我愿跟随你

一步一步跟随祢，踏着祢行径脚迹
一步一步学习祢，直到祢心满意
一句一句听着祢，我生命被祢更新
时时刻刻仰望祢，我要与祢更亲近
主啊喔主啊，带我走，牵我手
领我到祢骷髅地
主啊喔主啊，带我走，牵我手
把我抱入祢怀里

一句一句听着祢，我生命被祢更新
时时刻刻仰望祢，我要与祢更亲近

This morning this song keeps playing in my mind, I sing it to bbb too. 'am willing to follow You' a queit song, asking God father to hold my hand n bring me away. Maybe I have lost faith in something, something which is valuable, but ppl might see it not importantly.

I told as I might be a NEW me in coming April. Going to be 31 soon, I hope before I reaching 31, I can get myself to accomplish my biggest dream n to-do list in this life. In God's will, I hope everything would be running smoothly.

Thanks for shiyi's message 'Good to hear that. hope ur faith will be strengthen daily' ^_^

my wish to my love ones, don't waste time is wasting your life :) appreciate what u r doing n grab your life ship before the ship is in front of u ^_*

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每天爱你多一些

无求什么 无寻什么 突破天地 但求夜深
奔波以后 能望见你 你可否知道么
平凡亦可 平淡亦可 自有天地 但求日出
清早到后 能望见你 那已经很好过

当身边的一切如风 是你让我找到根蒂
不愿离开 只愿留低 情是永不枯萎

而每过一天 每一天 这醉者
便爱你多些 再多些 至满泻
我发觉我最爱与你编写
OH OH 以后明天的深夜

而每过一天 每一天 这醉者
便爱你多些 再多些 至满泻
我最爱你与我这生一起
OH OH 哪惧明天风高路斜
　
名是什么 财是什么 是好滋味 但如在生
朝朝每夜 能望见你 那更加的好过
　
当身边的一切如风 是你让我找到根蒂
不愿离开 只愿留低 情是永不枯萎
　
而每过一天 每一天 这情深者
便爱你多些 然后再多一些
我最爱你与我这生一起
OH OH 哪惧明天风高路斜

Listened to this song on the way to work this morning 'love u more aach if everyday' I karaoke alone in the car, sing my heart out for this lovely n romantic song ^_^ while singing, I think of laogong (who else I can think of hat? :p)

This morning laogong wake me up 'the child woke up already, what's the time now har? Hmm my alarm did ring, but the phone volume reset by bbb while they playing games I guess, so I didn't hear it. Laogong kissed me 'laogong Ai ni' (laogong love u) feeling warm n sweet about this. But as usual, I will think this 'why recently so frequent telling love me har? Being naughthy ar?' keke never satisfy one lo :p

Laogong, I love u too! But I am really hoping u can help out in guiding bbb completing their homework if I work overtime. I don't want them to feel pressure in doing homework, so don't make them cry n punish them in this case. If u r impatient with bbb pls train your patience. If u can't control your temper, pls walk away. Don't punish n scold them pls..

P/s thanks for searching better deal of air tickets for our future travel plan ^_* I really looking forward for flying away~

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From Eva

My mum kept these for me. Eva's coloring n drawing. Thanks mum for taking care bbb n train them to be good n knowledgable n sacrifice her favorite tv program too :")

Eva asked waipo to draw bird. After a bird, she asked for papa bird. Them asking for duck 'here we have baby duck, why no papa duck?' my mum told me, she paused n think 'how does papa duck look like har?' challenge waipo ooo :p

Eva draw n color this flower. Why only green n purple colors? Coz my maid only gave eva these 2 colours, she said later eva will color the floor if more color pencils given to her. Xlogic, if want to draw on the floor, 1 color also can do that.

My mum called me n complained to me about this story in this afternoon, she said 'children need to see more colors in daily life, then only they have more colorful feeling'. Ya, I agreed with that. That's why I don't want to use 1 color n color the whole page where he likes to do in his homework :S

...going thru life

Asmiza Bt Abd Ghani [09:58 AM]:
things tat didnt kill us will only make us stronger

Like this quote. These weeks I been thinking about life, birth n death, young n old. Time... Maybe, am entering a NEW me! ^_^

Work or not working, am still confusing myself if to stop working in year 2012. Hmmm... Last time because of income, now because of my soul growing.. Never ending ownself debating, never ending of wanting more.

Need to back to work, just dropping by to share feeling. Am trying my best to work hard, hopefully there is promotion for me, coz I need more LEAVE!! i hate to feel guilty wheb i take leave n non stop counting down my leave balance. Hmmm...

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Dare to fail

In the train. Still thinking what happen last nite. Mummy n royee arguing on kinder suku kata book :S hmmm...

After completing royee's homework, he told me teacher said need to do revision. I asked which book? He said all. So I started from Chinese, English then Malay. Angels learn to study as well.

Then come to this page 'U' untuk ular, 'U' untuk ubur ubur (jelly fish right?). Royee can read for me.

Then I read the sentence, ular dan ubur-ubur boleh berenang (snake n jelly fish can swim). Out of sudden royee mentioned 'ubur ubur need to read 4 times' mummy confused '4 times? U mean ubur-ubur ubur-ubur?' 'yes! Teacher said must read 4 times'
Mummy: u can read 4 times for ubur ubur, but u can't read it 4 times in a sentence'
Royee: no! Teacher said 4 times. Must read 4 times!
Mummy: look at this.. It repeat once only so we read 'ubur ubur' we don't read 'ular ular' ma..
Royee: haiyo! Why u can't understand one, teacher said 4 times, FOUR!'
Mummy: we don't argue here, u use your eyes n see this, it repeat once only. Like if many friends, we call 'kawan kawan' in Malay, we won't say 'kawan kawan kawan kawan'
Royee: no! Teacher said de. Why u don't believe in me?

Hmm till here, I knew he mean it. Then I change approach. 'come, we check with waipo (grandma) n kakak' then everyone are telling the same thing like me. Royee's eyes got wet 'why u all don't believe me?'

Mummy: tomolo we go n ask teacher ok?
Royee: (crying) don't need to ask, I am right.
Mummy: no, we have to ask your teacher why need to read it for 4times. Coz mummy's teacher taught mummy to read it twice only. Go to sleep, tomolo only we check with teacher.

In the room.
Royee: 4 times 4 times, why u keep on saying 2 times????
Mummy: baby, mummy want to sleep already, we don't argue, tomolo check with teacher
Royee: 4 times ma!
Mummy: baby! (controlling my fire) u can read it 4 times, 6 times, 8 times all up to u, but u should read it 2 times in a sentence.
Royee: When I said 4 times in a sentence? I said only the word ma.
Mummy: just now mummy asked u, 4 times for the word or sentence, u said both!
Royee: haiyo, no la, I said only the word. U didn't hear it correctly aaa?

Maybe suddenly he understand what I mean, or suddenly he recalled what teacher told him.. So the angry, I knew he was trying to manipulate the whole story. With very serious tone, I told him 'baby, it's ok for us to admit our mistake. As long as u admit your mistake n say sorry with your heart, ppl will feel it n forgive u. We are not always doing everything right, u can make mistake, mummy too! But as long as we learn from mistake then ppl forgive us, Jesus forgive us. But if u keep on telling lie about the truth, u r cheating ppl, cheating yourself, n God still knowing what actually happen...'

He kept quiet n left the room, left me in the dark. After few minutes, he came in again..

Royee: mummy, dui bu qi' (sorry)
Mummy: (heart melted)
Royee: mummy, I am wrong, sorry
Mummy: hmmm..
Royee: mummy, I admit my fault, Jesus will forgive me de
Mummy: yes, if u say sorry with sincere heart then god n ppl will forgive u. But u must say it with sincere heart, cannot say 'sorry har' (I did it with not sincerely)
Royee: mummy, I am not always right. I accept my mistake. I will change it.
Mummy: :") I love u baby
Royee: I love u mummy
I hug n kiss him :*

End of the story. It was a nite where I lost my patience but I trying to control I burst myself out in front of the little one. Same case with angel buat hal in the music class. Children, they have priviledge to be naughty m be 'king' although it really challenge adults patience. Still haven't started my parenting book reading 'funtastic parenting' ya I need some fun way in parenting. Always get angry I gonna look really old soon :p

That nite, I dream about ubur-ubur maybe too many times I repeated this word in the night ~

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Papa's bday gift

Printed the pages for bbb to color n give them to papa as bday gift. Royee n eva completed coloring, except for angel who asked kakak to help her while she was playing toys hmmm. Yet to laminate the pages, to be pasted at papa's study room ^_^

From royee

See the smile :) ?

With legs :p I like children creativity

I like children to color on rainbow, coz more colors to be used

From eva

Soft touch. Only adults limit the creativity to be shown in the box, children are working on the full sheet of paper as a whole, including the back page :)

With tie or ribbon?

Different tones of orange color. Like the electirc shock on the wording hehe

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In the music class

Last last Saturday, angel was being cranky in the music class, after 30 minutes of sweet talk n warning, she still not behave well in the class eg ignore teacher, not focusing, read different book.. I brought her back to the car! Left only eva n my sis in the class.

I was so angry. Am not expecting my children to be so quiet n obey parents words fully, but I need them to pay attention to what they are doing. Before I enrolled to the class, I did ask they want it or not, since u want it, I nerd u to be responsible to your own decision. I scolded her for 10 minutes in the car, she knew her fault it seems, but because of I want her to know, everyone has feeling to cope with, n responsibility to take. She needs to get the punishment. Sitting in the car for 30 minutes, until eva finished the class. Angel non stop crying n screaming in the car, I just sitting there n cooling down myself.

So, after the 'punishment', angel behave in last week class. Quite cooperative n enjoying the class. Thank God for giving me the patience in handling this case, coz for the 1st time, I felt like fire burning on my head!

Both angel n eva putting themselves into the story..

The background music is quite like horror movie :p

so half way, can see children opened their mouth wide, n freeze! Cute neh!

Amber, the gal in black, really went into the story ^_^

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McD treat

Last Friday public holiday. Morning I brought bbb to mcD, treat from their angpow money :D very seldom they have chance to enjoy this, there were so excited!! Me alone bringing bbb, alone finished 3 chicken sausage muffins (without the burger buns). Bbb took the hash brown, buns n milo. Nice outing ^_^ I am loving it!

Once reached

Cute!

Waiting for mummy to order food..

Eating their happy meals

Evangeline :p

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Apply for std1 school

Been waiting for this day to apply primary school seat for royee. 2 years ahead, what a long period. Get all required documents done, asked laogong to reach the school office by 8:30am, faster get it done then he won't be late to work.

Laogong said he reached there by 8:20am, got the application form, filled up then went to take number, he got number 40+ n before 9am, 60+ numbers taken. Total 100 numbers prepared for a day he guess. Wow.. Today is only 1st day already long queue.

I hope I can get a seat in this school, the nearest school from bkt31. It is mire convenient, n bbb dont need to ve on thd road for longer time, dangerous. Next year, the same date, am gonna do the application for angels. I told laogong 'next year u need to be there early, coz u need to take 2 numbers :p

School chop on the back of royee's birth certificate, it recalled my memory on my primary school 1st day schooling :) time flies~

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Multimedia class

Start from this week, royee has his multimedia class on English n Reading learning in the kinder, 30 minutes before the actual class starts. This boy is very dedicated for the class, sleeps early n wake up early. I need to change my
schedule too.

7:50am leave the house, send royee to the kinder, hopefully I can take 8:35am train, then I can reach the office by 9am. Today, I let him walked to his class, he was waving bye bye to me n happily walking to the class. I felt touched in the car, my boy is independent now :D

After a while, I saw his face expression changed. Seem like the teacher was not in the class, then I parked my car n went to him. He cried silently :~ then I saw the teacher was in the class, the teacher was away a while to take teaching materials. I told royee 'next time if u see your class teacher r not in, then u can go to the other classes to look for other teachers' i kissed him 'ok now?' he walked to his teacher :)

In the car, I told myself, I need to walk him to the class after this, don't want to spoil his mood in the early class. Don't want to leave fear in him. Since I can't catch the 8:35am also. May use the 20 minutes free slot to walk around the kinder, talk to bbb teachers n know bbb in the class. Who knows I can see bbb good work posted on the board :p

In the train now, today gonna be busy, I told royee 'tonite mummy will come back late, u do your homework 1st, mummy come back only check, if not ok then only mummy erase for u' he said ok :) children schedule, made mummy more discipline :p


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Time..

Last weekend, laogong showed these pic to me, the pictures for our marriage cert registration, back in year 2003 sept 18. Took the photos in the morning then went to the jpn at Banting town. Hmmm 2 of us were making jokes, rm30 registration fee if didn't have then how har? Betul betul, in the morning we dig n dig only found ngam ngam rm30 cash, didn't have extra money for breakfast too :p

Today is year 2010 end feb. Laogong bday coming n our 9 years of paktor anniversary coming soon. we have our shonejay angels, we have some assets, we have our happy n sad love stories, up n down families issues..we grow matured ^_^

Since last week, I been feeling down when think of friendship. The cny gathering for my secondary school mates gave raised some conflicts n may cause offensive feel to some of my friends. Tonite, after reading few mails from friends, n saw some photos, I have that thought 'i have lost my friendship with them after years' now only realize it hmmm a bit late. Late enough to make myself dream so high n being hurt :(

What have made me being separated from the group of friends? I don't want to create any assumptions, don't want to think of 'must be a reason'. Found myself feel relief after I let myself accept this fact. Quite sad in fact. When we getting older, good friends are getting lesser. But as fei eng mentioned, friends with heart on the friendship, put in effort to make friendship works, then lesser is better.

Time flies, going to be 31 this April. Last weekend I told laogong, my bday is coming ooo, what u want to give me har?laogong said still early la, n he wants a car for his bday gift. Too much, i told him, if u was rich enough, u want a big bungalow I also would give it to u, me n u no kira one :p

Hmm.. If u ask me what I want for my bday, this year I have wish list ^_^ but I found it not easy to realize it. Hmmm never mind la timely matter, I will wait :")

Good nite. I know my good friend arpu is feeling not ok, I hope she can be strong for the challenges she facing. Keep faith, anything gonna be alright ^_^

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Bbb Reading

I always ask bbb to read papers n magazines, don't know the words they still can see the photos or advertisement n tell stories. When I am angry with them because they are too noisy, I would say 'why u all like to fight? Got so many toys, go n play. Got books n newspapers, go n read la. The house is big enough, 1 can play blocks, 1 read books, 1 go watch dvd, can do coloring also, why want to be so noisy?'

So now when they are free, sometime they do flip magazines n newspaper. Yesterday morning, when I was taking shower, royee said 'mummy, I tell u, the car terbalik next to the drain.. Another car all tyres are in the water at door level aahh!! U wear your cloths 1st, I show u the photos later.. Aiyo, wai gong (grandpa) taken the paper already' I smiled in the bathroom, I like my children read n do something which us good to them, n they listen to me :)

Night time, when I reached home, angel came in my room with a 2010 feng shui magazine. 'mummy, u see this..' then she flips n flips the magazine.. 'mummy, u see this, this is like what we play that day' when I looked at the picture, it was 'eye on malaysia' this wheel is like the big wheel bbb ride in jenjarom dong zen. What a surprise to me.. My gal read feng shui book n can read for me '2,0,1,0' n show me the wheel pic :)

I found rm20 for 3 times wheel turning is costly, only bbb n kakak ride on it that day. At 1st we said don't want la, then on the way back to parking lot, royee asked 'mummy, the big wheel is for big children only is it? Me n gal gal are small children so we cannot go ar?' mummy pity the boy when looking at him, he didn't ask for the ride but with the question asked I know he wanted to try. Sometimes I found my children are too obedient in this money spending issue, before they asking something, they talk to each other 'don't want la, this is costly, need much money, we need to save money to disneyland' or something like 'mummy no money la, we must save money' btw, I don't always mention I got no money in front of my children, I don't want to brainwash them.

But as per what my sis mentioned, my bbb don't act like children at outside, coz whenever they pass thru those playground or themepark, or toys department, they won't crying for those things. If really like the thing, they would only stand n see n touch for a bit longer time, when mummy 'come!' then they follow. Mummy is cruel right? That's why I always keep in mind what they like n what made them stand longer time, when mummy has extra money then will buy things to surprise them :D Junie said 'your children are well trained' hmm I hope bbb can listen to mummy until they grow up, n don't let papa n mama sakit hati lo ^_^

So, mummy will continue poh peh poh peh to bbb :p

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Choc rice puff cookies

The cookies that I made before cny is almost finished coz I given out many to friends n relatives. Day1 afternoon I made some choc biscuit while children were sleeping.

Below are pic taken by angel while I packing the cookies. She kakakaka after each pic taken :D

Me n the cookies

She wanted me to post 'mummy... Kuai dian (faster)!'

Mummy can entertain gal gal while packing the cookies, multitasking neh~

^_^

Individually packed

After this post, I asked angel go n take his papa pic, coz I don't want to non stop posing for her :p

Hehe a bit blur. Papa in the pic

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Tiring cny..

Am trying to fully enjoy my cny leave, so I go here go there, do this do that in cny. Everynite I terus sleep not even can open my eyes for my iPhone :p morning, normally children wake up, laogong wake up n i still sleeping till 10am.

Found this pic on my iPhone photo album, taken by angel while I am sleeping :p
How I know it is taken by angel? Coz below is the next pic :p

Eva posing for picture taken by angel :D

Hehe they can take quite nice pic recently ^_^

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Happy love love day~

Valentine's day. Some unhappy moments before we went to take this valentine's set at manhanttan fish Market :( we must have some arguments n fighting in all occassions one hmmm.. The salmon fish quite yummy.


Have taken 1 cucuk of grilled prawns


Service quite slow coz full house


2 tiramisu came with the set
Laogong's eye bags getting bigger :p

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Nite before the eve

After the lunch with hani at sushi king in sooka kl Sentral..

Mini yee sang

I can't wait to go back home, no Chinese left in my office level floor except me n big boss. I didn't take the festive half day coz normally I take festive halfday during christmas eve. At last I left the office at 5+pm ^_^

Go for hair n scalp treatment with laogong

Tummy tummy :@

Like this cute cny poster at popular bookstore :D

Laogong n his Chinese name 'hu' - tiger ^_^

We went to watch Chinese cny movie, enjoy the funny scenes :D baru ada cny feel ma :") reached home nearly 12am, am now doing face mask n blogging :plaiting is sleeping, later needs to work halfday. morning i need to fo final touch up for bkt31, then will go back to Banting to meet bbb n bring them to my grandma house. Evening go to sgbuloh, don't know to go in law house or the hospital hmm

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Angel vs angels~

In the train station, today am wearing in warm colors, u can know la I am in cny RED mood already :D

last nite talked to father in law who is still in the hospital, his voice is weak, still can ask frequent questions 'how r u? How's the children? Are u still in the office? U must take care youself....' father in law speaks with me in English most of the time, then mother in law would be non stop asking what are we talking about hehe. Father in law said, if new year eve scope report showing the condition not ok still, then he might need to celebrate cny in the hospital ;(

Hmmm thot to go to work early today, so I can leave early, but I missed the train. Sitting here n reading blog, alone laughing when reading arpu's 'angel' entry :D the conversation between her husband n herself. Can guess that arpu n me are not the type of lemah lembut talking softly n manja habis with husband one :p maybe coz of this, both of us only can stand with husband character n habits, n survive in our marriage kekeke

Written a mail to arpu, telling her she is like an angel. When angel come to humanbeing place, of course there are so many things which angel needs time to adapt to. So for times, angel feels tired, suffered. But the hard time would be over in 1 day coz angel is always having God's blessing :D life is full of up n down, so many challenges, this only can be 'beautiful life' ma :") I always remind myself about this.

Come, let's share 2pic of my guarding angels ^_^ to me, my twin gals are gifted to me from God to tell me how lucky I am, n maybe 'ya, u r a good gal!' hehe

My angelina

My evangeline

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cny treat ^_^

a group of us went to kerinchi seoul garden for BBQ and steamboat lunch buffet. were having fun time there, me non stop eating n non stop laughing. i have a great team!! :D

in the restaurant

our RED RED SPOT cny greeting ecard :D

from pic left, goh (my boss) me, jega (team lead), zaidi, jennynder, khairul, amara

zaidi is ex-partner, new partner is khairul ^_^

Mermaid or Whale ??

got this forwarded mail.. ^_^ i am a whale :D

Recently, in a large French city, a poster featuring a young, thin and tanned woman appeared in the window of a gym. It said:

"THIS SUMMER DO YOU WANT TO BE A MERMAID OR A WHALE?"

A middle aged woman, whose physical characteristics did not match those of the woman on the poster, responded publicly to the question posed by the gym.

To Whom It May Concern: Whales are always surrounded by friends (dolphins, sea lions, curious humans). They have an active sex life, they get pregnant and have adorable baby whales. They have a wonderful time with dolphins, stuffing themselves with shrimp. They play and swim in the seas, seeing wonderful places like Patagonia, the Barren Sea and the coral reefs of Polynesia. Whales are wonderful singers and have even recorded CDs. They are incredible creatures and virtually have no predators other than humans. They are loved, protected and admired by almost everyone in theworld.

Mermaids don't exist. If they did exist, they would be lining up outside the offices of Argentinea psychoanalysts due to identity crisis. Fish or human? They don't have a sex life because they kill men who get close to them, not to mention how could they have sex? Therefore they don't have kids either. Not to mention who wants to get close to a girl who smells like a fish store?

The choice is perfectly clear to me; I want to be a whale.

P.S. We are in an age when media puts into our heads the idea that only skinny people are beautiful, but I prefer to enjoy an ice cream with my kids, a good dinner with a man who makes me shiver and a coffee with my friends. With time we gain weight because we accumulate so much information and wisdom in our heads that when there is no more room it distributes out to the rest of our bodies. So we aren't heavy, we are enormously cultured, educated and happy. Beginning today, when I look at my butt in the mirror I will think, "Good gosh, look how smart I am!"

cny cookies baking

some pictures sharing.. pic quality not that good, using my handphone only

royee helping on paper cup arrangement

curi watching cartoon..

work again..

watch again :p

my green pea cookies, pineapple tarts

doing the choc puff rice cookies

ah soh michie with her dont-need-to-bake cookies

super ah soh look :S

this is yummy :D

next time can do this for bbb classmates.. simple n suit children taste :D