message to dearest j13219

Last weekend, when I attend the kinder prize giving ceremony, I saw this picture which is one of the winners’ art pieces. This made me stopped n looked at it. It made me think of J13219 – my best friend group. I feel warm n look at it, all those school time memories, what we did in the past came in my mind. Miss those days, happy n sad together. Exchanges diaries, shared beautiful songs, handmade gifts to each other, then from morib beach to mamak stall, then from phone calls to emails. Time flies, but our friendship connections are still there. Am waiting, waiting for the crossroad, where 3 of us can gather again, and continue our journey with each other like what we had in our ‘young’ time ^_^

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got this from mei mei this morning ^_^

Yes, miss those good old time..I still keep all the letters & gifts... hoping one day when we get together again we can read those letters & have a good laugh of our young & naive days..:)Another fren i knew since I was in aus 10 years ago is moving interstate & I cried at work after she told me the newsI was a bit suprised why I even did that. I don't normally cry. Maybe the older I get the more emotional I get..The older I get, The more I realised the lesser good frens I got..Sometimes, i do wonder, if I didn't go to Aust, wat we will become? It maybe be a whole different stories all together?Anyway, with the distance & family commitment between us, I really hope that one day "like wat Seew said 3 of us will cross path again..back to the good old days, And better still, just like my favourate song, "let us grow old together slowly....

Eng

1st movie watching experience

27/6/2010 we brought bbb to the cinema. on father's day, when we passed by cinema at aeon bukit tinggi, royee told me 'mummy, i never watch movie in the cinema, i want to watch movie in the cinema, dark dark de' i kept his wish list in mind, then i got the free tickets from boss, so laogong n i bought another 3 children tickets for TOY STORY 3. children were excited, n in full gear - jackets n long pants, hehe gonna be cold in the cinema.

hehe.. while waiting for the show..

A-team

'pong pong pong'

macam macam..

knight n day - angels are acting cool!

frozen.. sejuknya...

the karate kid!

there are few funny quotes from bbb in the cinema.. when eva was looking for her shoes 'mummy, switch on the light la! so dark!' or angel asked 'mummy, why dont want to switch on the light? i cant find my shoe!' wonder why these 2 gals non stop looking for shoes during the movie playing.. ya, angel n eva went to the toilet, each went once.. so laogong have to went to the toilet twice! :p royee non stop asking 'mummy, is outside night time already?' maybe he was in the dark room wonder what's happening out there :p it was 1pm show..

what a great experience to bring bbb to the cinema, quite behave, they finsihed watching the story n understand the storyline. of course, non stop questions popping up when they dont understand the story. have the interest to bring them for nice movie in the future :p

BUT... i am sooooo regret from this 1st time experience when i heard my mum telling me, royee complained 'wai po, mummy didnt buy us pop corn to the cinema, mr bean and his girl friend bought pop corn n eat in the cinema, but we have nothing, only our drinking bottle' ahhhhh... in fact, royee asked 'mummy, are we buying pop corn?' when we were waiting for the movie, i was thinking that, this is their 1st time, i dont know if they gonna be alright in the cinema, later with pop corn dirty up the shirts or fighting for food, then it gonna be worse.. but then, now i realized that, i have given incomplete 1st time experience to royee for movie watching.. hmmmm next time, i will make sure i buy pop corn for them..

Blue blue cute avatar :p

Because of kak tina-my exxx supervisor asked me to stay cute like avatar keke then I told her I gonna wear blue on my bday..

Then I got ym message from Normah this morning, asking if I am wearing blue? So, I snapped the below pic in rush!

Ya! Am wearing blue today! Hehe taken this pic in the car, train coming, so rush, till I forgot to close my mouth hehe so tunjuk gigi :D no red lipcream yet, coz normally I use versaline in the morning to treatment my lips, then color it when I reach the office. So many pimples hor hmmm..

just bought this sunglasses on last sunday, together with sis. See my hair in brown? Now I am in the midst of changing my hair color from red/magenta to brown. Need another 2-3 times the only can get rid of the red color on my hair end.

So kelam kabut n sent bbb to the kinder. They brought the candies pack. Teacher said 'today is mama's birthday aaa? Sheng ri kuai le!' I feel shy shy in the car kekeke :p last Sunday my kaima called me, asked if I have any bday party at bkt31? I said, 'I am 31 ler, not 3 ler..' but now, my excitement is like celebrating 3 years old bday ooo hahahaha :D

28032010 9th anniversary

This is to remember our 9th paktor anniversary. There are ups n downs in these 9 years. There are days I thank for meeting laogong on 28/3/2001 but there are days, I wish I could enjoy more days as a single :p

Friday nite laogong was still undecided to go taiping for ching ming with his family, I said go la what's wong? Pray for your grandpa grandma ma. He said 'sunday is our anniversary ooo, u won't get angry meh?' ya hor, I only remember 28/3/2010 is my papa's 60 bday n the last class for my baptise program hmmm 'then? What u going to do on that day? What u gonna to do for me? I never hope for anything, so it's ok if u want to go taiping, I am fine' a wife who is not lovely at time :S

A gold necklace n a cross!

A surprise gift from laogong in Saturday nite. I got speechless when I saw it. Coz I expect this gift from my parents since my sis told me that. When laogong came in the room I asked him.
Mich: why so big gift for a paktor anniversary?
Laogong: this gonna be gift for paktor anniversary, your baptise, n your coming bday :D
Mich: har? If there is the case, then this gift is not 'heavy' enough lo :p

As return gift, I bought this 'elderlyberry yogurt mousse' cake for laogong.

Quite yummy! Now only I know jusco la boheme sells cake sense's cake ^_^

Cut the cake together, all pose directed by sis :p

2 red strawberries for laogong n laopo :p

I like this pic, I look like a 'lemah lembut' wife who 100% attracted by laogong's talk :D

Thanks mehmeh for all the pic ^_^ wish u n Bruce love love forever :*

beautiful story for tomolo

Life has no rewinds n no forwards.
it unfolds at its own place.
so nevar miss a chance to live today.
n make a beautiful story for tomorrow.

'Dear,i always think about the email bout ur prob.i worry is thr any life threatening incident..i hope not..do take care dear.u r my 1 and only best fren.i will pray hard for u'

Read these messages from arpu this morning. Sorry gal, made you worried about me, thanks for your messages ^_^ am doing ok, now is month end, always busy at work during month end, so lack of time to update u. Btw, I am not the type of person, who settle life issue by stopping my own precious life. All the life challenges given by God I would accept them n try to solve the problems in His will ^_^

This time the case is my maid asking for early release in last wednesday, maybe, with a wrong way. I can just send her back as her wish, but they are impacts stay in my home. Many things I need to make a new adjustment n arrangement. They are things that money can settle, but they are definitely we have more things that need time n love to heal the wounds.

As of now, am feeling ok coz they are things that have gone for good movement so far. 1st, the maid's checkout memo has been done yesterday, so this Saturday I will book air ticket for the maid.

For time being am not going to hire any new maid, everyone is phobia about the maid - the closenest outsider. So, i looked for childcare center to take care angels in the afternoon. Having kind hearted Banting 'net friends' I have found the childcare center which very near to my parents house. So my plan was send angels for day care, then my mum taking care royee alone. Coz royee can be little helper to my mum, n I am worried his asthma case also, need more attention.

However, last nite, when my bro got to know my plan, my digo said this is not the best way to bbb 'don't u think this is so odd? We picked up 3 children from the kinder, along the way, we drop 2 gals at the childcare center, how would these siblings feel? Somemore, they take nap in the afternoon, n only few hours before u come back home, I can handle' my bro offered help to take care my bbb. Since he is back to Banting to help out my parents, so he can take care children. In fact he is very disagree to my plan.

Since this might be a better way if digo taking care bbb, so for time being let's try lo. Mum is worried who to do housework n everything, I been promising to her, I will do everything before work n after work. We may hire day time cleaner once a week for 'better service' than my daily cleaning. Thanks digo for helping me to explain everything to my mum, so now my mum soften her disatisfaction for not continue this maid who we still don't know she is a good person?

Tuesday nite I sat down with my mum, telling her all my feeling toward that incident. My mum too. We were chatting for more than 2 hours, talking heart to heart, I feel happy for this chatting session, coz I can feel mum feeling ok with me after few days of silent war. Last nite,she even taught me how to cook 'mi Hun kueh' :D n she can chat happily with me, laogong, digo n we all laugh together :D thanks God for listening to my prayer ^_^

Yesterday I talked to my maid too, although her fierce face still in my mind. I advise her how to pack her luggage, how much Malaysia ringgit n rupiah to be changed. She happily showed me all the gifts my mum given to her. I have released the weird feeling between her n me. But I still protecting my heart for not being so open. Coz, I still can't accept a person who I have been trusted can change to be a lion roaring in front of me with knife too. Hmm I need to accept this 'we are not staying in fairy tales, u must accept your friends can be the secret killer' I still can't accept this...

More things to plan out in these few months, my parents medical checkup n operations, relationship n feelings between my hubby n parents, my children next year school locations... Will give myself time for what I can't control, don't want to pressure myself.

Give thanks to whom support me in this incident, especially to my siblings. Thanks for all the prayers from church members n arpu ^_^ thanks for bbb understand this 'kakak is leaving us, coz she miss her baby n her baby needs mummy' bbb are so lovely these days, their love n kisses cheer me up, eventhough most of the time eva n angel 'mama is fat fat' :p give thanks to laogong for doing housework in bkt31, when we didn't bring maid along. last but not least, I love my papa n mama for crying for me, n loving me ^_^

Be thankful, am still working in the office, don't need to stop working immediately to full time taking care bbb, so I can continue my self challenge: to get promotion soon :D excitement is coming around the corner, tomolo we gonna get our performance bonus! Woohoo~~

Ps: sis planning to have her wedding ceremony by next year, i will make it as my wedding :p may wear White gown n snap pic with sis n bbb in the studio kekeke if n only if, I can buang many kg away :D

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A day in White

Photo snapped in meeting room. Nice color pencils n the mug.

Tuesday. Today am wearing White quality ambassador t-shirt. Want to be in White, make myself feeling peaceful. So many things to be thinking of, not only for this month, another few months, but next year n year after. All the decisions need to be settle in a month time. Am trying to clear my mind now for office work 1st, personal issue, set aside, leave the office then only think about it.

Angel's pretty smile this morning still in my mind :) great smile to start my today lo! Train is stopping..


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My 1st card order

This is what I did for my colleague - 10 years old party invitation card. Her twin daughters bday this week. I designed the card followed the party theme, then printed them in 4R photo size at photo studio. Hani said, she got few good comments from some parents, asking about the price too! Am happy about this :D now waiting for laogong to come out the quote for future order :p hani asked me to be party planner too hehe. Accepted her order for 200 pcs crystal jelly ^_^

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Apply for std1 school

Been waiting for this day to apply primary school seat for royee. 2 years ahead, what a long period. Get all required documents done, asked laogong to reach the school office by 8:30am, faster get it done then he won't be late to work.

Laogong said he reached there by 8:20am, got the application form, filled up then went to take number, he got number 40+ n before 9am, 60+ numbers taken. Total 100 numbers prepared for a day he guess. Wow.. Today is only 1st day already long queue.

I hope I can get a seat in this school, the nearest school from bkt31. It is mire convenient, n bbb dont need to ve on thd road for longer time, dangerous. Next year, the same date, am gonna do the application for angels. I told laogong 'next year u need to be there early, coz u need to take 2 numbers :p

School chop on the back of royee's birth certificate, it recalled my memory on my primary school 1st day schooling :) time flies~

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mummy~~

out of sudden, I have this thought. When your bb calling u ‘mummy~’ ‘mama’ ‘amma’ how do u answer the bb

junie: yesssss darling
nana: ye????? ha??????? apa???????
faizah: apa sayang?
anis: ya sayang, ‘name’ ya
jamuna: yes yuvaneshen or yes baby or yes sayang
asmiza: ye sayang, yes darling, ye..yes..yup, watsup

Michie: yes baby..?, yes?

^_^ sometime the way we answer our children may change the topic or willingness our children to share with us. If bb happily come to us, then we with angry tone ‘zuo mo!!!??’ (what??!!) or ‘what again?!’ then bb may say ‘nothing la’ then quietly walk away.. I always have this thought in mind, never hurt ppl heart then only want to comfort ppl bcoz of we feeling guilty after seeing ppl face expression. If we don’t want to hurt ppl with our tone n words, then do it right at the 1st place. – my laogong always like to use those words that bring down ppl mood then only he ‘michelle, u angry ar? don’t angry la, just now what were u talking?’ L

Read a parenting book, something like ‘how to talk to your children, so your children will talk to u’ tips n techniques in the book are very useful to encourage children talk to parents. And it giving inspirations on how we have better relationship between husband n wife. However, when we r not in the mood, or, we r in the mood of quarrel, all the tips would be put aside already la.. to children, i normally try to control my mental n emotion, but for laogong, I normally tak boleh tahan one :S hmmm

Y2010, be a lemah lembut punya wife :p

1st day of my 2010

What a nice new year holiday, I enjoy the 3-days break, now waiting for 1/2 kl offday :p some pic to share, kick off my year 2010 :D

After 2009 last supper - very yummy craypot dried lou shu fun

n the so called 'u sure mau order 1 saja? Saya punya popiah sangat sedap ooo' - popiah for me..

...and very worthy n tasty ikan bakar n super long queue ginger soup (not in pic) for sis..

We snapped our 1st pic of the year!!

Hehe manja sis :")

a bit wu Liao :p

Went to Herbaline klang bukit tinggi for full body massage

After the rm118 for 2pax massage, sitting here n drinking the Ginger tea. N we started to talk or dream? about 'meh, faster la, next time we share money to buy a bigger house, bungalow type, with garden n compound one, then we do something like this, tropical concept... Must have sunlight in one, or else won't feel natural...'

ya, hope a better financial tiger year for me n sis, then we can have more spa massage, facial, hair treatment, nice food, diy travel plans... This year sis's wanna CHANGE herself, in n out. As she said, quite costly also to change outer look n buy those ting ting tong tong accessories eg ear rings, hair clips.. Nice dress also not cheap lo if u buy more. Hair treatment need time n money too if u want the silky smooth long hair..

For me, just hoping I have better health. Within 2 weeks, I have 4 ppl telling me my stomach n digestion system is weak, the hospital surgeon, my gynae, Thai massage shifu n the facial beautician. Hmm I will google more on this topic, hope the condition can be improved by changing my diet n habits.

Need some home income skill for what if I stop working when I fully staying in klang. This year, I will explore more to upgrade myself. 1st thing came across my mind is cooking n baking. Need to cook nice food to tarik laogong's hati, who knows I gonna be looking like kampung ah soh if I stay home as housewife :p then if I can bake well, then I might be like my mummy who earns from home baking. Can take care children, n have income from interest too. Btw, read the papers summary on expenses for students 1st day to school, from kinder till secondary schools, private n government schools, all the fees, books, reference, transportation, foods... Wahhh not cheap! So if I can handle my own bbb eg transportation n food, then I might save more than I work. Childcare center not cheap too.

A new beginning, new calendar, new diary.. Let's start everything with uhhmmm! and thankful n greatful heart ^_^

again, HAPPY 2010!!

Goodbye 2009

'Hi how r u? Time flies, come to year end. Think of u given me the millenium new year gift, 10 years already :) wish u happy new year :D'

Sent a SMS to a special friend, time flies~ when we were worried about Y2k n excited about millennium, n now we r leaving 2009 to 2010. My 1st doggie Nikie is a millennium puppy, born in 1st day of 2000, n he is now 10 years old. Still the obedient n yet naughty one, after having my bbb, I got him neglected. Still I say byebye to him when I leave home to work, n 'nikie boy' when I step home everyday :)

2009 is a very challenging year to me, everything from my health, my bbb, my love relationship.. Hope everything is going to settle down, n a new beginning in the brand new year. My HOPE in 2010 :D



Final lunch for 2009, sponsored by boss, ice lemon tea n prosperity beef burger from mcD



A sunshinez thanks note to bosses, project managers, end users, office mates ~@~

Wrap up my year 2009 with this lovely song, telling finally I am not alone, coz I have found true love, Jesus's love that gonna stay with me eternally ^_^ a to-do list that I had set up since I was very small, finally I have made my 1st step, called up pastor, to ask for baptism course schedule, going to baptise myself continueing to be a happy Christian :)

我不喜欢一个人 孤独一个人
数算夜空的星辰
期待有人陪我 陪我渡过
每个日出每个日落
曾经总是一个人 孤独一个人
面对生命的所有
我期待有人陪我 陪我渡过
每个春夏和秋冬
陪我一起欢笑 陪我一起流泪
陪我回忆 陪我梦
给我一个拥抱 一些些安慰
低落时不离开我
陪我一起欢笑 陪我一起流泪
陪我回忆 陪我梦
分享我的一切 喜乐与哀愁
陪着我天长地久
　
　 如今不再一个人 孤独一个人
　 面对生命的所有
　 找到一份真爱 耶稣的爱
　 陪我伴我到永久

蝴蝶飞呀

我把青春作个风筝往天上爬
贝壳爬上沙滩看一看世界又多么大
毛毛虫期待着明天有一双美丽的翅膀
小河躺在森林的怀抱唱着春天岁月的歌
我把岁月慢慢编织一幅画
梦是蝴蝶的翅膀
年轻是飞翔的天堂
放开风筝和长线把爱画在岁月的脸上
心是成长的力量就像那蝴蝶的翅膀
迎着风声越高歌声越高亢
蝴蝶飞呀就像童年在风里跑
感觉年少和彩虹比海更远比天还要高
蝴蝶飞呀飞向未来的城堡
打开梦想的天窗让那成长更快更美好

Sometime, I do wish there is U-turn for time n choice. The 'no turning back' somehow push me to become matured instantly n most of the time, companied with broken heart n tears. Anyway, as what my section head always mentions, there is no reverse gear for all these changes, so we must think for solutions n make the worse to better... Yup, challenges make u better n not bitter :)

'and now, let the weak says I am strong, let the poor says I am rich, bcoz of what the Lord has done for us, GIVE THANKS'

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happy 4t bday~

time flies~ royee is a big boy now :) n thanks for everything and everyone who guide me and groom me in the motherhood experience ^_^ back in year 2005, i was having uneasy feeling on my big tummy, sort of period pain, admitted to be monitored by my gynae, i was feeling ok at that time, coz i was waiting for my 1st bb to b delivered.

today, in year 2009, am also also having lower abdomen pain, when serious, then it would be like contraction pain, if normal, then it would be like period pain. same thing, my gynae given me 3 days mc, taken my vaginal discharge for test, n my condition is being monitored. no more vaginal bleeding after taking medic, but the pain is still on. this time, i dont feel ok, coz i dislike unknown n uncertainty.

2 days staying in bkt31, so i can have a good rest, missing bbb so much. bkt31 is so quiet when it is without bbb n sis. n my iphone has sent for warranty repair, n my laptop is at banting. so, life is so simple, when u r disconnected with outside world. no blog, no emails, no facebook, no connection. using my dad's old phone, so only sms. i prefer this silence. i can hear the fan spinning, and i can really feel which spot in my abdomen is painful. using laogong's laptop now, no mouse, a bit handicapped.

1st oct, a brand new month. busy mth for my family, bbb bday, kakak bday, mooncake festival, our 6th years anniversary. as what As told me, be brave to face LIFE. ya, am doing ok, just hoping my test report can come out faster, then my dec pap test would be ok, then i would be happily end year 2009 - a very challenging year to me!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

i love royee boy~

mummy's artist ^_^

20/8 nite i saw this memo from kinder.. angel won a prize!

that day, i cant sleep. so excited. my bbb 1st prize :D i sms to my siblings, my kai ma, and my parents in law to share this..

很开心，收到学校来函，这拜六去颁奖典礼，泺颖天使绘画得奖。

我的第一次当妈妈的小小骄傲与你分享:)

and i got this from my parents in law.. tell u.. am so happy about their love n care ^_^

阿诗爸爸妈妈很高兴有一位能干的媳妇和儿子及三位伶俐的聪明又可爱的孙子.

泺颖加油!

on 22/8, early morning i bring bbb to the kinder. 1st thing i do, see angel's drawing..

octopus :D non stop i staring at angel's name :D

angel and her drawing. she is shy

while waiting for the ceremony. now only i know how to make angel sit quiet :p

proud of my gal ^_^ small prize wins mummy heart

angel n her throphy. too shy la her..

^_^

1st meaningful and important prize in my motherhood :*

royee's music class

after singing, the q-up for stickers :p

i have enrolled royee for yamaha junior music class, with the bag of work book, theory book, dvd and cd.. every saturday myself n royee go for the 1-hour class. this is a 2 years commitment. mummy needs to be in the class with royee boy. so far, i enjoy the class n i learn to play 'marie had a little lamb' and 'twinkle twinkle little star' n do re me node :p royee always looking forward for the class, in fact, he is the one asking for this music class, he wants to learn to play piano n drums. so every saturday after 12pm, i need to push n force royee to take a short nap, so he can concentrate in the class. no matter how tired n sleepy he is, he would get up n follow mummy to the class. i like this responsible act. hopefully it gets continued.

found problem when learning to play the keyboard, this left handed boy always wants to use left hand fingers to play the do re mi, but teacher wants him to use right hand. this is the reason why i want to buy the piano after attending the 3rd class, i want to train him at home with piano keyboard. so now additional song before bbb go to sleep, fingers song :D finger number 1-5, angels enjoy this. eva wants to learn piano too! every saturday she tells me, 'i am 5 years old' coz i always tell her, 'now u r 3 years old, wait till u r 4 1st then mummy bring u to the music class'.

hope 1 day i can play many nice songs by myself. a good way to release tension too!

it’s hurt, but any better way?

who want to ask for divorce in their marriages? if not that life forces for this hard decision?

touched! happily..

"Dear, thanks to u.aft reading ur post about ur parents travelling difficulties my Hubby was so touched.last weekend we went PD just to remember back our memories.it was fun to be in the beach side with ur loved one.thanks to u."

just got sms from arpu. what a surprise to see that my blog post does touch someone heart and something lovely n sweet happened ^_^ yes, it is always nice to have our love one beside us especially when our heart is at resting mode. peaceful n yet, feeling secured n companied. yesterday i told laogong, if i have BIG money coming in like bonus or esos from company, then i would spend myself n my sis to japan. at least, tokyo disneyland. coz this is my sis's dream place, as what junie told me, travel to japan, is really a dream comes true ^_^ i told laogong, i want to go this special place when i am still young, i can walk well, n still feeling the cutie n nice things packaging as CUTE compare to if i go there when i was at old age, then i would find those cutie stuff as - wasting money :p sort of that la. dont know how to put in right words.

then i told laogong, UK n europe countries are my dreamzzz, i will visit there with u, coz the trip gonna be expansiveeeee n u sponsor me, n we share the once in a life time memory :D in fact, last evening i had mentioned about the trip few times, laogong heard it then remained silent. finally i asked 'from just now in the train until now, when i mention to go uk with u, u never happily say yes! ok, i will bring u there.. u just dont feel to go with me huh? laogong said 'mei you la, i just felt that this is still very far for me to achieve this' well, it's ok, take our time, let me go japan 1st :p BIG dream nie :p

hope all laogong n laopo, husband b wife.. all sweet sweet and get companied till old time la~ :D

18.05.2009

look at the calendar, ya, this weekend i will travel to bali. been wanting to visit to this place since years ago. hope it would be a nice one. hmm i think, i cant try their balinese massage, coz my period coming soon :S

last week, was not feeling well, flu n sore throat, then a big boil on my left cheek. still on the 40-pills antibiotic :S every 6 hours i need to take 2 pills, a bit irritates. weather is so hot, hopefully bbb stay healthy.

if take antibiotic pills can stop the illness, how nice hor, if we want to get rid anything, or some negative feeling or 'small people' then we can take the pill to avoid the issue. or, buy a brand new branded perfume, a big bottle, spray it to the air, to the grass, tree, earth.. look at the perfume spraying from the nozzle, the smell comes n goes.. so whatever u want to release out, can get a relief. press it, spray it, recall everything that r negative to u, then, like the perfume, let it dissapear in the air. empty the bottle, empty the sadness, pain, guilt, hurts, anger.. then, a brand new u! :) maybe, u need to say sorry to ppl, u r poluting the earth, sorry for wasting money to finish off a bottle of perfume in less than 20 minutes? hmmm, need to massage or use heat balm to ease the fingers soreness.. pray to God, heal the feeling..

well, a brand new week, this week, 4 working days, i need to settle my EWP accrual report, need to clear all outstanding jobs, then only fly to bali. need a mask to travel to foreigh countries n taking flight? H1N1 cases in malaysia n else where. hmm.. the death rate is not the high, so i want to be mask free la. want to travel n see the world, dont want so many hassle n burden. simple trip.

a pulitzer prize winner's speech...

This was a speech made by Pulitzer Prize-winning author, Anna Quindlen at the graduation ceremony of an American university where she was awarded an Honorary PhD.

"I'm a novelist. My work is human nature. Real life is all I know. Don't ever confuse the two, your life and your work. You will walk out of here this afternoon with only one thing that no one else has. There will be hundreds of people out there with your same degree: there will be thousands of people doing what you want to do for a living. But you will be the only person alive who has sole custody of your life. Your particular life. Your entire life. Not just your life at a desk or your life on a bus or in a car or at the computer. Not just the life of your mind, but the life of your heart. Not just your bank accounts but also your soul.

People don't talk about the soul very much anymore. It's so much easier to write a resume than to craft a spirit. But a resume is cold comfort on a winter's night, or when you're sad, or broke, or lonely, or when you've received your test results and they're not so good.

Here is my resume: I am a good mother to three children. I have tried never to let my work stand in the way of being a good parent.. I no longer consider myself the centre of the universe. I show up. I listen. I try to laugh. I am a good friend to my husband. I have tried to make marriage vows mean what they say. I am a good friend to my friends and them to me. Without them, there would be nothing to say to you today, because I would be a cardboard cut out. But I call them on the phone and I meet them for lunch. I would be rotten, at best mediocre, at my job if those other things were not true.

You cannot be really first rate at your work if your work is all you are. So here's what I wanted to tell you today: Get a life. A real life, not a manic pursuit of the next promotion, the bigger pay
cheque, the larger house. Do you think you'd care so very much about those things if you blew an aneurysm one afternoon or found a lump in your breast?

Get a life in which you notice the smell of salt water pushing itself on a breeze at the seaside, a life in which you stop and watch how a red-tailed hawk circles over the water, or the way a baby scowls with concentration when she tries to pick up a sweet with her thumb and first finger.

Get a life in which you are not alone. Find people you love, and who love you. And remember that love is not leisure, it is work. Pick up the phone. Send an email. Write a letter. Get a life in which you are generous. And realize that life is the best thing ever, and that you have no business taking it for granted. Care so deeply about its goodness that you want to spread it around. Take money you would have spent on beer and give it to charity. Work in a soup kitchen. Be a big brother or sister. All of you want to do well. But if you do not do good too, then doing well will never be enough.

It is so easy to waste our lives, our days, our hours, and our minutes. It is so easy to take for granted the colour of our kids' eyes, the way the melody in a symphony rises and falls and disappears and rises again. It is so easy to exist instead of to live..

I learned to live many years ago. I learned to love the journey, not the destination. I learned that it is not a dress rehearsal, and that today is the only guarantee you get. I learned to look at all the good in the world and try to give some of it back because I believed in it, completely and utterly. And I tried to do that, in part, by telling others what I had learned. By telling them this: Consider the lilies of the field. Look at the fuzz on a baby's ear. Read in the back yard with the sun on your face.

Learn to be happy. And think of life as a terminal illness, because if you do, you will live it with joy and passion as it ought to be lived".

transformation

year 2005 - 1st pregnancy, daughter in law, thea family, 1st car, 1st house

year 2006 - mama for a boy then twin angels joining the fun n joy

year 2007 - a house owner, a working mama, a house wife, cleaning washing tiring happy
year 2008 - laogong away from home, handling families issues, bkt31, maid

year 2009 Q1 - transformed mindset, change n adapt to changes

within these 4 years, i have gone matured. my mindset n thought do change.

changes?

my silly laughters reduced, smile of happiness n satisfaction increased ^_^

my tears increased, my relationship with God closer, be more thankful for what i am having :)

my weight increased - working to reduce it - last year end till now, static to 5kg lost :S malunya

cloth sizes increased - 1 size reduced so far ^_^

skin less firm - more lotions, cocoa butter, looking for suitable treatments

panda eyes, less sleep, less rest, more NO! - because of bbb

my hair shorter n shorter - just started to keep it longer

expenses on skincare increased - need richer nutrien n all the firming, toning, lift up :S

started taking supplement hmmm..

face mask - weekly

perfume, color on lips - sometime need those cosmetic things to build confidence

from adventure trip, to the sky n the sea

from night person, to sunny sweetie ~@~

from a quiet gal, to talkative mummy --- comment from my brother :S

from more pictures, to more words - choice of book

from blue to red to green - favorite color

plain water to warm plain water n hot green tea

knowledge, experience, wisdom grow everyday

being stronger n stronger - told my friend, once become mother, then the sky is the limit :p

anything remains the same?

love n respect to parents n siblings

caring to friends n ppl around

still an angel ^0^- laogong non stop mentioning this, he feels pressure to do naughty things :p

love this universal, love the life journey, love laogong :*

love to share, love to observe, love to learn, love books n songs, photography, love new tech

oh ya.. from y2002 till now - maxis maxis maxis :p - loyalty subscriber n employee! (hope we can get good rebate for new lauching 3G iPhone :p tomolo is the launch~)

what now?

ya.. march ending.. i think, i am ready to step forward, to the age of 30! ^_^ aiya, suddenly wrinkle issue came to my mind :( takpe la, as long as everyday can kiss my shonejay angels bbb soft skin, nice smell, cute faces, lovely actions, wetty kisses :p warm hug, chances for me to learn patience n time management, trained my heart muscle :p no la, i just simply love my bbb so much!

would be on leave tomolo, papa mama will travel to china, so as what my colleague said 'happy holiday, be a good mother ya!' hehe.. i am a good mother, who only hit children with my own hands - no rotan, let's together feel the pain ^_^