Thursday, April 28, 2011

old time

last nite, talked n talked, mum asked me to stop working 'bring all your children back to your home' hmm '50+ years old still need to take care all these children, when can I rest, life where got fun?' complaining loudly.. my heart being bang! I replied softly, 'next year, next year I will move out, bring 3 of them out n stay in klang' I was feeling upset, all sort of feeling in me. Digo told mum 'aiya, u talk only, later when they are away not even 1 week u gonna miss them again..'

don't know how to explain my feeling. i feel so sorry to trouble my parents, feel sorry to my children for being punished sometime just due to adult frustration, i feel sorry to laogong, for parents may look down or complain on him, due to me want to have secured environment for bbb edu..feeling sad for myself, coz my parents dont understand my feeling to stay with them n can company them too...just hoping when I am old, I would consider my words to my children, n don't hurt them intentionally.

many things we talked last night, n many stories are about me, 1 day will betray my parents n siblings. how sad it is. how I wish to tell them 'if I really did that in future, I was not betraying u all, but my God' hmm sometime, I would have that feel, you all get all the name for all the properties, then u all handle everything. don't imagine negatively about my character because of money matter. ppl who are care about money more than love, the trustworthy is not there.

mentally exhausted night.. I get myself a conclusion - the moral of the story is, talk less involve less suggest less on ppl issue. be like Eva, smile all the time when ppl talking to her.. then less issue n argument.

hmmm wonder why, most of the time my good intention being interpreted wrongly but ppl? manipulation of my good words is to protect ppl weakness n challenge my trueness? devils come out when money matter involved, when self benefits involved. I am not saint, but I really don't want to involve love in money matters. pls trust me in this n stop hurting me by saying 'what if 1 day u betray me..'

aaaa.. finished my breakfast sub n coffee, go to the office, start the month end closing. recently, I drink coffee, hmmm more headache.

Wednesday, April 27, 2011


get my bbb to sit down n I have important decision that needs their confirmation. my plan is - all move to klang by next year. means, royee standard 1 at klang, then angels need to transfer kinder.

picture taken before the sit down talk. coincidentally, angel n royee having the mirror pose :)

bbb are ok with the plan. as long as they are staying together, they are excited. just hoping the kinder that I going to enrol, will be ok, as caring as the current kinder they are in.

laogong asked me how much cost it gonna increased from the current expenses? this is a headache question, coz this is not only double, but at least triple jump on the children education expenses with transportation as well. so, papa n mama needs to work much harder lo~

this weekend, will survey kinder at klang area. hope everything goes well ^^

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

JM limited edition

at last I found n bought this :D


album cover..

inner look..

inner look..

inner old folk look :p

Jason mraz pic n hand written lyrics..

the cds n DVD

so now, everyday am listening to the 2 cds in the car during the journey to n back working ^^
have confirmed this weekend labour day holiday trip to Cameron highlands - my family n sis couple. still convincing papa n mama to join us. last night I shared with bbb about the trip, Cameron highlands, vegetables n fruits, the weather, the tea leaves, flowers n the cactus. found out one thing, Eva is good in guessing, she think for the answer in fast speed, royee answer quick if the answer is at his tongue. angel is the one shout for the answer after ppl telling the answer. follower. cute!

btw, last night papa told me teacher said angel can't pronounce 'seven' in Chinese. hmmmm.. instead of 'qi' she pronounces it as 'c' need to help her on this.

Friday, April 22, 2011

Good Friday

ya today is Friday. Good Friday. children methodist kinder offday. I will be on half day leave too. tonight we will go to Good Friday service at at church.

last night I showed royee n angel on the video related to Good Friday and Easter. n shared the bible stories with them. angel slept with me on the bed last night, non stop telling me there was a hand n bad guy in the aircond unit. made me so confused. even used her blanket to cover her head so the bad guy couldnt see her :S

last night, I shared with my mum n Digo bro a real story which my boss shared with us during department comm session. let's imagine this...

a tourist threw away an unfinished food at the roadside. then a monkey came by and ate the food. suddenly came out a dog fought with the monkey for the food. when dog was eating, then came out a man chased away the dog, and he ate the remaining food.

there was pictures taken on the monkey n the dog. but when the man came into the picture, my boss didn't snap the pic, to respect the man. besides that, my boss all @_@ with the scene.

the moral of the story is in your mind n heart. don't waste food and all earth elements. n for te guilty, me n sis shouldn't eat so much 'luxury' or 'buy great restaurant experience' so often. gained weight then lose weight for fun but ppl in poor country are not having sufficient foods. that day I read a report, for every 8sec? there is a child dies because of hunger. this is real sad.

hmm since last night I have been fasting, for Good Friday. hope I have the strength to complete an 1day. pray for all the children who are hunger for foods and love.

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

oh! Wednesday ending..

having sore throat. sing songs to royee but he cannot fall asleep, coz I cough n low pitch voice. he non stop - pitch higher a bit.. oh.. so demanding.

he was in the mood to draw. robotic cat wanted to catch the mouse which the mouse eating cheese. but then, the electricity current kill the robotic cat ahhh so pity. can see video from my Facebook on the robotic cat story.

papa said me getting fatter n fatter 'going to be fat like your mama' ohh, means that I am smaller size than my mama lo? so I am not the fattest :p silly joke, well, sis said every weekend she would exercise with me using the aerobic DVD. let's see :p

opps!! am standing on eva's mattress n typing this blog, disturb her sleep n she gone cranky n crying >.<

ok.. good nite.. need to switch off the light lo.. poor gal bullied by mummy ^o^

Monday, April 18, 2011


today I have few pictures taken. today I was in blue shirt n blue jeans. the jeans a bit loose, am I got smaller tight inches? :p today I do sand art n posing with balloons. today I smiled with big boss few times :) today again I get inspired with my big boss speech on culture and how to get promoted ^^ today, we have farewell note for the big boss - 1 of the inspired speakers I love to listen to them ^^

today I raise my hand twice for this question - who reads? who read at least a book in these 3 months? in fact, I read quite a lot - books, magazine, blogs, articles leaflet, lyrics.. mostly non business related :p more for personal growth and knowledge learning for my interested topics. and ya, I read children books too :D

today, I realise I haven't showed my bday pictures here in this blog, and few other interesting stories happen recently. am not that busy till no time to blog, I spend my free time in watching YouTube - to listen to pastors on Christianity talk and learn the words of God. besides, am searching for suitable songs for my sis wedding too.

today, I revealed a secretive secret to my sis. hope this remains as secret till no time. today, I managed to find the right direction to mont kiara club with iPhone map ^^

Eva is non stop dry coughing now. go n kiss her, then I will sleep. good night 1804.

what is always coming, but never arrive? -- TOMORROW

am looking for this album..

adults having kiddie fun

today we have our department communication session in mont kiara. will share more pic from the session when the pro camera man upload the pictures. here share some cute photos on fun stuff which children normally enjoy, and today, we all as adults experienced what normally children are having fun with :p

love the color combination :)

this is creative right? bicycle!

see how happy we are with te balloons :p non stop photo snapping..

n really queue up for the balloons!

I don't q-up for these, I borrowed from the colleague :p

after my quick lunch, I do this :p get compliments from colleagues coz nice colours combination >.<

then.. I skipped my tea time for this. love the sun n grass, looks real. n guess what, I felt a little bit regret when I knew they served very yummy choc moist cake! I have missed it!

anyway, I enjoy today kiddie fun activities. n u can hear this 'oh, I never try on this!' 'oh, now I know why my children begging me for playing sand art' :D we as a busy working parents with tight schedule for the office n children activities, sometime we need to create a little more fun in day to day that create smile on our face :D

just like ME!

btw, I did delete a sad post yesterday, some of you may read it in Sunday. just don't want to spread negative feeling to you. in fact, after about an hour very serious crying alone, I did fall asleep by hugging my royee boy. then with laogong companion too.

Arpu, I am ok, don't worry :) am just very tired love n care giving to ppl who i love, till a extent, they forgot that i am jut a little girl, who need love and care too.

with with swelling eyes, I went for sunday service at church. did tear in prayers n worshiping :~ but after leaving the church, I have the strength back to me this sweetie cutie :D

the 1st semi-auto car wash experience with bbb, have washed away the sorrow in my heart ^_^ still, am willingly to continue give me love n care to friends n families who love me n complete my life perfectly :)

Friday, April 15, 2011

royee's future

day before I shared with bbb the post 'walk with our parents' what parents did for you in the past, u need to return their cares n love when they are old. 1 of the slide telling - children growing up taller n taller, meanwhile, parents growing 'shorter n shorter' coz can't stand straight till to old age.

royee was very concern n sad about this. he asked me why am I (mummy) getting shorter? why can't I grow taller. I explained to him from baby to old age, from age 0 to 100, human being die when the time come.

last night, this topic went on again. I told him we stop growing taller at age 18. this is life cycle - you study kinder, then primary school, secondary school, university, working life, your own family, your children, then you stop working around 60, then you come to old age.

'mummy, when. I am 20 years old, how old are you?' 46. I told him, if you have you baby around age 35, then mummy is about 60 years old, mummy can see your babies. 'can I marry at age 20, then you can see my babies sooner?' you need to study, enjoy your young age, and you need to find a good girl to be your future wife'

well, more questions shoot to me 'how?' how? 'how to know the girl is good girl or bad girl?' when you are in a group of friends, you will know which girl talking softly, who likes to talk loud and being naughty. you look for girl who are tenderly to you, cares about you, good hearted to people, and girl who believe in Jesus Christ, like what you do.

the conversation happened during bed time. last night royee was serious on the talking. he thought a lot. he was so concern about 'mummy will get shorter and die then I need to do something for mummy' I let him alone do the thinking, n I left the room.

this morning. 'mummy, papa married at what age?' 23. 'why papa can marry at 23 and I need to wait for 35?' baby, you take your time to study in schools, then enjoy with your friends, then only go for marriage. 'mummy, my classmates are all very good and they believe in Jesus also'

this is what @_@ moment to me. 'baby, you dont bother about to have a girl friend now, you study first, long way to go. you have girl friend when you are in university age ok?'

hoh~ more things to be worried on with bbb hmm..


Thursday, April 14, 2011

life is wonderful

It takes a crane to build a crane
It takes two floors to make a storie
It takes an egg to make a hen
It takes a hen to make an egg
There is no end to what I'm saying

It takes a thought to make a word
And it takes some words to make an action
And it takes some work to make it work
It takes some good to make it hurt
It takes some bad for satisfaction

It takes a night to make it done
And it takes a day to make you young brother
And it takes some old to make you young
It takes some cold to know the sun
It takes the one to have the other

And it takes no time to fall in love
But it takes you years to know what love is
And it takes some fears to make you trust
It takes those tears to make it rust
It takes the dust to have it polished

It takes some silence to make sound
And it takes a lost before you found it
And it takes a road to go nowhere
It takes a toll to show you care
It takes a hole to see a mountain

Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la
Ah la la la la la life is so full of love

Wednesday, April 06, 2011

rain coat

rain coat for raining day..

am sick, so sick. tired to go to clinic, so now waiting for my antibody to fight with virus. flu flu flu n my body is warm :(

last night met up with my best frens eng n Mei. nice chat. both of Mei n I stay in Banting, but the frequency to meet up each other is same like eng who is from Australia. everyone has own life to be caring own friendship is growing in emails n SMS.

hmm pen off here. my nose is wet again :~

still, angel wants to attach with me :S