FEAR

i didnt sleep well last nite. angel was active n stayed up till nearly 12am. then only slept beside me. 3am+ royee came to me n cried. wanna sleep with me on the bed. then eva crying for milk. 6am+ they woke up! :~

4am+ angel n royee

eva is drinking milk.. dalam buai

last nite royee watched news together with my parents. ternampak a car accident photo, the orang no eyes n losing 1 leg. royee non stop asking my mum why the fella got no eyes n no leg? then came to me. 'royee hen hai pa' (royee feeling scared) non stop he repeating the story. 'the eyes missing, this leg got, this leg no more, mummy, why??? royee papa, royee hen hai pa' then u tried to control his tears from falling down. so pity him. read an article last time, we need to admit n accept kids feeling, when they r mad, must tell, ya i know u r mad. when they are in fear, must tell them 'ya, mummy knows u r afraid of the photo, where the uncle lost his leg n eyes in the accident' somehow, royee still staying in the picture.. 'wai po, close the tv, royee hen hai pa, royee doesnt want to watch it' he whispering to himself.

i told him, next time u dont climb up to the table, or push your friends or gal gal. when u fell down, u get hurt, u may lost your body part. then again, he repeating the story. i know he cant erase the memory of the scene. n he really scared. i hug him. very tight. 'it's ok royee, the uncle has been sent to the hospital, doctor will fix everything for him' 'mummy, royee hen hai pa, royee doesnt want to watch the tv, royee wants to watch cartoon only :( then i asked him, we sleep ok? then i prepare him to sleep, still mumbling about the news..

to change topic, royee, u faster sleep la, mummy also wants to sleep already, tomolo mummy wants to work n earn money. 'royee also wants to earn money''wahhh, royee wants to earn money ar? when royee grow bigger, then royee works hard lo, then earn money lo''i want to earn a lot of money for mummy ooo''thank u royee, ok ok''i want to sell many many roti (bread) so i can have much money oo' (selling roti? out of so many things :p maybe another taukeh of future roti boy is here keke) 'royee, will u buy a car?''yes, i will buy a car, bring mama go swimming' hehehehe 'mama wants to travel ooo, can bring mummy to take flight ma? we go far far place la' 'ya, can, we go take photos together, royee stand here, mummy stand here, then we take photos lo' cute~~~ he smiled. then i said 'good nite royee' out of sudden, 'mummy, royee hen hai pa, the uncle losing his leg de..' :(

want to search online on related topic. see how to comfort him. n guide him to come out from his fear. this morning he also mentioned about the news on the way to the kinder. hmmm..