farewell thought

so many packs of nasi lemak are yelling..


eat me! eat me! :D

that was breakfast for yesterday simple department farewell party to 3 leaving colleagues. I like the invitation card design for this round, share with you if I remember about it :)

for the farewell speech, one of them saying 'it is not an easy decision to leave this company after 15 years of working in this company. I will rest for a while. will be a housewife. be a full time mum' she ended her speech with tears in happiness.

my eyes gone wet too. 'a full time mum' I been thought of that to. I told the colleague who sat next to me, in my 5 years plan, I shall stop working by 1.1.2013. today 15.15.2013 am still working. think of the household income, think of daily demand from children, think of inconsistency of spouse career and health, think about the need of children to have mummy as companion all the time...

lets imagine this. if I was a full time mummy..

as usual, wake up at 5am+ prepare breakfast, then wake up children. make sure they bring all the books and materials, tumblers, belt/socks/shoes are on, then drive them to the school. waving bye bye, then I drive to the morning market nearby for fresh vege+fruits and tea break kuih-muih for myself at 7am+

reach home, sit down for morning news reading, drinking fresh soya bean drinks and breakfast, then starts some laundry and put the cloths under the smiley sun. bake some tea break dessert then prepare lunch. around 1pm, drive to the school to pick up children.

2pm children take bath, eat lunch, tv time, mummy wash the dishes. 3pm homework doing together, spelling practise then tea break with homemade dessert. evening go to the park or swimming pool for some workout then come back home. children take bath mummy cook dinner.

dinner together then school bag packing. story telling then sleep. children sleep, mummy fold cloths, wash dishes, sweep and mop. treadmill workout, take bath then sleep.

hmm.. this is normally I do if I take leave to rest at home. it is about the same with my daily routine as a working mum. except the journey to the morning market till the evening workout with children. routine like this, is all for the family and children. household is clean, children are more healthier with homecook dish, children score better in their spelling/ting xie/ejaan. then less chances for not remember to bring this or that, mummy has plenty of time to wait for their slow motion.

depends on the children age. 5 years ago, I wanted this kind of living. coz children eyes are only mummy. mummy is the world! for today, my age 7-8 children, they ask me don't disturb them when they are watching DVD, being 'creative', reading, playing piano..

maybe I has became selfish, or maybe the house is not daily taking care by both husband and wife. if everything is on mummy alone, mummy is seeking another exit for some space to breath. if everyday only housework and children, then where am I? how about my needs? if I want to get income from working from home, then I am gonna busy too, then only body staying home with children, get them eat and enough cloth to wear, then I only busy with my own business?

this morning sis shared what mum has told her about 'why don't sis stop working and taking care her own children to build good characters of them before they gone worse?' hmmm is that really helpful if only mummy is back to the home? I am confused in fact. when I am about to grow myself in my career, then this sensitive question again pop up. I told sis, another 1-2 years, my children are at the age of playing computer in their own rooms, or mobile phones chit chatting with classmates, visiting friends house.. if I stay at home, what should I do? a housemaid to make sure the house is tip top clean and shining? I don't think my laogong would hire a maid if I stay at home, so I can do what I want. hmmm...a question to think about, in some another time..

these few days, my head is spinning, not feeling well and too many things to think of. hoping, with the limited time slots I given to children, with my biggest effort to teach and guide them, they can succeed in their lives and make the family proud of them. as of now, I share many news and stories to them, because I interact with friends and colleagues, if I am a home stay mummy, maybe my stories sharing would not be this colourful then.