discovering herself..

angelina roinn

on the way..

'that's all for this week!' i left this when i switched off my pc.so tiring when running up n down for urgent doc. my colleague said i look cool n steady even i'm busy n tight up. for her she would either scream or scold ppl. haha.. i love busy working hours, time flies.. n i feel satisfied when i complete one task. self esteem is very important in the office.

friday, feel envy when i heard junie said friday is her paktor day with her hubby. n she was waiting for her 'driver' to pick her up. out of sudden, i feel lonely, i feel empty. i dont know if u been missing me over there, i miss u dearly! feel very lonely this week. after busy working n taking care bbb, i feel like missing something. i know why so many private affair happen in long distance love, coz i do have 'how nice if i had a bf now' come across my mind some time. must stand very firm on this. be responsible to our spouse n kids. i hope u can manage n behave yourself there.

ok. wanna tag myself out from this train station. not a good place for me to sit here n type this post, feel somemore lonely. love u..

one of the sundays..

bbb sitting together.. tak di-arrange..

angel tak smile one..

my eldest brother talking to bbb..

angel n eva

angel with muka baru tidur.. busuk!

night with bbb

asked them to show 1 to 10 using their fingers

photos after this, fighting n jumping on the bed!

u called me when i took photos n playing with them. so noisy. finally, i managed to sleepkan royee n eva. then i let angel to play toys. i brought the durian that my dad reserved to me. sooooo yummy look~ eating durian nearly 10pm. hmmm cant resisit it.. they were really tasty!! angel looking n smilling at me. asked her want to have a dry, she nodded her head. she tried twice ^_^

as i told u, every nite i have very nice dinner from my mummy. then durian n bird nest dessert sometime. kekeke.. jealous u. philipines has sugar cane n dried mango rite? have u tried them?

sisters..

cute hor.. eva went n waved bye bye to angel.. wondering why eva didnt call angel.. at least make some sound ma..

i love this video clip. cute cute~ hmmm for them, since in my belly they been staying together. so the special love between them is hard for us to have it. i love to see them smile at each other.. eva carried the toy bag. in fact, i asked her to pick up all the toys on the floor. then she waved bye bye to angel. then she kissed. then she hi-5 before leaving the room.. i love them :*

on my way back home

in the train now. still laughing alone about junie's funny stories. nice chat with her today. got something from the conversation, be brave to speak out our mind, so we wont easily get bullied by ppl. 'that's why u r so lovey dovey' hmm this made me think about myself.

these days am learning to speak out for myself so ppl dont simply take advantage on me. few ppl mentioned this to me, scolding me too. am still figuring out, am i doing this rite. after changing myself, would it be still 'i am who i am'? hmm suddenly remember that u told me this few years back 'coz u easy to get bullied ma' when i asked why u chose me..

(a man sitting opposite me, look n wear like mr crocodile :p)

today u called from bangkok, told me u spent much over there. cloths, massage n spa, gal show, boy show.. seem like travelling there. my fren said habis la perempuan kat sana semua lawa lawa.. i said, so? i pun tak dapat buat apa apa ma.. honestly, i feel tired to suspect this n that. if u had gf, u know the consequences. bbb r always mine. i always remind myself this, husband n wife might be ex, parents n children would not. to keep this in mind so i wont get that hurt if anything happen :) anyhow, hope u appreciate this chance n freedom n trust.

ok want to drive back lo. super hungry! pls come back fast! miss u much :(

mid july

this morning having some argument with my sis on bkt31. hmm.. shall avoid this in the future. coz we going to stay together, so must be tolerant. luckily u r not here, or else u have another opinion n ideas, lagi susah we make decision. everyone is hoping for the best for the house, ya, so never mind la, if cant make it done this year, then we move in next year lo. so man man lai.. ^_^

this morning i fried the rice by my own! after so long oooo.. i miss the smell n taste of my fried rice.. ya.. so tasty!!!! cooked for myself - breakfast n lunch, n breakfast for kakak. hope it taste ok to her :p rushing to the train station, forgot about my lunch box, went back n pick it up, then i missed the train :( again, today i am late to work. have to go back late again this evening...

bbb are cute n so lovely. sometime i cant control myself to hug n kiss them.. over n over again :p then when i carry 1 bb, another bb will come to me.. then another one.. 1 at left, 1 at right, 1 at the back.. happy la.. feel lucky to have bbb to temam me ^0^ angels are still having low fever, midnite worsen the fever. very high temperature. sub a pill, then sleep again. i dont sleep well these few nights. jaga them.

well.. time for my lunch break. wanna makan my nasi goreng lo~

when i grow up, i want to be...

mummy: baby, when u grow up, what u want to be?
royee: doctor!
mummy: police or doctor? (saja want to confirm his answer)
royee: wo yao dang yi sheng la~ (i want to be doctor la)
mummy: why u want to be doctor?
royee: doctor can jap ppl (holding a pencil, and jap me)
mummy: u want to be doctor coz u want to jap ppl?
royee: doctor.. doctor.. doctor can bao ren de (carry ppl one)
mummy: why doctor carry ppl?
royee: yin wei na ge ren sou shang le ma.. (bcoz the person get hurt already ma)
mummy: oooo.. doctor can give patient medic hor, then no more sick lo..
royee: ya.. i can take medic by my own.. dont need to hold mouth one, hold mouth very pain one..
mummy: ya.. royee good boy ma..
royee: mummy i got no sick already. u bring me go swimming ok? (i told them if sick, we cant go swimming next time)
mummy: u r still coughing la..
royee: wo mei you (said no, trying to control his cough.. then.. non stop coughing!)
mummy: u see, go n sleep early, then u will get well soon.
royee: wo you yi dian dian bing ba liao de.. (i have small sick only)
mummy: ok la, u sleep early, tomolo mummy send u to the school. u go there n learn many many things, then when u grow up u can be a good doctor n save ppl live.
royee: ok.. i want to be doctor one. doctor can da zhen de (jap me again >.<)


royee to be doctor.. hmm.. let see.. :p

puzzles for the gifted bbb ^_^

royee.. cant wait for the gift..

eva, the 2nd one..

angel.. quite slow in unwrapping the gift..

royee - africa animals, angel - numbers, eva - when i grow up, i want to be...

naughty angels..

love to be on the dining table. playing with the rice pot. angel on it, eva off it >.<

pinky angels ^_^

sunday morning...

u see, their territory

cutie eva ^0^

they were happy, mummy didnt scold them :p

lagoon~

saturday morning, sitting on the bed, thinking, shall i bring bbb to sunway lagoon or megakidz? since this weekend i dont need to be busy on bkt31. bbb always stay at home, must let them see outside world. kakak asked me, what cloths to let them wear, i said, 'biar saya fikir dulu, nak bawa mereka keluar jalan jalan tak...' hmm then kakak mandikan bbb, i was still sitting there with my pda, checking sunway lagoon's tickets price. then i decided NOt going. then jalan sambil jalan, i found bbb quite bored at home, they followed me jalan jalan in the house. then i asked my mum, 'ma, do u want to go sunway lagoon?' mum said 'ya, i feel like going out la, staying at home so bored' OK, i went to the room, asked kakak to wear angels mamypoko diapers, 'nak pergi makan angin!' :p

about an hour kelam kabut packing time, we left the house nearly 10am. stopped at rhb bank jenjarom, withdraw rm500 :( reached sunway pyramid nearly 11am. so many bags. heavy bags. kakak wanted to carry all ALONE. i said no la, 'nanti patah tangan u' she felt guilty to let me carry one of the bags. hmmm.. bbb dont need tickets, coz tak cukup height. so bought 3 adult tickets, 3 x rm48, rm144 for theme park + water park. so happy bbb looking at those colorful thingy. the weather, sekejap mendung, sekejap panas...

after playing few games at amusement park, then we went to waterpark. coz hot sun! the swimming suit seemed smaller size to them already. so next time, i will buy a new set for bbb. not many photos taken, coz want to jaga bags, n bbb. during the stay over there, i felt happy ^_^ looking at our bbb, when they happily smiled n laugh, i felt OK to spend the entrance fee :p after lagoon, we went to sunway pyramid for hartz chicken buffet, spent nearly rm70. parking tickets rm5.50. tolls rm2.20 x 2. petrol... oh ya, n rm20 for J Co donuts. Smile on each of our faces --- PRICELESS ^_^

photos to be uploaded later.. with video too!

another friday

again, friday. seem like yesterday was sunday. hmm.. time flies really fast. mid july now. my sis in law at late pregnancy stage, i'm gonna be gugu soon :) royee gonna be age 3, then angels will be 2 soon. n ya, my sis gonna be a married woman very soon keke..

now is 22:49 shonejay angels are sleeping. kakak too. i just taken my dinner. i worked till almost 8pm just now. then reached home at 9:20pm. kakak closed the door for me, i told her, 'banyak kerja, kerja tak siap siap' she smiled at me with kesian me face @_@ royee n angel were happy to see me. eva been sleeping. hug hug kiss kiss them, trim angel's fingernails, then i went for shower. kakak asked me to eat 1st, she tidurkan bb. i said never mind la, 'kamu pergi rehat, saya jaga mereka' she said pity me, must be very hungry. ya, was very hungry. but then if i let her handle bb, for sure they wont sleep. might as well i cepat cepat tidurkan them, then i can take my late dinner and online post this blog for u.

u r now in thailand. just now my colleague asked, is it a big jump for your hubby salary in this company? i said no. u earn the same salary as compare to the previous company. u chose this company, coz this is your dream when u left maxis. u studied, u worked hard. now u r qualified. so salary is secondary here. maybe ppl thot this is not giant company that u gonna be proud of. this is a dream that u set few years back. to let u travel. my colleague said 'it is hard for a woman to handle a family alone' ya, i agree with that. it is not easy. when few things come together, when bbb always need more and equal love n attention from me. i told her, as a wife, i wont allow my hubby to stay far from the family; as a friend to him, i would. coz to a man, DREAM is the main force n spirit to moving forward to the brighter n challenging future. a man without hope n dream, is nothing. i want u to experience this, since u r still a young man - with unlimited potential ummmh! then my colleague said 'hopefully he really appreciated this' hmmm.. i do hope so. gambling. i hope i win this game. my mum told me last nite, hope he can be like your dad one day. ya.. i hope u can prove to everyone n to bbb, u r a nice man who work hard for the family and at the same time, fulfil your wish in career n life. now u have more chances to travel around. going places where i never been too. dont forget to share pictures n stories :)

day before, i told my friend, u can trust your woman friends n sisters, but not man. hmmm just to protect ourselves for being hurt. who knows, one day something happen. no guarantee n warranty for this. i told her, TRUST to my hubby is not 100% but LOVE = 100%. that day in your email, 'why u r not believing in me?' hmmm u r far away from me, be frank, distance has taken away my sense of secure.. slowly.. hmmm... no one can extended the warranty period of marriage n love relationship, just hoping that, we can stay together happily as long as we can and together build a home sweet home to bbb ^_^

today lunch time. i went to klcc parkson, helping my sis to buy dress. no stock. then i went to isetan, brought 2 pieces of short pants to angels. so happy, i got them at 50% discount. last time i wanted to buy this design at midvalley store, when it was new release but dont have 2 same size available. LEGO is on sale at toy'r'us. standing there for minutes, finally i left the store with empty hand. yesterday just bought them 3 puzzles. so wait for next sale la. dont want to spend much now, n dont want to spoil them. kakak also less kerja, dont need to pick up the toys from morning till nite. hmm...

no plan for tomolo. waiting another quotation from bruce's friend, so this weekend, dont feel to be busy on bkt31. at 1st i planned to bring bbb to sgbuloh, visit your parents. but then your mum is still in johore. your dad asked me to go back in august. maybe i can go back together with u. thot to bring them to tiara beach - high petrol cost; to sunway lagoon - high tickets fee; to megakidz - long journey; putrajaya - nothing much we can do... so this weekend, will stay at home. maybe bring them to playground nearby or morib beach. just now helping my colleague to look for nice place for relaxing... hmmm me too hoping for a trip - blue sky n aqua sea n white sand.. hmmm the wind.. wow~ next year, let's plan for something relaxing >.<

thinking of country code. indonesia 62, philipines 63, thailand 66. what's next? u said u have changed region from south asia pacific to south east asia. then i went online to see what r the countries under these 2 regions. hmmm i think, my geography knowledge will be better if u travel more countries n changed few more regions :p when i can memorize well your phone number, then u would change to another one :( i think recently i drop a lot of hairs, coz too many numbers in my otak, n so many due dates of bills to remember. (ps: just now i bought a otak-otak bun from bread story, hmmm yummy!!) few weeks have not been back to dc31, i dont collect all the letters. so these few days, i received call from banks, to ask to pay the outstanding amount :p your dad also calling coz astro service has been suspended. hehehe.. busy ma.. settled everything for those that i received calls. for the rest, wait for banks to call me la :p see la, if very free, then this sunday go back dc31 with bbb.

tomolo is my eldest brother's bday. ok la, wanna sleep already. calling u now.. aiya, no answer :( good nite la.. pls email me.. love u~

SE P1i

tomolo i will be on mc. going to sjmc n see dermathologist. hmmm finally i will get some specialist treatment on my allergic lips. been having this for more than 3 years. hmm.. hope this problem will be gone right after treatment.

ya, so agressive, went to klcc sony wing during lunch time. bought the P1i at rm1519. got a free hand towel :p few times u called me hor, dont be jealous on my new phone, u can buy a new one too, when u come back malaysia la. so if u want the phone fast, then u come back fast >.<

ok. pen off here. wanna go back home already. want to study related topics on tod's psycho. will meet shone's teacher again tomolo morning before i drive to subang. hmmm.. big challenge to me to handle this issue.

take good care there..

challenges!

A champion horse doesnt know why it runs in the race. but it knows it runs faster bcoz of the beats and pains... the more your pains, the stronger u become. Life is a race, God is your rider. The harder He beats u, the stronger u become. so dont be troubled with year problems. react to it to WIN like a champion horse ~ sms from thomas samuel

as i always say, challenges make us stronger! ya. susah susah sekarang, senang senang kemudian. i hope we really get senang soon ^_^ settling down everything asap. ya, phone spoiled at this critical time, going to buy a new mobile phone this weekend with your consent given :p as i told my colleague, i wanted to buy a phone with cheaper price but with all the functions of phone in the world. so greedy hor.. kekeke..

this 26/7 will go klcc for the basic photography course, so after this, i will buy a better professional digital camera :p wahhh.. the hdd video camera also needed. so many things added to my wish list ooo.. will bring royee n kakak to klcc la. as i promised to kakak, i will bring her jalan jalan at kuala lumpur, ibu kota of malaysia :)

ok, mau kerja lo. 3:30pm tea time will celebrate my colleague's bday. yummy yummy bday cake hehe..

family day ^^

only the members in the house that matter to happiness. the size of the house doesnt matter. i felt very happy when everyone was gathering at home (except u :~) crowded but warm. sometime i do think, ppl nowadays only mostly have lesser children, then how to get more grandchildren when they are old. then for sure we cant have the scene of very BIG family gathering for any special occasions like what our grandparents have. last time ppl have smaller house, smaller car (or even no car but bicycle) but yet they have very happy BIG family. today, ppl have less children, bigger house, bigger car, both working parents, but yet, may not feel enough n claim high living cost. things change.

very happy, got to skype with u. see your face thru webcam, hmmmm i miss u so much! wish to hug n kiss u there :* 1st time angel skype with u, she enjoyed it. when the line got connected, then she 'papa papa' hehehe.. royee n eva were sleeping. next time la, i try to get them all skype with u. but then, must really taking care my laptop la.. their little fingers!!! non stop pressing here n there. oh ya, about royee cabut my laptop key pad, when my mum called me, 5 keypad tercabut, when i reached home, total 8 keypad he cabut. so, my mum rotan him for the 5 characters, n my dad rotan him for the additional 3 characters :( i sakit hati with the laptop, but i lagi sakit hati when i saw the mark on royee's body.

last nite before kakak slept, i asked her to apply cream for royee whenever royee kena rotan 'biar dia cepat sembuh dan takde kesan' i cant control my parents or asked them to stop rotan royee, coz sometime royee memang naughty. as long as their punishment is not over is reasonable, then i am ok. i also dont wish one day royee become very naughty n i got no chance to rotan him. sometime, i hit royee when he is too over with his action. i use only my palm, i want to feel the pain. so i can control myself for not hurting him much. i want to punish him, but not hurting him. so just to be fair, he feels the pain, so do i. me + sakit hati :(

i tight angel's hair. kakak loves to see angels wearing dress ^_^

peace!

ramai kan ^_^ bruce snapped this photo. my papa gone jogging..

kakak wash bbb shoes few times a week. like new pairs la.. :p

so far, i love this kakak. when there is big sunshine out there, then she cari things to wash. when bbb falling sick, she also worried together with me. last nite when i reached home at night, she reported to me, angel finally got her boo boo out. very big one like an egg. angel screamed!!! kakak greets everyone morning. my eldest brother felt paiseh when kakak said 'morning sir' with a smile :) last saturday kakak slept with me in the aircond room. she memang takut sejuk one. so, she got herself a thick blanket, n covered her face as well :p my eldest brother said, later i being sued bcoz i dera my maid with aircond kekeke.. so i switched off the aircond :p to let kakak had good sleep. kakak really helps a lot. 2+ weeks, she went to klang shopping with my mum 3 times. n went to saloon too! i hope she really enjoys working at our home :)

angels start singing 'i love u, u love me..' not very clear, but with the ryhthm. cute! they learning many new things n words in these 2 weeks. thanks to my parents n kakak. thanks royee too! sometime royee singing then angels follow. i think by the time u come back, u can see big difference of them ^_^ oh ya, not only kakak, but my dad also telling this morning, angel n eva have gained weight. my dad worried, afraid angels will be in big size. my dad sughested that, less biscuits n tip-bits for angels. kekeke.. i love the way my dad looking at angels n smile. so soft, so sweet. look at my dad, i can imagine last time how my dad treat me n my sis. my dad really loves children.. the smile of satisfaction n happiness ^_^ told my eldest brother to take family photo in year 2009, when his bb >6mth, n my sis sudah jadi bruce's wife :p

last time i was busy during weekend to travel sgbuloh-banting to see angels. now i'm busy travelling banting-klang for bkt31. anyway, am happy to busy with bkt31. coz shonejay angels are with me everyday ^_^ i thank God when i leave home with bbb + kakak 'tata, bye bye, kiss kiss', n leave home with smile in my heart. i come back home, bbb standing there 'mama mama' n very happy smiling. tired gone. kakak helps to close the gate, royee helps to carry my handbag, then i hold angels hands n walk in to the living hall. how nice the days are ^_^

this weekend, i will try to confirm the quotation n contractors. then get the work start. if possible, i dont want to delay my plan. want to move to the house by this year end. settle everything by this year. so next year, i may start my study as u non stop pushing for it :p ok ok, year 2009 i will become a good student ok. hmmm wokey, end this post. your email just reached to my mailbox, commenting about the new house design proposal. tata!

I LOVE U!

busy saturday~

we left house at 7am+ to meet my sis at klang bukit raja at 8am+ then we went to damamsara damai ikea. reached ikea at 9am then we had breakfast there. so many ppl q-ing up there. found a table with natural sunshine in. at nearly 10am, we started walk walk see see in ikea. found some nice ID design that suit our preference. took some photos but then kena warning from the staff there :p

royee kissed ah-yi... so sweet~

royee in ikea

he felt funny sitting on it. non stop hehehe

lunch at uncle lim

after ikea, we went to ikano power centre. from macy to aussino then to harvey norman n i-living. some nice sofa set n dining table. n tv too! ya, semua money matter. at least we can have idea n concept on our new house interior design.

sport car! cute hor

click it to enlarge the pic

at the kid's show room

big ball~

around floor we left damansara then went to klang bukit tinggi. visited the contractor's shop. reconfirmed the design n asked for revised quotation. then dropped by at jaya jusco to buy the bday cake to my mama. rushing back to banting at 7pm. then everyone coming back.. wow many ppl. my parents were so happy. ordered 100 sticks of satay too! then got my mum home made crystal jelly.

me n bbb

my mum bday!

11pm+ brought bbb to sleep. kakak slept with me last nite. after 12am, when everyone sleeping, then i discussed the new house renovation quotation with my sis. hmm slept at 1am+ before that, i did call u.. but couldnt get thru.

feeling ok today, coz i have maximized the hours by sleeping less. tiring la but didnt waste the time lo. miss u very much for the whole day.. hmmmm.. u r somehow my decision maker, without u, sometime i felt hard to make my own choice n decision.. pls arrange to come back fast... i love u...

it's friday!

ya.. time flies~ today is friday again. tomolo my sis n i will be busy with the new house issue. money in money out very fast ooo.. just taken my lunch, home cook from my mum. this morning while i was taking my breakfast, i felt so touched n happy. bersyukur. i have a lovely mum to cook me breakfast n lunch. my dad who really loves children n grandchildren. then the maid kakak also ok. my parents also feel satisfied with the maid. how nice the feeling is.. if u come back home, then i would complete the last piece of the wonderful picture of my happy days! i love the feeling now. thanks God for all these nice things ^_^

last nite i sat down with kakak n my mum. i asked kakak wanted to call back home or not, she said 'tak usah la mum, nanti saya rindu sama anak kecil, tak usah la, thank you mum' hmmm her smile made me felt sad. she must miss her daughter much. she rather choose not to call back home just not to worsen her home sick :( kakak told us about her family at indon. she works in malaysia to earn money, so she can go back indon and build a house. when she said 'belum ada rumah sendiri lagi' i think of our dc house. the joy n satisfaction to have own house, to fix everything as per own preference. she must be dreaming for this. so i asked kakak, so u going to stay long in malaysia, she said yes, she wants to earn as much as she can for 5-6 years, then go back indon n be a housewife n stay with her daughter. i really hope her dream come true. i know how it feels to separate from family n work hard for better n brighter future. am thinking how to make her salary more value.. hmmm maybe fixed deposit for her salary.

i told kakak tomolo is my mum's bday. she ask 'untuk ulang tahu berapa?' i said 53. she said my mum looks young. then this morning kakak also mentioned to my mum, 'mem muda' then my mum said, u mesti selalu happy. tau apa maksud happy? tak mau ingat (fikir/think) perkara perkara yang tak baik. ingat apa yang baik. buat kerja kerja yang baik. then kamu akan nampak happy, senyum selalu, then nampak muda. hehehehe sometime kakak memang blur with my mum malay. sometime both of them talking need me to translate. we need time to learn bahasa indon too. i really hope kakak can work happily here. n forever treating our children n our family nice.. ^_^

angel is having low fever. hope she gets well soon. today u r wearing smart with your new coat, hope u can share pic with me. remember only u wear once on our wedding day :p hope u r working happily there. pls less beer n less casino visiting har.. i miss u so much!! n I LOVE U!

gong xi 186 ^_^

today is a very special to my sis n bruce. they went to submit their marriage registration form!!! wow, my sis gonna be Mrs Lee lo~~ hehehe very happy for her. hope she get matured after this :p couple #186 for klang hokkien association marriage registration on 08 august 2008. olympic opening~ my sis wedding date~ so this year, 2 new members joining Tiew's family, tiew bb n bruce lee ^_^ hope next year, another new member, Lee bb will be joining Tiew's family kekeke..

this saturday, my mum's bday. semua will overnight at banting to celebrate this special day. hmmmm except u :( never mind lo, hope u remember to call my mum n wish my mum happy bday lo. maybe, u can bring dried mango n sugar cane from manila to my mum as bday gift. hahahaha.. later my mum rotan u with sugar cane. kakakaka.. this sunday, maybe i will bring angels to sgbuloh n visit your parents. see how it goes, Tiew's family gathering donno till what time.

FEAR

i didnt sleep well last nite. angel was active n stayed up till nearly 12am. then only slept beside me. 3am+ royee came to me n cried. wanna sleep with me on the bed. then eva crying for milk. 6am+ they woke up! :~

4am+ angel n royee

eva is drinking milk.. dalam buai

last nite royee watched news together with my parents. ternampak a car accident photo, the orang no eyes n losing 1 leg. royee non stop asking my mum why the fella got no eyes n no leg? then came to me. 'royee hen hai pa' (royee feeling scared) non stop he repeating the story. 'the eyes missing, this leg got, this leg no more, mummy, why??? royee papa, royee hen hai pa' then u tried to control his tears from falling down. so pity him. read an article last time, we need to admit n accept kids feeling, when they r mad, must tell, ya i know u r mad. when they are in fear, must tell them 'ya, mummy knows u r afraid of the photo, where the uncle lost his leg n eyes in the accident' somehow, royee still staying in the picture.. 'wai po, close the tv, royee hen hai pa, royee doesnt want to watch it' he whispering to himself.

i told him, next time u dont climb up to the table, or push your friends or gal gal. when u fell down, u get hurt, u may lost your body part. then again, he repeating the story. i know he cant erase the memory of the scene. n he really scared. i hug him. very tight. 'it's ok royee, the uncle has been sent to the hospital, doctor will fix everything for him' 'mummy, royee hen hai pa, royee doesnt want to watch the tv, royee wants to watch cartoon only :( then i asked him, we sleep ok? then i prepare him to sleep, still mumbling about the news..

to change topic, royee, u faster sleep la, mummy also wants to sleep already, tomolo mummy wants to work n earn money. 'royee also wants to earn money''wahhh, royee wants to earn money ar? when royee grow bigger, then royee works hard lo, then earn money lo''i want to earn a lot of money for mummy ooo''thank u royee, ok ok''i want to sell many many roti (bread) so i can have much money oo' (selling roti? out of so many things :p maybe another taukeh of future roti boy is here keke) 'royee, will u buy a car?''yes, i will buy a car, bring mama go swimming' hehehehe 'mama wants to travel ooo, can bring mummy to take flight ma? we go far far place la' 'ya, can, we go take photos together, royee stand here, mummy stand here, then we take photos lo' cute~~~ he smiled. then i said 'good nite royee' out of sudden, 'mummy, royee hen hai pa, the uncle losing his leg de..' :(

want to search online on related topic. see how to comfort him. n guide him to come out from his fear. this morning he also mentioned about the news on the way to the kinder. hmmm..