Monday, January 21, 2013

last day..

what would you do if tomorrow would be your last day? I got this title this morning, ya, what would I think to do? in fact nothing special comes to my mind, continue my everyday, stay with family, do the daily routine as all these daily schedules, build up my life.

"所以,假使明天我生命即將結束,那麼,今天我會繼續過同樣的日子,完成我在世最後一天的責任與本分。
我會預備心,讓上帝來接我回家,並在天家等候我的家人一起團聚。"




平淡無奇,但是,
這卻是我衷心的期望。
因為,平淡無奇,
是何等的幸福與恩典。



^^



Wednesday, January 16, 2013

16012013 wed wed

halo~ ogenki desuka? :D



today I had a easy breakfast with doreen in the hectic schedule. so warm :D I truly appreciate the friendship we are having ^^ of course not because of the free meal la :p




out of sudden, I have this came across my mind - what if my children are having baby at the age of 16? I need to take care of my children or their children? @_@

"if you cannot educate your children, don't expect other people to do so" a very harsh statement my laogong has put for me. I cried when I read these and some other words about children raising issue. however, when the sad or pity-myself-moment is over, I rethink those words, ya, we shouldn't complain about children misbehave or not listening to us, when we are not putting our best effort and using right way to make them a better one. so, I will try myself to do to my level best, to let myself satisfy with my own children behaviour or attitude.


what's the story of the day? since everyday I have all sort of shocking or heart burning moments that given by my bbb :~

we enrolled bbb to a English speaking sponsored course that held in the school. today is the 1st class. the class is after the school hours. so during lunch time only I remember to call the driver auntie to pick bbb by only 3pm+ the auntie told me "no, the money you pay doesn't cover any additional paid class" in fact, we asked about this during the school orientation day, the answer was yes. but now, not the same answer.

I don't want to argue more coz I am now more worried about my children. coz I told them to have lunch after school, then only go to the English class. so, bbb won't wait at the gate as usual. I asked the driver auntie to make sure she went in the school canteen and looked for my bbb to send them to day care center. I worried my children don't know where to go or what to do and the driver auntie couldnt find them coz they are new in this school.

waiting and waiting.. I wonder if my children have been picked up. then I got a call from the driver auntie! "halo, can you talk to your daughter? she doesn't want to follow me back.." then I heard children voices and angel crying?

mummy: hello angel? angel are you there?
angel: hello..
mummy: angel, you follow auntie go back to the centre ok?
angel: no, I need to go to the class
mummy: angel, we can't make it to the class, coz the auntie doesn't pick up children at 3pm. you ask gogo and meimei all get in to the car
angel: (crying) this morning mummy said got class, now afternoon say no class! are you my mummy?!
mummy: (wahhh! big issue nie!) angel, I am mummy, when we settle the transporter issue then only we go to the class ok? now you must follow the driver auntie go back to the centre, or else no one will pick you up at 3pm.

this is the great part..

angel: no! MY MUMMY asked me to go to the English class after taking lunch! wawawa :~

then no one taking to mummy anymore.. @_@ call back, the auntie not answering.. after few calls, the auntie answered "ok ok, now all has got into the car, I will send them to the centre"




sometime you just don't know, when, the ordinary cab turn to the extraordinary day in a second..




life is full of surprises!



enjoy the days, experience the experiences..



and.. good night and have a nice dream zZzZz...

Tuesday, January 15, 2013

mid jan

good morning ^^ less than a month we going to celebrate Chinese New Year. no cny mood yet, this Friday I may go to petaling street with my colleague to buy some red cny deco for the office. hmm.. I may try to avoid snake graphic @_@



today breakfast - organic grains burger bun + fried egg with olive oil + fresh green :) and half of big Fuji apple. one set for myself then 1 set for my sis. hope we can stay healthy everyday ^_^ children drink the Dutch Lady low fat milk.

yesterday I cooked meatball + Chinese cabbage soup and sausages. supposed to be sweet and sour mixed vege sausage, can't find the tomato sauce. today, may cook celery + tofu soup and baked bean + fried eggs. dinner is simple, but homecook meal is always warm to eat :) even the white rice smells nicer ^0^



2 weeks staying with bbb day and night. everything seems news and challenging. hmmm really challenging. not only the daily housework, the everyday top news is shocking too @_@



sis said, your children are 7 years old, you have parenting problems still acceptable. my baby is yet to be 7mth, and she has given me headache! hahahha :D maybe you all always looking at this cutie baby you thought her was a cutie angel... she is a naughty bum bum who made her mother gone jealous, gone mad ^0^ too cheeky laa..



talking about my bbb. don't know where to start sharing their stories.. too many things that made me tired, shock, puzzled, helpless :~ very soon I gonna receive warning letter from the school for reaching school late. not only 1 letter, but 3!

lets share some morning stories..

don't want to wake up
wake up but don't want to get ready to school
ready to school but must be some books missing
siblings chatting happily without putting the socks and shoes on

when we are leaving the house 'mummy, I haven't wear panty!'
'mummy, I can't find my xxx teacher said must bring de!!!'
'mummy~ gogo bully me again!'
'mummy, I lost my pocket money!!'
'mummy, we haven't got out pocket money'
'mummy! I go to toilet 1st, can't hold anymore!!!'


all the above, normally happen at the dot you want to lock the door or even we are in the car! rushing to the school everyday. then there must be a lecturing session in the car. once they get down from the car, is either the gate is closing or the gate is closed! they walk to the guard house, putting down their names (so mummy can receive love letters from the school)..

stopping at the traffic light and feeling blank, normally a prayer made coz I really don't know when this rush hours be ended.. looking at the roadside stalls which selling yummy Chinese foods, everyday I tell myself 'one day I must try to taste them' so far, no chance yet. coz from the school, I rushing to the train station to catch the train...



playing the minuet, not only learn this so that I can practise with royee for the coming exam, I try to release some stress from the playing too. every night, I fall asleep coz I can't get my eyes open wide. yet still, I put hope on the next brand new day :)


I know I have not done enough. not wake up early enough. not prepare myself and children enough for this staying together. so putting effort to get everything settle down soon..



teacher asked, why children nowadays cannot sit still? not like last time when we were small, we jumped or ran only during games, won't be like hyperactive like my bbb now. think positively, children playing freely and smile wide, coz they feel secured with the environment and parents companion. so, let go and let them play.. (since I tak larat to non stop ask them to behave :~)



happy Tuesday!!

Friday, January 11, 2013

Friday!

good morning! ^0^ can't wait for the weekend. I want to sleep, I want to sew! day by day pass so pass, seems like once I open my eyes, I go in the bathroom then do ironing, then rushing to the school and the office... then meeting and meeting.. then standing in the train, reach home, 'any homework?' 'how's school?' 'pray and sleep' doing housework in my office wear, take bath then close my eyes.. then another day comes with the same routine @_@



morning 7am in the car..


photo being edited, or else you cant see their faces :p



normally bbb are sitting at the back at their appointed seat. now i get Eva to sit in front, coz we are always late to the school! so when we reach the office, it is either the auto-gate is closing.. or is about to close :~ so bbb need to get down the car fast with their super heavy bags! Eva always get down late, then she kelam kabut wanna to cry.. so, let her sit in front, at least I can help her to pull her bag.



not easy to take care 3 schooling children at bbb age. they are not tall enough to switch on the water heater for showering. so I need to run up to the room to switch on the heater, then run down to the kitchen again.. now I have a basket to put their panties and handkerchief, a place to keep their towel, and a drawer for their socks. at least, you won't hear this 'mummy, I don't wear panty..' 'mummy, I can't find clean socks!' or standing nakedly outside the bathroom and sneezing @_@



way to go till they can get themselves get ready to the school without my help. my colleague told me, sometime he not even know his children have gone out to the school. of course, he got a maid helper at home, and the children are in secondary school. i envy the scene. although I enjoy what I am doing now :p



today I have a seat in the train, so now I am blogging with easy mood. yesterday, I was standing for an hour with mid-high heel. standing at the doorstop coz the coach was packed! once reach te station, I felt so tired. but still, I climbed up the 45 staircases and got myself out from the station and walked for 10min to my office. once reached my workstation, my backpain, my legs sore... @_@ before starting work, already got heavy workout.

sis asked me, have you adapted to the days in bkt31? ya, I am ok at the home, the route to the school and the office, the hectic routine.. but one thing is, I am lacking on rest time, my body is tired.. but then, so far, my weight is still maintain :~ no bonus I got from the tiring routine. Ai seh...



happy Friday!

Thursday, January 10, 2013

10012013 love~

am in the train, heading home happily ^0^ just received call from my mama, tonight she again overnight at our house, the best thing is, she cooks curry chicken for dinner tonight!

blessed to have loving parents who really care about the family and children. I am going to be 34, but still my mum is taking care and worry about me. when I work late, she calls. when I move out from the family house and stay with my bbb, she comes and said 'I come your house to be free maid' I feel so guilty @_@ at the same time, I feel so warm and thankful for the helping hands and yummy foods!



I am greedy, I want my papa and mama to be the best of their health, so they can stay longer, so I can continue to feel their warmth of bonding love! my mum didn't sleep last night, she did housework and cook breakfast for us. I felt so embarrass for this :~ wanted to spend time to chat with her, less than 10min, I just can't make my eyes open wide.. with guilty heart, I went up to my room and sleep..



this morning, again I seen this pic. the precious moments, the touch, the heart warming catch.. a simple pic that brings lots of love and hope. parent love - always hold the children with care..


I was tired. after I sent pic to laogong, I clean the room and slept. this morning when I saw the reply, my feeling was mixed. not easy for a parent to stay away from their children. you work hard away from home, I guess, family love is the only thing can really keep you moving.



when I said - papa wants a pic of you.. they pose like this..


can you pls show your happy face?


.. start pushing and arguing >_<


'I just want a pic to show your faces, can you be cooperative?'


hmmm.. not easy to handle my children now :( lately, I am always at my peak of voice tone @_@



guess, my sis can't control her temper too when come to handle 3 big and 1 small babies :~



this devil doll is not easy to handle! too cheeky..



inner peace.. ya.. I need that, and of course, I need quality sleep please!!!

Wednesday, January 09, 2013

09012013

yo!


above pic icons are my lately look :~ exhausted. adapting myself to the hectic morning and tiring night. busy at work busy at home.



yesterday we got a Christmas and new year party. above is my gift exchange preparation ^^


everyone got a nice paper clip. I like it. lots of design.


we have colourful marshmallow


cakes and fruits


rambutan and guava that we bought from chow kit road..


these are all the side dishes.. the main course is chicken chop + pasta + mushroom soup + garlic bread + wedges.. my homemade jelly too!



this sweet gal for my gift ^^ she is the event planner for this party! btw, my tummy looks bloated big!



I got gift from this long hair guy too~


opening speech by the host. see me at the back?



look like ah soh pose huh @_@



these makcik makan at the corner.. so mesra and relaxing~ I ate quite a lot too :p at my own workstation :p



ehehe group pic of gorgeous ladies ^0^

yesterday, I have changed from a lady boss to a man boss. last time I like to work with man boss, coz men are more easy going and normally they turn big issues to no issue. lately, maybe my previous lady boss and ex lady boss are quite ok, so now I am ok to work under gal supervision. now change it again. hope everything gonna be alright.



my handmade stuff :D