menopause?

ya, again, my period delayed..


today is cycle day51.. and there is no symptom the menstrual is coming..



compared to last month cycle, 4 days late..

many thoughts in my mind..

menopause?
something not right in my reproduction organs or system?
hormone imbalance?
something wrong in my body somewhere some parts?
.....

is my heavy body weight caused me weak, or my body weak so I have this heavy bum bum look? I met few doctors, they said my inner body weak so it brings those water retention, indigestion and any other sickness that make me look fat and fatter >_<

Ai.. whatever it is, I need to do something, the late period is always a signal of I am not fit enough at least somewhere - physically or mentally.




maybe I am stressed..


maybe, what I need to is go to he nature, go for holidays, go to sweat myself out.. then everything gonna be alright ^^

well, tonnes of paperworks pending on my desk, partner is on holiday, today, my job is facing the laptop and stick my bum on the chair ^0^

1203 Monday!

good morning Monday ^^


long time I didn't see this scene - bbb watching tv together in the lovely morning :D ya! school holidays we have royee back to banting.



bbb are taller, talk and fight back louder now >.< pic taken before we going to sunday school yesterday.



Eva written this in the car in the journey to the church - I love sunday school ^^


recently, Eva non stop writing, she writes her own story, he writes what is in her mind, she copies books, magazine, newspaper or any product bran labels... above pic taken 7am+ in my room, which, she woke up at 6am+ I started writing @_@


the 2 gals write at the church playground while waiting for me..


hmm.. don't know this is a good sign or not.. yet to study in the related parenting topic..



ya, laogong still in Phuket for his 6days trip with in law.



this is the pic I requested - I want more blue sky and sea, a little bit of sand beach, and without laogong's big head :p




laogong coming back this midnight, and my papa and mama will fly to china this midnight.. wahhh!! how I wish I could go somewhere for holidays NOW!

well, don't spoil my Monday morning mood.. better be energetic today, work harder, coz cannot have pending unsettled work for tomorrow, as my partner go holiday from Tuesday to Friday :( alone taking care all the work ohhhh... I want to cuti too!!!




walk longer time, before you reach the blue sea and sky..

angels in sunlight

I like these photos. I like to see my children @ green field, blue sky, nature, sunlight ~@~


grown up dah. the dress has become shirt to them :)














my papa at the background ^^


I wish I have more time with my children out of the house with fresher air..


sisters ^^


my ersao n Eva. very soon my ersao's mummy coming to Malaysia from Vietnam, coz the baby delivery is due soon ^^

yesterday I called up home, when Eva answered then angel crying, when angel answered the Eva complaining.. so I get them to answer the phone call - 1 at living room, 1 in my mama's room. and yes, 3 of us can speak together gather! this conference call is new to angels, they were so surprised and happy on it. non stop we 'helo helo this is michelle..' then 'helo helo this is angel~' then 'helo helo this is Eva!' :D

in fact this is not new to me and my j13219 gang. when we were 'young' time, we used this way to connect my 2 BFF Mei and eng especially when eng studied abroad at south Australia. cost saving and all can talk at the same time. miss those days.. wonder when can we meet up again, especially at eng's house in australia :)



yesterday old school mate pp posted up those days photos, somehow you would be worried when friend started tagging your old pic in facebook :p well, my sis said I looked ugly :~ and I have the thought - so all my new friends in fb, you won't be agreed with 'I am angels' mummy' right? angel and Eva are so girlie, so soft, admire rapunzel's very long and smooth hair, crazy about Barbie doll and PINK! yes yes yes, I was such a tomboy :p




I like this pic, coz Mei and I holding hands :D sweet right? pic taken at our Indonesia Medan-lake toba trip in those years haha :D form3? my mum followed this school trip too.

btw, I have flight ticket to Medan in this mid year, this time, after 17 years! revisit the place with laogong :) hope it will be a nice and 'romantic' one :p and I hope it jadi la.. coz I tend to cancel this trip, due to - don't know what reason, just feeling to go some other place :p laogong was so angry this this when I told him 'next time don't ask me to bring you travel, always cancel, wasted the money!' :D




ya ya ya, better book tickets and go with your papa mama hor? see, sakit hati one, laogong and his papa mama bro+gf is traveling at Thai Phuket - for 6 days ok!



pic from Phuket. the weather seems not ok like kuala lumpur. but look at the blue sky and sea, ohhh!!! jealous me :~ last time also in those student time, I went Phuket with my mama by bus. hope I can have more annual leave and more money to travel to more places.

let's stop here. salute myself to type this post using my iPhone with 1 hand, another hand holding train stand pole, with the komuter train goyang goyang, from klang to seri setia 7 stations. another 6 stations to go. total journey will be 1 hour hmm..

happy Friday!

happy wednesday

this morning, I called up laogong at 8am+ oh, still can hear royee's voice :) normally laogong sends royee to childcare centre at 7am, today laogong takes his own sweet time, coz he is off today :) today is last day of royee exam, hope he can relieve after this. next week, he gonna enjoy his 1week school holiday at banting :D



like this - the challenges that we experienced, is to allow us to comfort ppl much better ^^



like the sand paper theory :p



found this magazine at my office breakout area. I don't want to read this, coz I am not 40+++ :D hehhe there written this is the choice of 40+++ women :p wonder how I look like and how I behave when come to this 40+++.. just hoping I don't trouble my children, nagging them much.. I want to friend with them so they can allow me to go in their world, and they will happily bring me out to enjoy with them :)



hope laogong and in law have a safe trip ^^ buy gift for me ya :D

gift of love^^

有一份爱的礼物 我要把它送给你
那是我的一颗心 爱你情深永不移

有一份爱的礼物 我要把它献给你
那是我的情和意 海枯石烂永不移

创造一个爱的奇迹
留下一个爱的回忆
希望你把我的心 放在你的心坎里

有一份爱的礼物 我要把它送给你
这是代表我的爱 你要对它多珍惜
------

let me do a simple translation for this song's lyric - a evergreen song ^^

there is a gift of love, I want to give it to you. it is my heart, the love to you never move away.
there is a gift of love, I want to present it to you. there is my love message, no matter what it wont be separated.
create a love miracle, leave a love memory. hope you can take my heart, and put it to your heart.
there is a gift of love, I want to give it to you, this is to represent my love, you need to treasure it ^^
-------

I always sing this song to bbb, especially when I prepare gifts to them :) last night, angel wanted to record this song. she sang then I followed. very sweet and cute voice. then I recorded a solo version too. I mms my song to laogong. laogong told me when he played this song, royee got shocked :p then I talked to royee, asked if he wanted to have angel's version. he said yes, so I mms again.

before I sleep, laogong sent 2 videos to me. see royee boy concentrate in listening the songs, I feel touched. of course, wettie eyes too @_@

today, during lunch time, I compiled the videos in a movie clip. will keep this, to remember me and royee - long-distance-parent-child love relationship :)

click here for the video ^^
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vmk7u3wWqzo&sns=em

I don't know if you like it or not, but this is a very meaningful and beautiful important video to me :)

I dont know about other viewer response on this personal sharing.. but my sis response is this..



oh!! I got shocked when I received this pic, thot anything bad happened at her place :~ made me cried in the office too!



well, this is not fb, so I can update her - only thumbnail version, I don't think I will get killed by my sis because of this :D

good night 23:33 tomorrow I will overnight at bkt31 and sleep with my little bf :) as my laogong won't be around for a week!

Tuesday 0603

good morning!

my heart is full of sweetness and love! :)
sometime we would wonder why life is all by your way, then you need be thankful for the good day. however when the day is not at your side, not a good day, then you need to be thankful too, coz life challenge is always bring you growth and wisdom :)
there is always sunshine after the rain ^^

add in sweetness in your day, out of your routine, then you would find your colourful rainbow! :D

yes! TGIF!

yo!


:D in the train now, planing where to have dinner with my sis. can kiss kiss hug hug my royee boy. the sweet home sweet home that full of bbb laughters, can pull my laogong's legs saying his face look not firm, hair lesser, look older and fatter :D this is why I like weekend!!



can you see fatty mummy, angry papa, 3 naughty and cheeky bbb? :D somehow this Eva drawing becomes my family photos headshot! :D



got this from my friend Taiwan trip photo album.

yo! happy weekend ya!!



many many paper boats ^^


hehe :p

排排坐

从前我们喜欢排排坐　　
争着嚷着吃着糖果
分不清楚时就都爬树去　　
谁爬的高谁分的最多
如今我们不吃糖果　　　
甜蜜的话是听的太多
大家笑着争个死活　　　
谁爬的高谁掌声最多

从前我们喜欢团团坐　　
猜谁的枕头里梦见最多
说不清楚时就都捉迷藏去　　　
谁藏的好谁掌声最多
如今话儿是兜个圈子说　　　
猜谁的口袋里名片最多
你我都爱把眼泪藏起　　　
谁藏的好谁掌声最多

从前我们喜欢一块坐　　　
听着奶奶把她的故事说
奶奶说完了都到院子里去　　
看天上星星不停闪烁
如今人人都亲热的多　　　
转过头就把你来数落
谁的心没有默默地痛过　　　
满天星星地也疲倦得多

从前我们喜欢排排坐...


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gtW2bd4ZVzw&feature=youtube_gdata_player

fly away~

I need holiday!!! I miss the time when I travel with my sis, eat eat walk walk laughing for our silliness and compensation for our tiredness... i want to go out!

eat all the way in the cooling Macau.. running and laughing in the Singapore christmas rain.. close the eyes and enjoy the relatively cheaper Thai massage.. eating the very large sized kebab with ice cream along the gold coast paradise.. ahhh!!! I need gateway to free myself!

BBQ squids at the Macau beach side, the winter wind blows till you and me look so pale, but still, chit chatting in chill! be the superman at brisbane dreamworld, experience how fast flying should be! oh, the taste of warm ginger taufu fa and hot mixed seafood fried at hatyai roadside.. or eat like a king with foreign currency!

the wish list is getting longer and yet, farer... coz the reality is, I have limited money to spend for leisure, I need to reserve my annual leave for my little baby, and my travel partner is pregnant!

ohh! back to reality, train is reaching the station. will drive back home, then take bath, eat dinner, check angels homework, story telling, making jokes with them, call up royee, then sleep and end the hectic routine day..

happy 29022012^^

this morning I use today this 4 years once special day to make the story to wake my lazy bum Eva wake up! she has been being lazy to the school lately.. but she can complete her homework with all stars!



very nice colouring and writing. she make all the pictures and drawing as a full masterpiece. eg a girl watering the flower - Eva draw a line to separate the sky and ground. then the sky with birds and clouds.



when the question is 'that is a white car' she draw the white car on the road, the road is with black and white lines, the white car is with lights on. then the sky is with clouds and birds. and guess what? the white car is in front of a very beautiful princess castle! :D



hoping she uses her smart brain for good thing, be a good girl and don't let her laziness to ruin her brilliant brain. this pic shows Eva singing for me - 3 little monkeys jumping in the bed. she learnt from YouTube video clip, which I didn't know I have the kid song application in my phone!

yesterday was laogong birthday, we will only celebrate this big day on this coming weekend. coz yesterday he was with his bf :( this bf of my laogong, always take my laogong from me de. my laogong can even ask me what to prepare for this bf's birthday, few days in advanced, and really sakit kepala go and think and prepare the birthday gift. hoh!!! for my birthday and even any other special day, even demand on something also not going to get from laogong! ya! I feel so jealous ok!! last night also the bf came to look for laogong. Ai.. luckily I didn't give laogong a surprised visit, if not, I was the one got surprised!



this is what I give laogong as a gift :p company benefits



end the day with this good night message :)

well, my partner is on mc today. and today is month end closing, hopefully the load is bearable, so I can close the month with easy mood :) sometime I do enjoy the day with many tasks in, so the day seems to pass faster :)

28-02-2012

laogong, happy birthday ya!!








hehe angel is holding her handwritten birthday card, just for papa :D

ps: birthday song video clips failed to upload at here.. show you next time :)