨朝阳 天空照耀
仿佛对我微微笑
阵阵微风 徐徐吹送
逍遥自在白云飘
鸟语花香 绿草如茵
青春时光多美好
尽情欢唱 尽情欢笑
烦恼全都不见了
在基督里 享受主爱
自由奔放乐开怀
世上没有任何事物
能隔绝神的爱
在基督里 享受主爱
自由奔放乐开怀
我要赞美 我要歌颂
造物主的奇妙爱

stay in God, enjoy God's love, unrestrained freely n happily ^^

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aaTumdwaon8&feature=youtube_gdata_player






laogong's bday night dinner :D look at the left pic, a 31 year old man was thinking 'how to settle the car repair bill ar?' hehe lagong was on leave yesterday, whole day time staying at the workshop. big overhaul of the old car. he non stop telling this 'my birthday present, car brokedown the midnite, then big bill to settle, so sad' @_@ but last night dinner quite yummy lo.. simply delicious! rm25 only on me! :p






am reading this book. a book that I felt interested to know the full story when I only read the 1st recommend page from a doctor. this book shares about a woman who got cancer that need to remove her 1 breast, then slowly go to ovarian, womb, then there us cancer or tumour in her pelvic bone which cant be remove but go thru frequent chemotherapy. along this 20 years, the woman positive mindset n attitude to tackle all sorts of her feeling. n she joined cancer patients sharing group to help more ppl who are suffering the same illness like her. this is a translated version, u can go n look for English version n get inspired. this book not only tells how a cancer patient feels, but also knowledge of cancers n treatments.

ok, pen off here. want to call laogong to check how's the STD1 registration for angel n Eva going on. laogong is in klang school now ^^

my Sunday

laogong gone to Johore with in laws to visit relatives, so me n bbb n sis at home. today 27 is Bruce's bday, but Bruce has his business partners meeting. so me n sis stayed together.


morning royee watching thomas n friends in my room n 2 gals playing barbie dolls at downstairs ^^


prepared this for the children, but I ate a lot :p butter sugar oat cheese French loaf slices

visited to my gogo's house with my french loaf slices n green pea cupcakes n played with yujet nephew. what a cute boy. sis looked at yu jet, she also think to have a own baby :)


bought the books from popular bookstore. I myself loves the book quality n colourful pages. rm12.90 each. I get 10% discount with member card. about rm140 for 12 books. 4 book each set. hmmm can feel the impact when buy things for 3bbb @_@

28/2 laogong's bday. my month end closing too. I asked laogong to come back banting, then I will gift myself to him :p hehe

pinkie red Thursday w

in the season of pink guava ^^


chic nestum + organic oat for breakfast. bun for dinner - coz got morning meeting till lunch time. lunch time eat Thai sauce chicken fried rice + hot tea-o set.


celery + corn + tomato + onion + carrot + pumpkin soup - my dinner today with the above pic chicken floss bun


final year for bbb to study in the same school. next year royee std1 lo. next month need to register gal gal for y2013 primary school
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ps: before reaching home, mum asked me brought back home 5pc of kfc fried chicken. see, she alone fat never mind ma, me n royee n maid sister shared the fat n calories too! :( so tonight my supper is - 1 original recipe chicken breast n 1 bowl of bird nest. hmmm... now doing face mask n blog, at the same time I open my legs close my legs exercising, to get rid a little bit of my guilty feel :S

all calories count!

morning kelam kabut to prepare everyone to school, n need to check their homework before leaving the house. ohhh.. royee has many mirror eyesight prob writing, Eva does more than teacher asking, angel doesnt complete her homework!

in fact, yesterday we received complaints from angels's class teacher, as she didn't do 3 days homework, n not easy to get her sit down n complete homework :( a good brother, royee explained to teacher, angel was not lazy, she didn't do her homework coz she was falling sick for few days. how serious? super high temperature! can boil 3 eggs very fast with her forehead aaahh!!!

so, am a bit late to catch the earlier train. so I bought myself breakfast from the roadside makcik stall..



a pack of sinful nasi lemak with half rice, less sambal but fried egg added :p enjoyed the yummy hot food in the car n listening to the energetic songs ^^

well, let see how the calories go..

nasi lemak (the rice only) - 389.5
1 whole egg with yolk - 68.5
sambal - 60
cucumber - 4
total >>> 522 ^O^

my daily needed calorie is 2200 (calculated based on the body weight n height n the body activity). but if I want to lose my weight says 1kg a week, so my daily calorie intake need to be 1500, n calorie output is 2000+ hmmm input can be controlled in weekdays (weekend with devil sis, no guarantee :p) but for output 2000 hmmm weekdays reach home already want to sleep lo, can only do some body part exercise on bed only angkat kaki sit up itu saja.

my mum loves kfc now, quite frequent she asks for kfc after 9pm+ @_@ let's see, how much calorie come together with the yummy foods

Chicken drumstick OR – 149
Chicken drumstick HS – 178

Chicken wing OR – 146
Chicken wing HS – 211

Chicken tight OR – 250
Chicken tight HS– 365

Chicken breast OR – 394
Chicken breast HS – 505

Mashed potato with gravy – 126
Wedges - 249
Coleslaw – 233.5
Zinger tower burger – 719.5

wahhh!!! my favourite zinger burger 700 calorie! ok, I shall stop eating fried chicken or burger for fun :S

acv hair mask

used left hand to apply medicated oil on my belly, then used the same hand to apply collagen oil on my face. so, my face is HOT! :S

referring to my previous post on apple cider vinegar hair treatment, tonight is the 2nd time I do it :D



mix 1:1 acv n water into the spray bottle - I used 1.5 bottle for my hair. advise to spray or pour the mixture in open space, coz the vinegar is stink :p later fainted in the closed bathroom :p


then I wrap the hair + head with plastic bag. if use towel, later all vinegar smell. I purposely snapped happy face, so ppl will be happy to try this treatment :p

I wrapped the head for 30min. I watched the news n eating kfc fried chicken! well, my mama purposely bought it for me afraid I feel hungry for working late. it's ok, original recipe is lesser calorie compare to hot n spicy recipe, n I ate only 1 breast part :p


this is the pic after I washed my hair. wrapped the head with towel for 15min so spend less time to blow dry the hair. in the 15 min, I tried on my new dress which I bought from net. this time, the size is ok :D the puc taken with the new dress. why my face is :( coz eva didn't want to take pic for me. she was sleeping, when she turned her body (I disturbed her actually) she looked at me, sat up, then slept balik hmmm..

ok, good nite lo~ 00:08 now..

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previous post for steps
http://sweetiemich.blogspot.com/2011/02/hair.html