children day celebration

celebrating children's day at the church. we prepared 2 songs. so nite before, myself n sis were helping bbb to do rehersal. practise n practise, then they got loud n clear voice, and cute movement before we left home to the church.

then 1 by 1 went up 'the stage' n sing. so children were sooooo cute!!!! felt so touched on their performance. then came to my bbb time. happily they stood up n walked towards the stage. i was happy. coz before that, there was few children refused to go up, n 1 big gal cried too. when there were up, slowly n slowly, i couldnt hear much of their voices. only angel sang relatively louder :p finally, i stop taking pic n video, stood beside them n sang the 2nd song with them :p

proud of them. at least, they went up. what i need to do is, polish their singing n performance skill la :D hope the music classes help.

on the stage

eva felt down, got hurt on her knee n palm

after the performance, angels and their gifts

cute children ^_^

angelina.. she becoming quite outspoken gal lately :D
she non stop telling me 'i sang loud loud just now'

royee n the gift
he can act, but not singing.. hmmm

curi curi buka the gift

the talents time over, time for HAPPY MEAL!

eating mcD in the car

angel n her happy meal

royee n her happy meal

the gifts

unwrapping the gifts~

they got BIG winnie the pooh stickers!

singing in the church

^_^

bbb into coloring now..

angel's drawing - mama n papa

she said, mama is slimmer, and papa's hairstyle all stand one :p

bbb doing coloring, guided by ah yi

1st time for royee, put 'heart' in his coloring :D

angel seems loving black and yellow colors~

from royee boy! i like the RED

laminate the pic and paste them on the fridge

but bbb non stop went and removed them..

so i stick the pic on the boy's room..

royee brought grandpa n grandma to visit the pic.. he was happy about that :D

angels in the music class

this is the 2nd class for angel n eva ^_^

angelina

when i showed her this pic, she said 'eva~'

eva n ah yi

angel n mummy

teacher telling stories..

with background music

i enjoy in the class too~!

team building - july 09

some backdated pic to be shared ^_^ departmental team building at FRIM selangor. enjoyed the team building although it was quite challenging to me - non stop catching my breath :p

*pic taken by friends*

pic with hani - my ex lady boss, now still good partner in handling kerja ^_^

waiting for the big fish or sort of that la..

waiting for ppl from the wash room

this is quite tiring..

finally i am on the bridge ^_^

meal time. pic with jessie. 1 of my voluntary job partners :)

partner with her in 2007 mederka parade

hmmm mich n her iphone :p

our team won 2nd place in the amazing race!!!!

thanks a lot to the man on my left and my team leader (the tallest)

they helped and supported me a lot in the race :p

takde iphone

hmmm miss my iphone, especially when many colleagues collected their new 3Gs iphone. cant check my facebook when i was in the train and before bed. good thing is, bbb wont fight for the phone anymore, and i can rest my mind more with no incoming email notification. sometime, simple is the best way to keep ownself being peaceful ^_^

mooncake festival makan makan

eldest bro suggested for this gathering. in fact, tiew family has frequent gathering at home :p so we invited tiew family and thea family. then last minute, parents in law couldnt make it, coz my mum in law was not feeling well. papa not attending, coz he was having dinner at banting. then my 2nd bro couldnt make it, coz he was having party at his so-called-future-gf's house :p so, very simple makan makan session, mama bought 100 pcs satay and prepared some jelly. myself only bought muachi and mooncakes and prepared air cin cau.

satay from banting, mooncakes, muachi from taiwan, jelly from mama

the yam muachi is yummy than the green tea muachi

bcoz of the serving plate, i felt down in the kitchen :~

or bcoz i am not tall enough? cant reach the high cabinet :p

gogo n dasao

mama n sis were gossiping - shh.. pasal maid :p

the 4 grandchildren. angel stood on the table

as what royee mentioned, angel is 'angel' ma, angel can fly ma.. so angel is the one always climbing here n there, n hit her chin n cheek one :S

the smallest one is the FOCUS!
would sis ask me to remove this pic? no la, mie, your legs look slim nia hehe ^_^

little cutie yu jet

tanglung deco in the house

eva. angel was at the back

royee's handmade tanglung!

remember the 2-0-0 >>> story? this is the usage. the teachers r creative!
night before, royee couldnt fall asleep, then suddenly cried, he forced his papa to switch off the fan, coz the tanglung moving when the fan was on, 'later tanglung fall down how? must be painful'

so the sentimental :p

tanglung at outside. the lamp pole became the moon :p
it was a windy night, so not easy to light up candles

makan lagi! mama fried crab and mee mamak before we end the small party

soooo full!

happy sisters ^_^

'mie，我们还有很多地方没有去，我要去日本，你要去英国，我们要拍很多的照片，吃很多很多美食，我们要像傻大姐的在外地碰钉子，然后才哈哈狂笑彼此的无知，我们还没一起住在新家，我们一起设计屋子还没完成，我们还没买ISLAND，我们还没放壁画，我们在家赚钱的计划还没去实现，我期待着我们各带自己的孩子一同去游玩，能想象到当时的我一定很像恶婆那样的骂小孩，而你就会用爱的教育的劝告小孩，你有看到那画面吗？真的很难想象其中一方会离开彼此，我也不知道我的健康是否已亮红灯，是因为我还没去检查..如果我也有事，可怜我们的baba mama.....'

eyes wet wet after reading this from sis >>> blog then received email from sis 'Lastnite I write my blog.. I sambil write sambil cry.. so cham.. Many things we haven’t do, if both of us got problem.. how? Haiz..'

hmm.. (pausing for quite a long while.. so many pictures in my mind) well, before everything, i am in sunny mood today. sunshine is coming over me~~ i can sing this song :p today am wearing larger size office wear, so i dont need to pull my fit n short shirt so frequent. i tight my hair, so i look fresh ^_^ mission for today is to look into outstanding account. . Bersemangat nie :p I slept for more than 9 hours last nite. so tired, I just cant even prepare bbb to sleep, n I felt asleep. Maybe my body is in tense. Another brand new day :D n I reach the office 30 minutes early from my normal days :p

in fact, I am feeling okay, though so many things come in so fast in these 1.5 months. Maybe children weekend classes schedules and party celebrations keep me occupied. So about my health issue, am following dr’s instruction, taking medic, the rest, leave it to God. These days, I got knowledge grow in medic, our body structure n creation is so amazing! And our technology is so superb! From OG vaginal side to colon to rectum, from bleeding to yellowish discharge, and I do learn many new medic jargon n symptoms of decease too J at the same time, I see many concerns n caring from my friends and colleagues, n of course, my beloved family members :D LOVE ***

this morning when I was driving, thot of sis. She has been in down mood these weeks, pressure from work n colleague n staff, then her health issue as well. Then at the same time, my health issue bothering her too. this time, I feel a bit uneasy to cheer her up, coz she is thinking the way to cheer me up too. so what I can say is, we need to support each other, we can share our laughter and tears ^_^ bruce is away, laogong is not so very into my health issue – lacking of the knowledge or man tidak apa behavior? Whatever it is, thank God for giving me a caring n lovely sis. From my big belly of pregnancies to my big belly of gas and don’t-know-what’s-going-on-internally, she is still the one, taking her annual leave and company me to the same medical center. I appreciate that and the love to her, is ocean deep – without water pollution :)

mie, it’s ok. I hope the company listing is on. Then if I have share allotment, if I earn some money from there, then probably next year we can travel to some new places and take many many nice pic :D hmm shall I buy a camera for myself 1st? a bit cacat now the unit. As what I told u, plan to stay in bkt31 in next year end, n hope with bruce’s earning now, then u all can get married soon, then together we stay in the same house. so u don’t need to worry unnecessary people disturbs your room arrangement :) what we need to do now is, take good care of ourselves, health 1st. at the same time, continue enjoying our time in kitchen and restaurants :p yippie~

for those who worry about me n sis, we r okay, we r doing well, bcoz we r always happy go lucky persons, for internally down side of us, it’s ok, coz we are having each other to support and be inspired. So, u all will continue seeing many nice pic as usual in our blogs, or some geli pic from sis’s blog :p and we r still a couple of HAPPY sweetie cutie mehmeh SISTERS!

happy 4t bday~

time flies~ royee is a big boy now :) n thanks for everything and everyone who guide me and groom me in the motherhood experience ^_^ back in year 2005, i was having uneasy feeling on my big tummy, sort of period pain, admitted to be monitored by my gynae, i was feeling ok at that time, coz i was waiting for my 1st bb to b delivered.

today, in year 2009, am also also having lower abdomen pain, when serious, then it would be like contraction pain, if normal, then it would be like period pain. same thing, my gynae given me 3 days mc, taken my vaginal discharge for test, n my condition is being monitored. no more vaginal bleeding after taking medic, but the pain is still on. this time, i dont feel ok, coz i dislike unknown n uncertainty.

2 days staying in bkt31, so i can have a good rest, missing bbb so much. bkt31 is so quiet when it is without bbb n sis. n my iphone has sent for warranty repair, n my laptop is at banting. so, life is so simple, when u r disconnected with outside world. no blog, no emails, no facebook, no connection. using my dad's old phone, so only sms. i prefer this silence. i can hear the fan spinning, and i can really feel which spot in my abdomen is painful. using laogong's laptop now, no mouse, a bit handicapped.

1st oct, a brand new month. busy mth for my family, bbb bday, kakak bday, mooncake festival, our 6th years anniversary. as what As told me, be brave to face LIFE. ya, am doing ok, just hoping my test report can come out faster, then my dec pap test would be ok, then i would be happily end year 2009 - a very challenging year to me!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

i love royee boy~

bday cuppy cakes

ya spending my mc to non stp backing cuppy cakes in the afternoon. it is quite challenging coz my lower abdomen been in pain, it is either strong force or light pain. so while baking the cakes, royee was always on my mind, coz this is the only support for me to move on. am hoping for his sunny smile when seeing these cakes, and celebrate his bday with his friends. last weekend i had completed packaging the party pack, now, the cakes. i did sms As, 'xlarat ooo.. sakit oo.. now face down on the sofa' ya, i dislike uncertainty, especially when the pain nonstop reminding me my my body is sick, but i dont know what it is. aiks.. i told As i was sad, coz am pushing myself to do everything that can cheer up my bbb, n am afraid of the time limit that i can be with my children. am treating my every today as the last day.. so better sleep less n do more.

the boxes

muffins that supposed to use for royee bday cakes,
but my choc sponge cakes SUCCESS!! :p

so i packed the choc n vanilla muffins for angels classmates

my 1st trial cuppy cakes deco, a bit messy..

hmmm not very satisfy with it..

but cukup to make kids happy :p

this is the final pic :p

candles to be on the 'FOUR' cakes

cutie eggs

from hot water..

into icy cool water..

deng deng deng ^_^

18092009

today is a special to me n laogong :) back to year 2003, we submitted our marriage registration form to the pejabat pendaftaran banting. we were on leave on that day, together went n took passport-sized picture, i was wearing blue shirt? then submitted the form.. and waiting the formal registration on 22/10. time flies hor.. now bbb also 4, 3, 3 already :p

many malay colleagues have gone back home to prepare for the hari raya. me too! cant wait to go back home, coz laogong is coming back today from singapore!! 2 weeks oooo.. in these 2 weeks, got life stone bang to me, got so many thoughts came in my mind. now is waiting for laogong to be back, and share with him inperson.

4 days cuti, i will try as much recipe as i can. n relax myself at home. ^_^ 2 friends gathering, 1 family gathering. i hope i can pick up a song n play with piano, i need music recently :p

yo~ selamat hari raya to all kawan kawan.. and happy holidays~ ^_^

amazing grace

Amazing grace, how sweet the sound

That saved a wretch like me.

I once was lost, but now I'm found.

Was blind, but now I see.

Twas grace that taught my heart to feel

And grace my fears relieved.

How precious did that grace appear

The hour I first believed.

When we've been there ten thousand years

Bright shining as the sun,

We've no less days to sing God's praise

Then when we first begun.

Amazing grace, how sweet the sound

That saved a wretch like me.

I once was lost, but now I'm found.

Was blind, but now I see.

non stop listening to this song.. i need peaceful mind :) dont want to complicate everything further, just enjoy the days to the fullest ^_^

midnite talk

5.15am am listening to qin ai de, i need sunny happy tune. 4am wake up from my dream, many nightmares eg my grandma masuk jail bcoz of wanting to visit her son hmm.. Something on laogong forgot already..

Travel to UK with sis, so the happy, we go to mothercare! But wondering why we enter watson. Not sure if uk has watson, n i try nice rasberry cake in watson, then sis buy some xmas souvenirs. Sounds great right? Go to my dreamland, see the origin mothercare shop, with my dearest sis on our favorite xmas day!! But, the reminder comes in, when the watson cashier asked my sis, r u sure u want to buy these? They cost £102 each. I look at the thing, the xmas tree deco, tongkat alike small thingy. Ya why buy it, so the expansive n not worth it! Convert to ringgit msia, wahhh! (sis's accountant habit, so calculative :p) Then sis being in silence, suddenly i can read her thought, these r cute, easy to carry along n they bring meaning of sis, uk, dreamland, xmas, n sis may leaving..... (5.26 am am dropping my tears, non stop :~~~)

5.29am huuuhhhh 5.30am am controlling my tears. Like a fountain hmmm. am charging my phone, am sitting on angel's matress, angel sleeps on my bed, i wrap myself with blanket, in the dark aircond room, listening to happy tune..

1st time crying after the pap test result. I read many forums on hpv, also read about ppl crying everytime when they got their pap test or hpv result. Hmm. Last evening when i drive back home from the training class, i was listening to 'amazing grace' so the peaceful, n i think of this, can i have no tears throughout this journey? Even the end result is so bad, i must also be smiling n laughing.. N ask my friends n family dont need to worry n be sad bcoz of me? Just now when i wake up at 4am, i check my yahoo messenger, got messages from laogong, missing laogong so much :( i think of this, when laogong comes back from singapore, i may hug him n cry.. But just now, thinking of sis's worry of losing me n what she wrote in her blog, i know both of us thinking the same - what's next? When?

So far, i am not in fear. Am ready for everything mentally. Financially, need to depend on my medical card n papa sponsorship if treatments needed :p oh ya, i have my epf too! but. Am worried about my bbb. This is the only thing that pause me for being total release n peaceful mind.

Well, i know there is a turning point for everything, maybe my next 3 mth report will show satisfactory result. As i told As yesterday, this is a sakit, then i go for treatment lo. She said, u r talking about yourself right? N u r laughing now? I told her, if it is bad case, n if i be sad n ignore it, then i would die more faster.

Think of this way, worse case is having cancer, n i need to go thru not comfortable punya treatment process. Worst case is it cannot be cured n i cannot continue staying with my dearest family members n beloved bbb. But i can see angels (not my bb angels har) n God in the heaven :D ok what, this is another God's challenge, i have accepted it. Remember this, God always gives u challenge that u can handle ^_^

5.53am suppose to wake up at 6am n prepare myself to work. Yesterday n today i have motivational class on 'find your purpose in work' at the same time, it tells about purpose of life. This class comes in the right time :) wants to go to the office earlier, so i can reply some urgent queries from end users, n update blog :p kakak left my laptop at bkt31, n wondering why i cant update blog with my iphone hmm.

Gambatte!! Yo! Yo! :D

Ps: blog edited on 8.18am, soooo many spelling mistakes :p i was not ok just now hehe. N i wont gave extra time to do some office work n update blog, i have only time for quick breakfast. Cannot skip meal ooo. Now i am like pregnant mummy, eat well sleep well dont skip vitamins n food supplement n dont pressure myself :) let body immune sys does the rest ^_^ coz i dont know what else to do while waiting for my next test.

my pap smear result

called up the clinic for my routine pap smear result, then the nurse asked me to call back n talk to my gynae. then called back, the nurse said, gynae wanted to see me n discuss with me. before i made appointment, i asked againf for the result thru phone call, the nurse said need to discuss with gyane, after i insisted, she only told me, i need to go for further test on HPV.

very quickly i search online about HPV - human papillomavirus then a lot la info came out. cervical cancer is the main thing that caught my eyes. oppps.. so many info, hpv is the 2nd smallest virus after HIV, no treatment, no symptom.. but also got something to make u release a bit, not all the hiv is cancerous.. so many so many.. was blank at that moment (so many silly emails i typed on that day :p)

ok. went to see gynae. simple n quick. doctor showed me my report, out of the few sentences, he circled the HPV infection. 'u r having hpv infection. this may lead to cancer' then he handover to me a cervical cancer & hpv related diseaces booklet. 'have u heard about hpv?' he looked into my eyes n asked me. 'yes' i was calm. when u know more about the topic, u wont be nervous, so i thank the nurse who hints me about the report 1st. or else, i might so the nervous or scared or whatver la in front of the doctor :)

then, came out from the room, met mei who came to the clinic for her postnatal checkup. i told her this. so the calm one. i was proud of myself :) called up my sis, she cried in the office, poor gal. thanks for loving me so much. or memang aquarius gal likes to cry huh? :p called up laogong, laogong being silent. went back home told papa n mama, mama said, it's ok, u have 3 children already. papa said if it is still early stage, do whatever to make it better. sms my 2 brothers, no reply from them. sis said, how u want them to reply to u, talk this cannot, talk that cannot, they must be feeling bad now.

it's ok.. i am feeling peacefully. only bbb in my mind.. n pls do your pap smear test if u haven’t done so..