End of oct

Tonight I..

Was rushing back home to send angel to her ballet class but ended up, we didn't make it coz can't find her ballet uniform..

Feeling tired and mad with my role as a working mother and look like a crazy woman looking for the ballet uniform in a messy house..

dropped children to the house and left the house for dinner alone after angel treating me sarcastically..

didn't want to pack proper dinner for them, but a bun each. I didn't want to talk to my children. So I only left the 3 buns on the dining table and walked up to my room..

complained about the men in my house to my sis just to show my frustration of broken kitchen piping and the smelly dirty plates and bowls..

Wish to leave everything behind and doing nothing on the ground..

Was wondering, if I was not myself, then how would I be then? More happier or worse?



Good night..

30th the Wednesday

Happily step in the pail..



Hmm.. The water level is a bit high..



Would it better if I get myself in the pail so the water will be flowing out more?



It doesn't seem its way.. The water is cold although my heart is warm..



No. I should ask for helping hands before I freeze myself..

Ya.. Am having the feeling of the above illustration. In one of my new scope assignment. Feeling excited when I got new discovery and when I get positive result after my trial! Still.. am a bit lost..



See the pic of today me - pimples on the face and water retention rounded face. Last night I slept before 12am, woke up once at 3.02am then 5am then 5.45am took bath and feeling nervous! Told my sis am wearing black today. Black Wednesday coz today I need to show my 1week study result to my boss? ><

Lately, when I frustrated with my job performance, I asked myself 'am I having high expectation towards myself? Need to know everything over the night?' Or 'this is the level of my real capability?' Maybe I am perfectionist - of course am not talking about my body figure :p so I feel down when I can't move freely like I used to be in my comfort zone.



Let's fighting! Having faith of - one day, today difficult situation will be a comfort zone to me! :D pushing the limits!

Let's see my children exam papers. Last night I signed their final exam papers, got to know, angel can answer all the questions in her exam! She didn't get 100% is because of some -0.5% for word writing or not clearly. Except for Malay paper she got 46 and 63 the rest are >95%! I admit I was lacking of confidence of angel performance in her exam @_@



[angel] I like one of the picture story telling 'after school, I see classmate felt down, I walk quickly to help the classmate stand up, teacher said I was a good child' 1st I found the story interesting, feel like the girl like to be recognized. 2nd, the story is long in an exam ;p



This paper she got 99%.



[angel] The teacher was so strict in marking the paper, 1% deducted even the wrong answer had been cancelled. Hmmm..



[royee] the boy non stop laughing when sharing this paper to me. See who helped Princess Eliza? A flying girl! Hehe the flying girl or fairy made me laughing too. This is the reason I only allowed bbb to buy comics in English language only. They are good in Chinese but Rojak in English then fail in Malay language @_@



Nowadays children are carrying loads of parents and teachers expectation. My standard 1 girl got bad headache after her 1st day exam. She told me 'I got exam stress' @_@



Papa got financial commitment pressure too. Earning money by losing good health :( my colleague said, 1 child = 1 bungalow. Hmm I wonder if I can maintain my 3 bungalows well in coming 15 years?



Last night I was busy looking for missing school text books for bbb, today they need to return all the books. Pasted here and there for broken pages. Even I needed to make book covers for missing covers! After some housework, total flat on the bed. Working
mummy is tired + work stress. Just hoping husband don't put high expectation for household cleanliness and give unnecessary stress to the supermom. Not easy to be one.



Can you spot me and my 2 girls in the pic? ^0^

Happy Wednesday to you.
I will have a good one after my 10am meeting.. Hopefully ^0^

30th the Wednesday

Happily step in the pail..



Hmm.. The water level is a bit high..



Would it better if I get myself in the pail so the water will be flowing out more?



It doesn't seem its way.. The water is cold although my heart is warm..



No. I should ask for helping hands before I freeze myself..

Ya.. Am having the feeling of the above illustration. In one of my new scope assignment. Feeling excited when I got new discovery and when I get positive result after my trial! Still.. am a bit lost..



See the pic of today me - pimples on the face and water retention rounded face. Last night I slept before 12am, woke up once at 3.02am then 5am then 5.45am took bath and feeling nervous! Told my sis am wearing black today. Black Wednesday coz today I need to show my 1week study result to my boss? ><

Lately, when I frustrated with my job performance, I asked myself 'am I having high expectation towards myself? Need to know everything over the night?' Or 'this is the level of my real capability?' Maybe I am perfectionist - of course am not talking about my body figure :p so I feel down when I can't move freely like I used to be in my comfort zone.



Let's fighting! Having faith of - one day, today difficult situation will be a comfort zone to me! :D pushing the limits!

Let's see my children exam papers. Last night I signed their final exam papers, got to know, angel can answer all the questions in her exam! She didn't get 100% is because of some -0.5% for word writing or not clearly. Except for Malay paper she got 46 and 63 the rest are >95%! I admit I was lacking of confidence of angel performance in her exam @_@



[angel] I like one of the picture story telling 'after school, I see classmate felt down, I walk quickly to help the classmate stand up, teacher said I was a good child' 1st I found the story interesting, feel like the girl like to be recognized. 2nd, the story is long in an exam ;p



This paper she got 99%.



[angel] The teacher was so strict in marking the paper, 1% deducted even the wrong answer had been cancelled. Hmmm..



[royee] the boy non stop laughing when sharing this paper to me. See who helped Princess Eliza? A flying girl! Hehe the flying girl or fairy made me laughing too. This is the reason I only allowed bbb to buy comics in English language only. They are good in Chinese but Rojak in English then fail in Malay language @_@



Nowadays children are carrying loads of parents and teachers expectation. My standard 1 girl got bad headache after her 1st day exam. She told me 'I got exam stress' @_@



Papa got financial commitment pressure too. Earning money by losing good health :( my colleague said, 1 child = 1 bungalow. Hmm I wonder if I can maintain my 3 bungalows well in coming 15 years?


Last night I was busy looking for missing school text books for bbb, today they need to return all the books. Pasted here and there for broken pages. Even I needed to make book covers for missing covers! After some housework, total flat on the bed. Working
mummy is tired + work stress. Just hoping husband don't put high expectation for household cleanliness and give unnecessary stress to the supermom. Not easy to be one.



Can you spot me and my 2 girls in the pic? ^0^

Happy Wednesday to you.
I will have a good one after my 10am meeting.. Hopefully ^0^

29102013 rain

Last night we were sleeping early 1family. Still we were late to school this morning @_@ body recovering from last sunday outing and today we had nice weather to sleep :p

Called up sis this morning, to ask her in future, when see us in the living hall, greet us 'good morning' coz today I see my sis no face expression and left the house like no one was in the house. To reach our children to be polite with good manner, at least we need to make it a habit 1st. Automatically children will follow :)


Sis shared this cutie stuff with me in her traffic jam route to the office. My traffic jam route is most of the time, ambulance rushing to the destination. This morning, the car in front of me, didn't want to make way for the ambulance, I frustrated with the driver, so I horned the driver. Only, he/she moved a little bit @_@ sickening with this kind of not so alert person..

When I was thinking where to have my breakfast..


The car park is flooded! Oh.. How har? I round and round around the area. There were so many empty spaces for my car, but I didn't have car park tickets :(



Finally, I got the ticket from a restaurant. They have daily or hourly tickets. Together, the restaurant owner and I studied how to use the ticket :p



Rm3.90 for a day. Cheaper than my rm4 entrance fee. Can get nearer parking spot too! May consider to take this ticket daily :)



'Gores' for today date then we are done! Hmmm hopefully my car will be safe la..

Yesterday before leaving the office, I got supervisor concerned and lectured about my work performance. Hmmm keep it up, I can bear with my own slowness in learning new things. I truly understand bosses feeling. Just hoping they can stand with my knowledge limitation for now :<



I have started November calendar. November suppose to be a month I show my result of learning the new scope. A month I need to tell bosses, my level of understanding after few months of catching up. But yet.. And not confident for all these @_@ Ai.. Hope, I can see rainbow after the rain. Gambatte!!

Btw, do you see the pineapple tart shown in the picture? Rm70 for 20 pieces. Imported from Taiwan. Got this from a colleague. Yesterday when I was so sleepy at work, i tasted it. Not so sweet but lesser aroma than homemade pineapple tarts we normally eat. I like the packaging anyway :D



Ok pen off here. I want to look at the scenery and sunshine for a minute, before I take a short nap before reaching the office :p

Happy Tuesday!

Sei Fo

'You! Why you don't have money still go travelling so frequent?!'


'You 2! Why never learn from previous lessons?!'


'Ahhhh.. Help me! Help me! The boat is sinking! Aahhhh!'


'How to stable the boat?!'


'Ya! The batman hero is here to help! :D'

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Well enough being wuliao, serious talk is, I got pressure. Pressure from sis to ask me to save as much money as possible for upcoming travel trip.

Pressure1: where to get extra money in this not-bonus-season and increment time?

Pressure2: while asking me saving money, this evil sis asking me shopping for winter cloths too!

Pressure3: I company sis to realise her dream-come-true then why I need to stay under this and that stress huh? She suppose to thank me (spend me :p) to company her in this meaningful trip. Don't you think so? ^0^



'You think so easy to get a big cow for our non stop fresh milk supply ar?'



'Big cow can be ignorance or sleep de leh'



Well, no eyes to see what is upcoming, as u know my sis is very capable in sourcing money and info for all our DIY travel trip :D full confidence with her!



Escaping myself from this headache, jumping to my work commitment 1st. This morning sis reminded me 'you work harder, so you can get awards and better increment and bonus!'

Ok ok, will try my best la! So we can spend in our 'potential' Europe trip! :D



'Again?! Another travel trip?! Shoot you!' --- ahhhhh.. Talk for fun only ma :p



End for today silly blog posting. Thanks for reading. Happy Monday!
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ps1: sei fo = opps / die! / oh my!

ps2: I am so sick today.. Fever flu after yesterday hot sun + raining day in water world + -5 degree Celsius snow world + tired body :(