Midnight songs

Got message from sis..








Hahaha bro in law told my sis - your sis didn't sleep but singing :p


Yes, I been waiting for this song book for 2 years, finally I got one with me. It is only rm6 from the church, but I didn't know where to get it..

Guess, next time bro in law might tell sis this - your sis didn't sleep but playing piano..



Coz now I got a book of hymn and cords :D

Ok good night ^^ feeling great as I got got a good fellowship with my cell group members after 2 weeks of cny gathering break :)

Dream live

Well.. There is always some advertisement or on going promotion touch some people hearts. Say, if you don't drink coffee, you don't feel much on Starbucks buy 1 free 1 promotion; if you don't fancy about LeSportsac brand bag, you won't be bother to grab their limited edition bags... This goes to, if you haven't found the passion towards travel, all those airlines midnight sale are just another slumber sweet dream night to you...



However, to some people, airlines promotion is a golden opportunity to our dream-come-true moment! From airasia sales to now, sis and I are eyeing on airlines that provide flight scheduler to western countries..


Yes, we are currently talking about visiting Paris or London :p 'don't let your dreams just be dreams' we do know about this, as a working salary paid employee, budget and annual leave quote is the limit ><

So.. Let's plan things one by one. Let's realize dreams one by one.



Life is beautiful especially you have what to be done by today, and you looking forward to what is coming ^^ many plans and destination I want to work out with my children. Many events of life I want to realize them with laogong. Many lie down and doing nothing previous moments I want to have them with my sis.


Continue to live today life and waiting for airlines promotion hahahah :D


Happy Wednesday!

How to fly

Been being confused and mixed feeling lately..



Pray for the peace in my heart so I can stay focused and move forward. Keeping faith.

From cny till now, everyday I stay in the love of family ;) healthy children and lovely laogong. Family is in the happiness mode. Enjoy watching movie in the cinema lately, so almost every week, we bring children along for movie and popcorn. For 2 packs of pop corn, cost rm28.50. Start getting myself to adapt to the lesser money value especially when government service tax starting soon in April.



Although we been saying 'as long as i am having a job now is good enough, don't talk about bonus.. Many people jobless now...' Still, I am hoping good salary increment at least 6% to cover the gst expenses. Dream big and hope we can get big in return :p good thing is, my children are quite behaved in term of money spending for food. Most of the time they don't ask for fancy foods and fast food. In the event of 'mummy has only Rmxxx so spend in this amount Ya' then they would remind each other on food selection and menu pick :p

Another thing I enjoy being a mother is, now I can share my up and down with them. I can share the frustration or pressure i face in the office, I can ramble on their papa complaining me not doing housework.. Children laugh with me, comfort me, give problem solving idea or best still - release the frustration or unsatisfactory together then close the session with easy heart feeling :) children have grown up. Getting taller and taller. More clear on what they want. Harder to control now, but more friendly if you choose to be buddy with them.

Last night I shared with them, am thinking to help out the praise and worship session in the alternate Saturday good news club. Handle the action song singing session with the children in about 15min. Children said they wanted to help out too! I told them about there was a new preaching center opening soon by our church in our housing area. Surprisingly children said - mummy, you can go there be a Sunday school teacher and we can incharge the praise and worship session.


What a blessing to have children to serve in missionaries with me :) we can have bonding time together as well as serving our God ^^


When we reaching out to more circles of people, we see more, learn more and appreciate life more. The joy in us is like a river, flow abundantly ^_^

Last week, 1 of my boss's birthday wish is - 'in 2015, hope you all grow healthy physically, spiritually and humanly'. So my understanding to this would be, body get healthy, keeping faith in living, then live as a human - don't over work, be concerned, be kind. Not easy to always stay positive as we always got insulted by jealousy and depression.

Last night I sang this hymn in the journey for our dinner
求你给我一颗谦卑的心
给我一个受教的灵
好让我能走在你旨意里
如同耶稣的生命
I told children, these few days mummy pray for peace in my heart. Got nightmare and anxious feeling. Not easy to have a humble heart and willing to learn soul. Seeking God's help so I can walk on his path, live my life like Jesus Christ life.









Till then, have a great day!
I believe I can fly :D
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Ps: I regret to do my hair treatment with apple cider vinegar. Now my head smells so 'sour' and I am gonna have a sit side by side morning discussion with my end user aaaahhh!

Love is..

Came across this from facebook this morning..


What is love? Tasted like? Shaped like? Feel like?..

The Bible indicates that love is from God. In fact, the Bible says "God is love 神是爱." Love is one of the primary characteristics of God. Likewise, God has endowed us with the capacity for love, since we are created in His image. The gift of God's son as a provision for sin was given to all humans, regardless of who we are. God's love is unconditional.


For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.
上帝爱世人，甚至将他的独生子赐给 他们 ，叫一切信他的，不致灭亡，反得永生。
John约翰福音 3:16

To me, love comes in different forms..

Mama - cooks and brings warm homecook to my house, pick up my children from day care, helping me to clean my house when I sleep peacefully at night

Papa - reminding me on 'my best' is not 'the best' yet for getting the result I want, so continue to put in effort than sitting and complaining the unfairness of this and that; return my angpow money but keeping my blessing in the empty Angpow packet

Love is when my boy friend hold my face and looked into my eyes asked what happened to my sore eyes when I woke him up in the midnight.. Love is laogong went out to pick gold chain and cross pendant as baptised present when he was a non believer. Love is my children father wake up in the morning to iron children school uniform no matter what time he felt asleep in the night before.

Love is my angel cleaned the kitchen and brings me warm water when I am sick. Love is eva smiled and lay down beside me then wait for my eyes open from my sleep. Love is my boy saving 5 ringgit from 5 days pocket money so he can join his sisters to buy me a watch.

Love is someone special told me love is affirmation of love feeling. Love is to let go the one you loved.

爱是
恒久忍耐，又有恩慈；爱是不嫉妒；爱是不自夸，不张狂， 不做害羞的事，不求自己的益处，不轻易发怒，不计算 人的 恶， 不喜欢不义，只喜欢真理； 凡事包容，凡事相信，凡事盼望，凡事忍耐。 爱是永不止息。 ~哥林多前书 13:4-8

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. ~1 Corinthians 13:4-8

Not forgetting..
Love is someone sharing with you the same name and company you for all those crazy moments and realize all the devil plan.
Yes, love is mehmeh too :D

Happy Friday!
Let's love and be loved!

I would rather..

Sis shared with me a link to beautiful places where you must visit in life. Out of few places, below are my choices




Pulpit Rock at Norway


Ukraine tunnel of love


Sky of stars at Egypt


Sky of stars at Iceland

The world is so big, the beauty of amazing God creation, for us to visit and witness all seem impossible. Still, I hope I can visit as many places as possible hehe

This morning in the journey to the school, I played a small games with children. Children to pick their choices.

I would rather..or..

Travel around the world alone or stay with your loved one in a no man island

Win the true love or win lottery

Go above the sky or go down to the bottom of the ocean

Go back to see your great great great grandparents or go to see your great great great grandchildren

Go up to the mountain with knives or go in the deep fryer with burning fire

Stay in a magnificent house alone or a small village house with family

...
Children answers and reason for their picks are quite positive. Not like me la, the choices made are not so simple and pure like them.

So my some answers and explanation to them would be..

Go to the bottom of the ocean, as I know I will go to the heaven when I die.. I may want to win lottery cause with lots of money you may travel around to find your true love who you love the person and the person love you too.. Stay in no man island with loved one and find way to get out from there then continue travel around the world with the person :p I told them, if you don't want mountain of knives or fire flame.. Then follow Jesus

马太福音 13:49-50
世界的末了也要这样。天使要出来，从义人中把恶人分别出来，丢在火炉里，在那里必要哀哭切齿了。”
This is how it will be at the end of the age. The angels will come and separate the wicked from the righteous and throw them into the fiery furnace, where there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth.

Like the ice breaker games, will do the same games for today workshop in the office :D

Happy Thursday!

0303 rumble

Last night, eva asked me..

Eva: mummy, what it meant by 平时不烧香，临时抱佛脚

Mummy: only to clasp the Buddha's feet when danger arises. You only make a hasty last-minute effort eg during your exam..

Eva: it's ok, I won't clasp Buddha feet, coz I am a Christian haha :D

Mummy: same case, you don't pray everyday, but to profess devotion only when in trouble, then complain God doesn't listen to your prayer..

Eva: hehe where got..



Today is day13 of cny. Again I checked my cny photo album when I was having my cup of teh-c in the coffee shop this morning. I like this album, the photos shown my cny celebration, family and relatives bonding, children festive moods and RED!

Then I stopped at this pic..


Spot the different lengths of angel's hands? I been neglecting this. Few years back the ballet teacher told me this. I brought angel for a chiropractor checked and adjusted this. Then no more follow up on this as the distance and cost of treatment caused burden. But now, this pic has alerted me to do something on this.


As a mother, been realising it is not easy to raise children and meet all the criteria as a superb mother. Children may have the thought of mummy loves brother or sister more, mummy doesn't care about me, mummy doesn't prepare nicer meal for me compare to my classmates' mothers..

Today my colleague taken leave to collect her daughter's SPM examination result. We chat about this yesterday, 'last time my parents don't care much on my homework and result, still we put in effort to get better result and there was no issue on missing books, incomplete homework.. Less pressure from parents, better result children show' colleague agreed with me. Looking at children nowadays, my another colleague grabbed a quick lunch, then headed to the bookstore during lunch time to buy few activities books for her boy quarter year test. Same for my family, Laogong sometime spot check children pencil cases, colour pencils, school bags... And yet, we always get teachers concern sharing on our children for not behaving good at school hmmm..



Give thanks to my parents for being good parents to us. Give thanks to Lord for giving me children to help me be a better man :)

Today children are having test. My effort was - before I went to sleep, I reminded them to check their pencil cases to ensure they have pencils and eraser for their test. You might not be surprise, they don't have colour pencil to colour the answer on their papers :~ not feeling these few days, body has been tired, plan to be a better mother and better me has been paused :p



Thanks to laogong to complete this happy family ^^ and of course, tolerate my imperfection :D

Change

求你给我一颗谦卑的心
给我一个受教的灵
好让我能走在你旨意里
如同耶稣的生命
帮助我更多的祷告，
帮助我更深的依靠
单单相信你， 深深敬畏你，
一生要跟随你。



诗篇 37:12 但谦卑人必承受地土，以丰盛的平安为乐。
But the meek will inherit the land and enjoy great peace.


Like the above hymn lately. Sing the hymn everyday. Seek help from God to make me a more humble person, enjoy what has been given and share what I am having to the needy.

A slightly change of me lately, when I see bread of life is more important and needed than the food for my body. The more I know about God's words, the more I know Him; The more I understand His greatest love, the more I know about myself. When I got to know myself more, I know, change is needed to make myself a better man.

For this cny, I think much on I been putting myself in my comfort zone in many areas. At the age of reaching 36, thinking has changed, soul need is different.


Sis sharing the same thought with me. She has realised something too during this festive season.



Well, maybe you would say 'again the 2 sisters are talking the same topic - change change change but see no result' i would say, better than we don't realize anything right? Haha



Happy day 12 of cny!

Meals for children

So cute and yummy look foods for kids!


























Impressed with the japanese mum prepares all these cute stuff for children. Sometime I do come across those look very delicious and yummy attractive bento for children too. Other than salute those mothers' effort and creativity, I don't do anything farer from there for my children @_@

Chinese New Year trip went back to in law hometown, see few families keep very clean and tidy environment for children. Serving warm home cook and soft spoken to children to ensure they eat and get their stomach full.. Am guilty for that @_@

As a working mother, I have thousands of excuses not doing housework to the tip-top condition, taking care all children, family, friends needs to maintain the well being and good relationship.

Hmm perlu insaf dah.. Time to sit down and reflect the not-good me :0

Mehmeh year

So, according to Chinese traditional astrology, what personality traits are associated with the year of the goat?

It is thought that the people born in the year of the goat are calm, gentle, polite, intelligent and kind, as well as artistic and creative. They are economical and approach business cautiously, taking great care to consider the feelings of others.

The ability to be empathic and sympathetic are attributed to people born in the year of the goat, and they are believed to place great emphasis on attaining the approval of people they respect.

What about weaknesses?

People born in the year of the goat are believed to be overly-sensitive and insecure, as they often misinterpret or over-analyse situations. Their need to be loved and protected means they are sometimes unable to stand up for themselves. They tend to shy away from confrontation and are not confident decision-makers.
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Hehehe.. I am a meh meh goat.
36 year old this year haha :D


Can't wait to go back home for cny celebration preparation.. Till then, happy Chinese New Year!

受伤了

小孩把头和身体埋藏起来了



妈妈，我们学校有辅导室。就是说如果你有什么困扰解决不了时，可以去那边讲给老师听。

“你可以祷告啊，把你的心里的重担交托给主。你也可以和妈妈分享你的不开心和烦恼”

我可以跟妈妈讲。如果妈妈你不能解决呢？我还可以祷告。

Above conversation, came from my boy who covered himself with his blanket. He told me there was a room in the school which cater for student who was having troubles and heart burden. Guess, his mind being disturbed, his heart being hurt. He confused about himself. I feel upset when seeing this. I went to his mattress, 'come, let me hug you' I pat him. I asked for his hands, 'let us pray together'..

My eyes gone wet while praying. Singing hymn to sleep him. Closing my eyes and sing, tears dropping at the same time. My boy is grown up. He has more complicated worry and problems in mind compare to last time. He has his own mindset and way of handling his feeling. After all I would say, to try to understand and read the boy mind, wouldn't be that easy anymore.

At the same time, I don't know how to comfort my BIG boy. Guess, tonight laogong and my boy feeling not good too.

Good night. Pray for peaceful night.

It's the day 3001

想达明天
现在就要启程
只有你能带我走向未来的旅程。
想到达明天
现在就要启程，
你能让我看见黑夜过去

This song has been playing since dawn. 'If you want to reach tomorrow, you gonna start your journey now'. Yes, am gonna be in aggressive and energetic mode to work hard till 5.30pm on the dot! Then I am gonna start my short tip to recharge myself in a foreign country and out from ordinary day schedule :D



Got this cert few days back. Such a motivator to encourage myself to grow to a higher ground :) till then, be a good gal ^^ learning new thing with different opportunities are exciting.

Luggage is in my car. I don't prepare cloths like day1 wearing this, day2 wearing that.. I just packed few shirts which I feel comfortable and just made thing simple. When I was 'young', travelling was a fancy and excited trip to wear colourful and smarts to have good photos snap for memory. Come to this 'matured' age, the purpose of travelling is to see people, the culture and embrace the amazing God creations and reflect all these to the inner me.

Till then, see ya, reaching office.
Happy Friday and Tata!

Marks of Grace

Singing this hymn in the journey sending children to school. There been up and down in daily life schedule. Feeling physically and mentally tired for hectic schedule. This hymn has comforted me. Wipe off the tears on my face, to start my brand new today with a good breakfast and spreading God love to people around me :)


Standby by the boundless ocean only I realize how small I am
Reaching the mountain top only to realize the sky is higher still
The vastness of the universe amplifies my insignificancy
Like dust vanishes and no one will even notice

Standing in the night sky seem to be smiling down on me
Whispering to me that He seen everything
All my strugglers, my weaknesses and failures
Becoming His marks of grace

In my cry
Jesus hears my prayer
Millions of people yet He cares about my needs
The path of life fills with laughter and tears
Leaving His marks of grace

In the midst of storm
Jesus embraces me
Reminding me that He is forever my refuge
The path of life fills with laughter and tears
Leaving His marks of grace



Ps: pic taken on the day I got my new spec :p

The special 28th!

Today is a special day


Ya! Today is my sis birthday!


Nah, me and my sis. She is 31 and I am gonna be 36 soon. Hohhh such an old age numbers!


When many people have planned and gone for lasik eyes treatment, i pula got myself a new pair of spec after 9 years without one. I stopped wearing spec when my Royee boy was a baby, at least once a week I went to the shop to repair or replace a spec coz baby non stop being busy with my spec. So, been wearing contact lens with no spec as backup.


To have a same design spec with my sis is one of the gift of love to show how closed our relationships are, how much senseless wuliao idea to have something similar in you = something similar in me :p


So today is the day, my sis's bday. When we come to the age of - children giving problems, baby is sick, office busy schedule, Laogong is away... Bday is just a special ordinary day. Thing to make simple, bday gift is just grab from somewhere convenient... Bday note is written at the rushing hours of sending children to school.. Pic of memory snapped with the fully closed eyes ^0^


Something simple that send the very precious message to my dearest sis..


Have a blessed birthday! Sis is my best companion. What I can do is treasure her and love her.. Sharing Jesus love with her in return ^0^

Mie, Happy 31!