Friday, February 20, 2009

2002.2009

am i on track? reviewed some of the BIG goals that i had set in 2 Jan 2007, something like if i have extra money..

open saving accounts for bbb - done

buy another car - i didnt buy a small car, but another bigger house

buy ikea foldable bed for royee - done. n i bought the same beds for angels as well. together with basic room setting for bbb :)

buy a desktop pc - laogong bought me a laptop in y2008, n he used my previous laptop. will buy a desktop pc once reading room set up in bkt31

stop working in y2010 or latest y2012 - the BIGGEST goal as for now. this is not mainly on financial aspect consideration, but time spent in a house as housewife, more patience with bbb and all house chores, contact with external world, coworker, my outlook, my thinking, hubby's feeling.. y2010, would be next year, as of last nite, i have set up my mind and prepare n working towards this goal. this time, lets target in y2010 - bring bbb start new kinder school at klang. royee would be age 5, is better for him to accommodate himself in the new environment at early age 5, n not age 6. afraid this would affect his learning passion in the new kinder.

hubby is ready for this mentally. we gonna sort out income issue. of course, with more monthly income we can have easier life; on the other hand, we need to somehow sacrifice for bbb, to let them have love security and at least mummy's teaching. they are growing fast, n learning n absorbing new words n ideas everyday. sometime, i find it is too late for me to tell 'no, mummy feels sad when u speaking like this' coz my time is only in the office. i need time to spend with them n guide them to the road immediately, where, i hope they grow in a positive way.

yesterday, i have started looking for teaching aid for preschooler and kinder students. i need to prepare this before i stop working. at the same time, i have a thought, i can take care 1 or 2 kinder student for few hours a day for extra income :p or i can be driver, to pick up bbb's classmates who staying nearby. in fact, i have few more household income plans in my mind, i wont stop working n staying home just to take care children. i definitely will look for side income, what i need is flexible time table so i can stay with bbb. bbb are about the same age, if i can teach them their homework, no tuition class, then it would be great saving for me too.

now am searching info for some kinder in bukit tinggi klang. am not sure if i manage to stop working in this year end, anyway, just preparing for it. no harm. so, cannot simply spend money for fun lo. need to save more now :p maybe, simple birthday celebration for hubby is enough. ya, home cook for him :)

last nite i talked to royee.

mummy: royee, if mummy everyday stays with u and take care u at home, ok ma?

royee: when?

mummy: everyday la..

royee: mummy u r sick? sick for many many days? so u dont need to work?

(hahaha.. pity boy, he can only have mummy to stay with him when mummy taking medical leave)

mummy: no la, how old r u right now?

(royee showed 4 fingers)

mummy: ya, now u are 4, so when u are 5 years old, mummy stop working, and everyday staying at home, dont need to go to work and take care you and gal gal lo..

royee: then papa ler?

mummy: papa go out n work lo.. only mummy stay at home..

royee: oooo mummy got a lot of money already is it?

mummy: (hahaha.. cute!) not really, but mummy want to stay with u all ma.. we change to a new school ok?

royee: no! i cannot change to different school! i still dont know english yet. bu ke yi de!

mummy: then how? mummy gonna stay in bukit tinggi ooo.. then how to see u? come la, we change to the new school, where the school will teach u english and mandarin, then mummy send u to the school, n pick u up.. then mummy teach u to do homework and watch tv with u..

royee: gal gal ler?

mummy: gal gal also come with us la, all change to the new school la.. ok ma?

royee: hmmm (think for a while) ok.

my royee is cute n yet serious :) love him. in fact, i feel the uncertainty of the future.. days when i stay at home only. i love children, but i love information and new learning n knowledge. just let it flow... just hoping laogong can earn more, give us stable living, love us more, care us more.. hehe am so greedy for everything. just hoping y2010 would be a better year :)

i havent sit down for y2009 goals. i have all the to-do list, for goal, maybe i want to have a rest, after y2007 and y2008 list of goals to be achieved, for year 2009, only 1 main one 'change myself' inner me, outer me.. my friend said 'yes, pls change yourself, dont get ppl bully anymore' hehehe.. am learning to say 'no' (but i say this word a lot to bbb :p) and stop letting ppl bully me? hmmm as what the pep trainer told me, maybe this is nature of me. the background of my family and education. and good friends said 'mich, u dont need to change, u r good n nice, just be yourself' :) well, i will change everything for myself, make myself happy 1st then only think of other ppl.. at least, i wont let bbb look me down. i will work hard to let them be proud of me :)