Tomorrow

I played 2 songs in car on the journey to the school. 'I know who holds tomorrow' - Chinese and English versions. Then I started the in-car topic..

Last year, when we talked about travelling to Lembing hill and river, with all the challenges ahead, would you feel worried?


We need 4 wheel drive car to bring us cross the bumpy road, we need to cross the river by holding he rope..


We need to climb up hill with full of stones and rocks.. You might fall dawn, you might don't know what gonna heading ahead..


But you just followed. You just go ahead and kept moving forward to the peak and we saw the beautiful waterfall and rainbow. Why didn't you say 'no' to the trip after all the difficulties and stories shared? You might hurt yourself, you might stop at the half way and didn't know how to move forward..

All this because, you know papa and mama are with you. You know papa and mama would definitely hold your hands and walk with you. When you fall down, you know who to look for, you know papa and mama gonna leading the way up to the hill or down to the stream. You know, and you are surely confidence, papa and mama won't let go you..

Same like tomorrow. We don't know how our tomorrow would be. We might not seems to understand, we might be feeling worried what gonna lay before the journey. Shall we keep moving or we just stopped at today? No, we keep moving, we welcome tomorrow, coz we know who holds the future. Who knows how to handle us and bring us to concur all the difficulties.


God holds tomorrow. God's hand raise us up. So keeping faith, and we welcome our future. If God is not allowed a single marrow to fall down, then no one would.



Why there is always 21% oxygen and 78% nitrogen in the air composition? Why the distance between the sun and the earth is always just nice - not too closed to burn us out, not too far to let us feeling super cool. Why the turning of the earth is a day, not 28 hours for yesterday and 13 hours for today? Why a year is a year?

Must be someone who designs and controls all these. Then who? If even the person was having 1000 years of life, then how about the remaining years?

Bbb: 'ya, we are now year 2015, we can at least living or 2000 years?'

Our God holds the past, today, and future. And this won't be changed. Let's move on to tomorrow, as we are closer to our God day by day.

Children and I go to the school and to the office - with hope and tomorrow :)

Happy Monday!

2205 Friday

Good morning Friday!

Can't wait for this weekend. Feel to be with children day and night, want to try new recipe with air fryer. Bought a easy step by step recipe book for cooking dishes with air fryer, I asked my children to pick up 1 recipe each, I will buy all ingredients then they learn to cook. Hoping one day, each of them can master few dishes, so children can prepare meals at home when I am away.



Dinner cooked by the men in my house. Am still missing this meal, how a warm homecook meal to fill up an empty stomach after a tiring trip back home from work. When I was stuck in the traffic jam, the boy called me up..

Boy: mummy, where are you right now?
Mummy: still stuck at xxx, not even reaching yyy
Boy: then we eat the dinner 1st
Mummy: Ya, go ahead and eat 1st, save a small portion for me is enough

Love and care from family members made me feel loved ^^ and caused me eating heavy dinner :p

But still.. After children sleeping, sis and I went out for dessert ^0^
I got myself hot black sesame soup, and sis got herself icy dessert with durian. The durian ice cream smells nice!


I like these photos :) we called up my mum and asked her a question..

Sis: mummy, would you care to being naked and be in the hot spring with sis in law?

Mummy: if you dare to have it, then me too will do it

Sis: am not hahhaha :D

So, we are still not used to do that in front of people we know. Still remember for the 1st time in the Korea public hot spring, we dare not to be in the pool just bcoz we and those aunties knowing each other.

Our 1st time being naked in the public pool was in taiwan, where sis and I took bath in the public room hmm 30 min before the operating hours which hoping not many people left in the room hahaha :D

Beginning of this year, when we were in Nagoya trip, mum, sis and I were sitting nakedly and taking bath together, the experience is nice :) but if we would want to have sis in law along.. Hahhaha the answer was no no from sis and mum. Or I guess, sis in law dont want to keke

Happy Friday!

520

Just dropping by my sis blog.. And I ponder this..

"人生就是这样，年老的走了，新生命就诞生，就这样循环循环的，你能控制不生育，但你能阻止死亡吗？"
"...You can have birth control, but can you stop the death?"

Yes we can't stop our death. Once it is the time, then we gonna lose the last breath. However, Christian believe that - For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.

约翰福音 3:16
神爱世人，甚至将他的独生子赐给他们，叫一切信他的，不至灭亡，反得永生。




Eternal life - our lives build forever relationship with God's life. The physical body can be dead, but our spirit gonna have the everlasting life.



Today is 520. It sounded as 'I love you' in mandarin - wo ai ni. Seen many lovely couples photos in Facebook. Hmm when was the last time I took sweet sweet photo with laogong har? Well, let's practise this.. A woman shall love herself 1st so her children and husband will love her more (konon la) keke..



Ya, love myself efforts..

Action 1 - bought 3 books today. Book price increased..

Action 2 - bought myself coconut shake after my heavy lunch meal of teppanyaki chicken + rice and 7 colour beans soup :D

Action 3 - applied leave for my upcoming travel trip

Action 4 - got myself involved in charity booth at the church


Charity drive to gather cash for the orphanage houses


Blissful to have the 'me' time to handmade some stuff I like to. Been thinking to do Christian handmade stuff for selling and sharing, recent years I got chances to do so :) sharing God's love to others


Young gals like these key chains


Baby girls like the colourful wooden beads necklace and bracelet ^^

Continue to be a good girl and to love and be loved :* happy 520!

Who holds tomorrow

As any ordinary school day, I send children to the school and lecturing in the car. I shared with them how important it is to have your self discipline to manage your own daily life. How the earth having the orbital revolution, how the traffic lights functioning in right order, the steps we want to fry a fish.. All are need to be in own sequence so we won't mess our lives upside down. 'How shall you focus on your university assignment while you need to figure out how to live your day without people helping?'


8:41am Blog typing paused..when I listening to this..


Without staging and make up, the vocal touched my heart..

Every step is getting brighter
As the golden stairs I climb;
Every burden's getting lighter,
Every cloud is silver-lined.
There the sun is always shining,
There no tear will dim the eye;
At the ending of the rainbow
Where the mountains touch the sky.

Played the cd which I got from the church, a sermon on parents day service few years ago with titled - who holds tomorrow'. It started with a mother and a 8 years old daughter sharing their testimony on God's miracle. I started tearing when the mum started her sharing..

At the daughter age of 4, she got this rare sickness, Severe aplastic anemia (SAA). Severe aplastic anemia (SAA) is a disease in which the bone marrow does not make enough blood cells for the body. Aplastic anemia is rare and occurs more frequently in eastern Asia countries. The story told about how the battle the difficult situation which, from white blood count of 4, which normal children got 100+ till she got 300+ white blood cells to fight for the body. How the family crying and singing with Christmas carol in the Christmas Eve, when everyone thought that would be the last Christmas to the girl. How the church fasting and praying for the girl when doctor decided to stop all medication to avoid more worse side effect... One day after so many months, the girl's marrow started to function, then fully cured which, the doctor admitted the God's miracle.

I was non stop tearing while listening to the testimony. As a mother, we know how the mother felt when it seemed no way to help and save the beloved daughter. How the joyous when the daughter has been healed by their faith by turning their eyes to the almighty. How happy it is when they started counting the birthday the can celebrate with the daughter in her new given life. The tears of happiness and appreciation.

The climax of my sentimental and dramatic sobbing session was, when the sharing session with the girl singing this..

我不知明天的道路，每一天只为主活，
我不借明天的太阳，因明天或许阴暗，
我不要为将来忧虑，因为我信主的应许，
我今天要与主同行，因他知前面如何。

我不知明天的道路，或遭遇生活苦楚，
但那位养活麻雀者，他必然也看顾我，
他是我旅途的良伴，或经过水火之灾，
但救主必与我同在，他宝血把我遮盖。

有许多未来的事情，我现在不能识透，
但我知谁掌管明天，我也知谁牵我手。


I don't know about tomorrow;
I just live from day to day.
I don't borrow from its sunshine
For its skies may turn to grey.
I don't worry o'er the future,
For I know what Jesus said.
And today I'll walk beside Him,
For He knows what lies ahead.

I don't know about tomorrow;
It may bring me poverty.
But the one who feeds the sparrow,
Is the one who stands by me.
And the path that is my portion
May be through the flame or flood;
But His presence goes before me
And I'm covered with His blood.

Many things about tomorrow
I don't seem to understand
But I know who holds tomorrow
And I know who holds my hand.


How we take thing for granted? How we not treasure the moments when we are bonding with children and the blessing to have them? How we think of our own wants and needs and neglect children love demands from us? Hmm something to ponder.. When our children are staying healthy with us, we shall spend time with them. This is not sacrifices, as we get the love and fullness from our lovely angels in return.

Lovely month

Come to the month of May, we see flowers, cakes, family photos on Mother's Day. Schools having art works and celebration for parents-children bonding activities. Parenting talks everywhere.


However, we hope that we love and care our parents are not only on these special days. Reminded myself on this too. Heard that my colleague's dad passed away this morning, heard that my another colleague's mother passed away after few months of cancer battling.. We don't know when would be our time to lose our parents, to love our parents has to be now.



How was my 2015 Mother's Day celebration? This year I got simple celebration with heart fully filled with love and blessing :)



Short trip to subway pyramid with mum on Sunday morning for nice food marathon ^^ then went back hometown for seafood yum yum :D


Sunday night we got eldest brother and sis in law came to our house for satay + ketupat + opera almond coffee chocolate cake cutting + happy chit chatting :)

For my own family, I got sushi for dinner. Saw children happily eating sushi, I felt blessed for having laogong and children together. Heart filled with love. Tummy filled with delicious sushi. Body filled with fat! :p

Told laogong what I really wanted for Mother's Day gift was - baked Japanese sweet potatoes! Feel to eat sweet potatoes for weeks @_@

We see Mother's Day presents, lovely handmade cards from children to mothers. What I got from my children? To them, most of the special days are ordinary days >< sometime I feel my children a bit cold hearted @_@
Anyway, they have given me the precious gift for this special day.


Bbb joined the choir team for praise and worship on the parents day worship @church. They wake up early to get themselves prepared and I enjoyed seeing them do the last rehearsal before the service time.


Seeing Angels getting taller. Seeing children are more behaved on the stage. Seeing them serving God with their voices and singing. Seeing them committed to the weekly choir practises and Sunday school bible learning. What a blessing bliss I got as a mum of these 3 angels :)



My grandma just got stroke. For the 1st time it is near to me for having family member who need extra care for daily living life. This has in fact touched and disturbed my heart. I know there would time my parents and parents in law need our full standby care one day. Apart from preparing myself for the day, am also keep reminding myself to love family members by showing care to them..before we lose them one day.






Happiness is family bonding hours with no hesitation.

8may Friday

When we were talking about Chinese New Year celebration, then now we are in month of May. Mid year school exam and holiday coming soon.. Time passing so fast!

Just came back from east Coast business trip. Once I reached Kota bharu airport, to talk and understand the spoken language by the local people was a challenge initially. When the situation getting better, I managed to check with the airport taxi driver, which recommended island from local people and some useful travel tips ^0^



Travelling alone made me miss my sis. The journey is lonely and quiet too.


A big hotel deluxe room with king sized bed.. Without companion. I can own the 4 pillows, 2 big towels and being naked in the room and no one cares! :p



From kelantan kota bharu to kuala Terengganu then to pahang Kuantan for 3 days 2 nights. Saw beautiful blue sky and sea, but didn't have chance to go down for a summer breeze.


Got chance to see background unsung hero working at the roadside..


Visited few east Coast service centres. Listening to sales and service team sharing their experiences with subscribers.. We care about our customers.


Met the East coast offices colleagues.. Listen to their work challenges.


On the way back to Kuala Lumpur, we stopped by for red prawn durians. Feeling not so comfortable to enjoy durian with 5 men :p

Reached home, feeling exhausted. I told colleague, I feel refreshed when I come back from leisure travel trip, but for business trip, I have actually taken half day leave to free my mind and recharge my body.


My boy told me he couldn't sleep when I was away. So he hugged my doggie for the 2 nights. As well as my children complain no mummy, no alarm clock, and they were late to school. Hehe. I shall be feeling happy for this, children need me in whatever reason - even me as a walking alarm clock :p

Yesterday sis and I were talking half day leave for few hours body battery recharge. We went for full body massage. Well, I heard her snoring, she heard mine too, we were somehow too tired...

Grab a quick late lunch then we went to visit my grandma in the hospital. 80 years old grandma got stroke. Went to the hospital and comfort her. Been having a healthy body, somehow for this round, grandma couldn't accept she can't walk and move easily. Convinced her to discharge and rest comfortably at home. Again, reminded myself, take good care of body health.

This morning I told children, come wake up, today is Friday, you can rest well at home tomorrow. Yes, can't wait for weekend and holidays. I need time for my messy room and upcoming planned events.



My colleague checked this from Microsoft.. Well, I look like age 26. Hmm not so happy with this, let's try to work out something, then test it again haha in another few years time ;p

Till then, happy Friday!

Kansai day

Sis said today is 28th of the month, aeon big is having kansai day 5% discount - 'anything you want to buy?' Can't think of any, nowadays, am trying for not spending unnecessary expenses so I can can travel more :p

Another 3 months we going to celebrate niece's 3 year old birthday. Time flies.


Lately, when we are having more bonding times for children to be together, I found my children are matured enough to take care small kid needs. Baby Shyuan has big gogo and jie jie to be with her and all together enjoying the siblings bonding. I got surprised when I knew that eva was cleaning poop poop of her cousin brother song song when digo, sis and I went out for dessert. The build up for a child who are from family with children would be different than a single child at home. At least, parents can send the single child to play school and more children outing to let the child learn and communicate with other children.

Got my breakfast with sis this morning. My mum overnights at my house. Feel the love and care :) last night talking with my mum.. Am thinking of planning a trip to go with my mum and sis. As time goes by, as mother is getting older, we shall do that more often. When we start aging, we have stronger sense of what parents really want. Just the matter, if we want to fulfil their need.



Mum in law joining the pic snapping with children :)

Hope I can be a good daughter to my papa mama and my parents in law. Hope that I can be a good model for my children too.

Good tuesday!



I like this wefie pose hehe

00:20

Yesterday and today, I feel to travel.. Thought of taking leave, then pack my luggage and fly~ guess it is time for me to have the travel booster jap :p

Well, before I can travel..
This week bro in law wedding

Next week due for Sunday school children name tag

Week after I have a charity booth at the church - itchy bum bum register myself for this ><

Few new projects to get hands on in the office

One project closing ceremony to be busy on


Anyhow, can't wait for this labour day holiday! After the long weekend, I will travel for business trip to East Coast malaysia. Till then, work hard and now.. Sleep tight!

Good night all.

Ps1: just finished chatting with mama

Ps2: last night I guided children to complete their homework

Ps3: I really need to control my food intake, can't stand with every night sleep with full stomach - mummy cooks yummy homecook!

Perfect Love

Watch this video on the testimony sharing of the person got alive after 45min with no sign of living
Video

Not only alive, but with medical report proven there was some change on the DNA on heart disease removed.


有一件礼物 你收到没有
眼睛看不到 你心会知道
这一件礼物 心门外等候
是为了你准备 别人不能收
There is a gift, have you received it? Eyes can't see it, but your heart can feel it. This gift, waiting at your heart doorstep, it is prepared for you, no one can receive on behalf

生命有限 时光也会走
如果你不珍惜 机会难留
礼物虽然好 如果你不要
你怎么能够得到 怎么能得到
Life is short and time pass slip away but if you don't treasure it, it is difficult to keep the gift. Although the gift is good, if you don't want it, how can you get it and own it?

亲爱的朋友 你是否了解
马槽的婴孩是为你而来
亲爱的朋友 你是否了解
最好的朋友是人子主耶稣
Dear friends, do you realise that the child in the manger has came for you? Dear friends, do you understand that, the best friend of us is the Son of God - Jesus Christ

A Gift

To talk to..

Today am just a bit not so alert and being energetic to run my day. Don't know what to order for breakfast. So just simply got myself a sugarless black coffee with fried bihun + sotong. Suddenly think of, if every morning I drink kopi o kosong, then my life would be having lesser sweetness.

Sitting in the train, a short blog post took me quite a long time, coz most of the time my brain was blank. Routine day to day schedule somehow made me don't know what is coming towards me..

Walking to the office, humming the hymn 'the invisible hand' which I listen to this morning... 'Though I don't see you, though I can't touch you, but I truly know that you are whispering to me..' God blessing for another brand new day.. Body was walking, mind was not focused, I fall down and got bruise on my right knee. Got up immediately coz I was wearing dress, got 1 man at my back, 1 guy was in front of me...

Heavy conversation with colleague.. some disappointment on my project result, boss told me it was ok, or I was asking for perfection..

Journey back to home, feel to talk to laogong and sister.. Called up laogong he was on his journey back home to pick up children.. Called up sis, she said why didn't I share with her when we meet up for dinner..

Hmm we might not be able to get people to listen to us in the time we need. But do remember we can always share our feeling with Heavenly Father. It's good too, let the mind settle down and ponder on what we actually want..

I know tomorrow will be a better day, as I know who holds the future ^^

The invisible hand

虽不见你 触不到你
但是我知 你正在对我低语
喔主耶稣 喔主耶稣
我深知道 你一直就在这里

是你的手 钉痕的手
重新抚慰 我那破碎的心田
是你声音 温柔话语
再度填满 我心灵中的饥渴

Words power

Lately, been experiencing words in fact carrying the killing power. Sometime, people can be so mean that saying things for fun or for their own interest which hurts listeners. Last night when I read some of the Facebook comments on the girl missing news, cruel judgement on the missing girl or parents were just bombarded freely by people. As a outsider, I feel uncomfortable. How about the family who are involved?


Cyber bullying is going wild in this age


How other people comment about us, how people teasing or talking bon sense about us, in the cyber world or in the real world..


This video has caught me
The 'Perfect' Body

Sometime, people surrounding us insulting us with sarcastic words or pulling our legs with their silly jokes. Not easy to let go the uncomfortable feeling.


God says "blessed are you when people insult you.." My angel told me there were 2 boys always fooling her in the class - by words and physically. This has turned her being more sensitive and bad tempered. Unsecured feeling. Need to look into this.

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A bit down today. Sort of sorrow.. May because of i shared my testimonies with children on why I believe in God.. And I recalled the not so happy past. Feeling tired mentally.. But I do know, my children got the blessing from my past stories witness of God's love :) I pray for children experience God in their lives too - the best gift I would want them to have.



雅各书 1:17
各样美善的恩赐和各样全备的赏赐都是从上头来的，从众光之父那里降下来的，在他并没有改变，也没有转动的影儿。
Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows.

Family bonding

How do you have the bonding moment with your family members when everyone is not staying together? Guess many of us are having group chat and facebook photo album exchange with family members to get everyone staying in touch ^^

I got family group chat too. So sometime it just being quiet, and sometime, it just get exciting like last night..


At the same time, what are your children doing? My brothers children were playing games..


But my house children were all sleeping before 10pm ^^


Was having this thought, if this question posted to facebook to get feedback from friends.. Photos we might get eg playing games, sleeping, doing homework, watching tv, playing toys... Guess this is nowadays kids activities at home.


Then pula started on big children selfie..


Hahaha seriously, I got shocked when I saw my sis pic, suddenly a black fall down ^0^





I got a good laugh for all the pic my siblings shared and the conversation we got..


Destress night indeed :p





Finally my mum came out with her group pic with friends


Conclusion is..

Young children enjoying life with no worry - can play can sleep peacefully

Old children are tired with daily schedule and coping with life stress - so the selfie pic we shown all are scary pic!

Golden age parents - having fun time with friends gathering with cheerful look and easy feeling

Moral of the story - work hard now, so we can enjoy in our old age ^0^
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Last night I brought my children to sushi dinner. Lately when everyone is talking about GST, when parents are getting pressure on GST too.. Most of the time we cook at home, we have simple meal or cut unnecessary expenses. Last night, I just wanted to bring something special to the children..

Mummy: so what do you all want for dinner?

Royee: the mix rice shop la
(Siblings discussing which mix rice shop to go..)

Mummy: do you feel to have sushi..

Royee: yes! Sushi sushi!

Mummy: ... Or the aircond restaurant..

Eva: I been wanting to go for sushi, but I worry you don't like it..

Angel: I also want to go sushi, I miss sushi so much, but you always don't bring us go..

Royee: come la mummy, we go for sushi..



Here we come, see the excitement on their face


Royee: mummy, how much do you have?

Mummy: eat as many as you wish, but stop eating when you are feeling full. Don't waste the food.


Noticed one thing, Eva's favourite are always the simple and cheaper sushi :p


Angel eat very slow and lesser plates.. But drink lots of green tea


I like the generous portion of this restaurant :)

The bill came out rm70+ children checking on the GST charge. Once a while, buying children joyous moments with money is worthwhile.

On the way back home, in car topic was

Angel: mummy, what would you do when your period comes for the 1st time?

I shared how a woman should handle her period day. For the 1st time, or any other time, when you are in the shopping mall or in the school...

Eva: boy also will have ejaculation

I got shock for this sex education part, especially I don't know how to explain on boy's body need and development..

Mummy: Hmm at this age, or maybe later, what Royee will have is nocturnal emission..

Eva: Ya when he dream off having sex relationship with other person or ....

Come on, how come my gal knows all these thing? So detailed?

Mummy: Ya so called wet dream. So Royee aa, if one day you find out your brief is having some liquid or something (I don't know how it should be) don't worry, it is part of your body development..

Well, we reached home on time, before the topic continues.. I should study more and Google more on this to prepare myself for next more serious talk..
phew~

Good Wednesday! Today we have GrandPrix in the office. Today is my bro in law's wedding big day!