allowed myself to online browsing for 45 minutes, go to sleep at 1am. hmmm now is 1:03am. will go to sleep after this post. craving for more longer private time for myself. the broadband service at cyberview resort is quite ok, so am so greedy to stay awake n do as much as i can with this service. bbb are sleeping with u. both u n royee are snoring. angels are angels for both of u, eva for u, angel for royee ^_^ sometime, i really have the feeling, angelina n evangeline are really twin angels for us. they are cute n beautiful! (opps.. stop for a while, your big body is covering eva's head..)
felt guilty about royee's went down in swimming pool just now. were busy taking care angels. royee was happily swimming with the swimming ring. suddenly heard his crying, n u were enjoying your jaguzzi :( my heart pains when he said 'wo de xin hen hai pa' (my heart feels very scared) with tears in his eyes :~ how sorry n guilty for me when he said 'yi zhi chen, yi zhi chen, chen, chen, chen, mei you kan dao mama liao, mei you mama liao..' (go down n go down, down n down n down, cant see mama already, no more mama already) was still blur on what he was trying to tell 'who cant see mama?' 'royee la' suddenly, i felt to cry. now only i know what was happening just now. at 1st i thot he slipped in the swimming pool so he cried. coz the pool was not deep. n he was with swimming ring. now when i think back what was happening just now, luckily he was ok, or else, i didnt know... hmmm... non stop i explained to him, just now u didnt stand firm, coz u were tired, u didnt sleep enough. so now u go n sleep, so tomolo u have energy to walk n swim, then u wont accidently fall down in the water. i just dont want royee to have fear of water. wanted to give him that thinking, he was careless coz he didnt sleep enough. he gave me the feeling that, he would not go for the same swimming pool again. this is the mind i am trying to change.
hard to erase someone fear. that day royee was having fear of the accident man who lose his eyes n legs. till now, if u mentioned 'dont do this har, later your leg would be broken har' then his face expression would change, he pauses a while. i dont want this, i dont like this. still looking for the parenting tips on this. now, another fear, sinking in the water 'many many many water come, come, come to me, cover me, mummy no more royee' hmmm i dont want no more royee, i want my royee boy! just now i hugged him on the bed when he was telling me this, hugged him tightly, with tears in my heart.. i know, the scene is still in his mind.. how to erase it off?
1:33am. better for me to sleep now. gonna busy with children in the morning. then go back banting at 12pm. meet the contractor at bkt31 at 5pm. must be very tired trip. u asked me, why u never use your skin care? hmm not that i dont use my skin care, i use them every day n night. the best skin care is to sleep much n drink much. i got enough time to sleep meh? i can sleep well meh? i would be very happy n find myself lucky if the midnight only 1 bb crying in the midnite. oh, thank god, not that 2 of them of 3 of them are crying for something... as i told u, i may consider to change my skin care product, to higher nutrition or super essense.. coz not easy to make my skin looks young ler, going to be age 30, then busy taking care bbb, then water piping in my body system seemed to be leaking. i drink a lot, but i feel dried! hmmm.. or my body age har, is not 29, 50 maybe :p
ok la, talk much. better sleep la.. btw, thanks for coming back. i felt touched when u said 'yala, seem like something big was gonna happen, if i didnt come back here' ok ok, once a while let me play the fierce demanding wife ok! i know u r busy in the office... i really miss u ma! somemore, children also need to see the actual papa when they are learning to call papa ok! kan sweet to hear when bbb non stop 'papa papa papa' u.. heehe.. i love u :p
