sunday..

7am+ woke up. dont want to waste sunday off day. i asked royee to wake my sis up to go ikea. then we prepared ourselves. while waiting for my sis, bbb playing with the bags.. while playing, royee was singing. angels smiling only, coz i didnt stop them from playing the bags :p before i leaving the house, eva looked very dissapointed, coz again, i left angels at home. my hati tak senorok. in my mind, i just hoping i can settle the new house soon, so we can go to bkt31 every weekend n holidays. then very fast, i can stay with them day n night.

gal gal, smile!

royee, smile!

went to bkt31 take the kitchen measurement. then drive to ikea. we said ikea. royee said ikiu. at 1st we thot he was teasing with it, mana tau, whenever he mentioned about ikea, he said ikiu. even we corrected him, he insisted ikea = ikiu :~ during the journey from klang to damansara, royee non stop singing. then he sang '7 days in a week' of course, he missed out few days. then my sis n i repeating sunday till saturday. then royee followed us. after that, he asked, 'so, how to sing it?' then both of my sis n i laugh out loud. we didnt expect he would ask this question. n of course, we didnt know how to sing it! kekeke.. funny..

breakfast at ikea. royee loves fried chicken wing. we took mihun goreng. lunch time at ikea, i took meatballs, my sis took chicken. royee being bullied by the little gangster there. after few times crying, i asked him to sleep. then he slept on my body. then we continue drawing the cabinet for kitchen. then i carried him to kitchen department. hmmm heavy.. wondering why i cant lose some weight, since almost every weekend i carry 15kg bb n shop for hours :p weight is still maintained. my back pain getting worse. hmmm

asked him to look at me, he did this.. the next post was cute, coz i tickled his neck! :p

playing at children area when sis n i busy planning our kitchen cabinet

dinner at subang hitech. the chinese restaurant you n i used to go. royee finished i small bowl of rice n a glass of leong cha. then we went to klang bukit raja lorenzo. supposed to confirm the marble 8 seats dining table, but then, we were not ok with the white leather chairs. hmm not easy to maintain them, especially we have little children. we went back home.

reached banting around 9pm. angel was sleeping. left only eva. shower royee, then sleepkan him. then i play with eva. then angel woke up.. hmmm playing with them. finally sleepkan angels. then nearly 11pm, i pun tidur.. sooooooo tired oooo...

i asked eva to let dora n barney sitting on the sofa. she arranged them. then she sat with them as well:)

meeting parents..

saturday morning. went out with my mum n royee boy. met my sis n bruce n his mummy at klang hokkien association. 4 of them siging the sijil perkahwinan. it made me think of our time, back to 22 oct 2003, when 2 of us sumpah at jabatan pendaftaran banting, witnessed by your papa n mama. time flies. now we have bbb. n my sis is getting married naer soon :) btw, did i tell u i have misplace my marriage certificate? pls look for me when u come back har :~

my sis do uu aa bo aa when 2 mama are signing the cert.. i like this pic, coz bruce is with smiley face :) so mian dian his smile.. kekeke..

080808 banner. can see little our little royee boy ma?

he was so cencentrating on the uncle operating the grass cutting machine..

slim mummy with slim son. chubby mummy with chubby daughter :p

after leaving klang hokkien association. we went for lunch at klang xuan gong cha siew rice. hmmm yummy yummy. during makan, came a ah-po (old woman) n sayang royee's head. she said in cantonese 'wahhh so pandai, boy boy can eat by his own. very tak-ee (adorable) pandai pandai. wish boy boy grow up fast n healthy. study well n jaga parents in the future. ah-po goes back first, u eat slowly har' then royee continued makan. my my mum said, children being praised by old ppl is very good one. ya, hope royee grow up happily n be a good boy :)

after lunch. we went to bkt31. ppl were doing the plaster ceiling. looked at ppl working hard, sweating, n in the dusty environment, i told my sis, the money that we paying out is worth. coz ppl earning money from their hard work. everything was running smoothly. quite ok, up to our satisfaction. the naughty royee, touching here n there. kicking here n there. soooo dirty him when we left the house.

went to aeon jusco bukit tinggi. my sis went for her baju, me n royee went to popular bookstore. i applied 3-years membership at rm25. bought some children books. when i got royee a floor puzzle, he said ok. then when the time i wanted to pay at the cashier counter, royee came to me with a relatively smaller box of books 'mummy, dont want to buy this la (pointing at the big floor puzzle box) this is big, very expansive, we buy this enough la (gave me the smaller box of 12 block books), this one expansive' when i compare the prices for the both product, hmmm the floor puzzle cost rm17 n the block books which is in the smaller box, cost me rm54.90. i explained to royee, the puzzle is cheaper. he couldnt understand it, he thot bigger size cost much higher. then i asked him, 'do u love these block books?' he said yes. then i bought 2 of them. actually the block books are cinderella, bambi, pocahantas, the little mermaid, snow white... 12 titles.

then we passed by a shop with many poster n clocks. then we spent hours inside there. my mummy helping us to jaga royee. n royee was busy with the books n thomas n friend toy (bought for him as he loves it). then after the shop, we went back to banting at 4pm+

mandi n rest for a while. sis n i went back to klang to see the plaster ceiling of bkt31. it was 6pm+ traffic jam. then we reached klang at 7:30pm. dark already. we couldnt make it to see the plaster ceiling (we wanted to make sure the depth of the ceiling drain) so we stopped at the furniture shops at bukit tinggi. great to see the wooden table that we love at macy was there! with 8 seats somemore. so if we cant can a very nice marble dining table, then we would buy this :) then we went to lorenzo klang bukit raja at 8:30pm. very nice furniture. spotted a marble table.. 5k+ wow... expansive..

dinner at bukit raja steamboat shop. then we discussed about the house, furniture... reached home at nearly 12am. watched the final of the million stars singing competition. slept at 2am+ hmmm...

fairy tale..

i hope, there is someone in this corner of the world,
every morning 'oh my dear pretty michelle, i miss u so much'
night time, 'oh my lovely beautiful michelle, how i wish i can kiss u good nite'

i told my friend, maybe we r in someone heart, who miss us day n night. ya i hope there is someone out there.. the special one.. ^_^

me..

allowed myself to online browsing for 45 minutes, go to sleep at 1am. hmmm now is 1:03am. will go to sleep after this post. craving for more longer private time for myself. the broadband service at cyberview resort is quite ok, so am so greedy to stay awake n do as much as i can with this service. bbb are sleeping with u. both u n royee are snoring. angels are angels for both of u, eva for u, angel for royee ^_^ sometime, i really have the feeling, angelina n evangeline are really twin angels for us. they are cute n beautiful! (opps.. stop for a while, your big body is covering eva's head..)

felt guilty about royee's went down in swimming pool just now. were busy taking care angels. royee was happily swimming with the swimming ring. suddenly heard his crying, n u were enjoying your jaguzzi :( my heart pains when he said 'wo de xin hen hai pa' (my heart feels very scared) with tears in his eyes :~ how sorry n guilty for me when he said 'yi zhi chen, yi zhi chen, chen, chen, chen, mei you kan dao mama liao, mei you mama liao..' (go down n go down, down n down n down, cant see mama already, no more mama already) was still blur on what he was trying to tell 'who cant see mama?' 'royee la' suddenly, i felt to cry. now only i know what was happening just now. at 1st i thot he slipped in the swimming pool so he cried. coz the pool was not deep. n he was with swimming ring. now when i think back what was happening just now, luckily he was ok, or else, i didnt know... hmmm... non stop i explained to him, just now u didnt stand firm, coz u were tired, u didnt sleep enough. so now u go n sleep, so tomolo u have energy to walk n swim, then u wont accidently fall down in the water. i just dont want royee to have fear of water. wanted to give him that thinking, he was careless coz he didnt sleep enough. he gave me the feeling that, he would not go for the same swimming pool again. this is the mind i am trying to change.

hard to erase someone fear. that day royee was having fear of the accident man who lose his eyes n legs. till now, if u mentioned 'dont do this har, later your leg would be broken har' then his face expression would change, he pauses a while. i dont want this, i dont like this. still looking for the parenting tips on this. now, another fear, sinking in the water 'many many many water come, come, come to me, cover me, mummy no more royee' hmmm i dont want no more royee, i want my royee boy! just now i hugged him on the bed when he was telling me this, hugged him tightly, with tears in my heart.. i know, the scene is still in his mind.. how to erase it off?

1:33am. better for me to sleep now. gonna busy with children in the morning. then go back banting at 12pm. meet the contractor at bkt31 at 5pm. must be very tired trip. u asked me, why u never use your skin care? hmm not that i dont use my skin care, i use them every day n night. the best skin care is to sleep much n drink much. i got enough time to sleep meh? i can sleep well meh? i would be very happy n find myself lucky if the midnight only 1 bb crying in the midnite. oh, thank god, not that 2 of them of 3 of them are crying for something... as i told u, i may consider to change my skin care product, to higher nutrition or super essense.. coz not easy to make my skin looks young ler, going to be age 30, then busy taking care bbb, then water piping in my body system seemed to be leaking. i drink a lot, but i feel dried! hmmm.. or my body age har, is not 29, 50 maybe :p

ok la, talk much. better sleep la.. btw, thanks for coming back. i felt touched when u said 'yala, seem like something big was gonna happen, if i didnt come back here' ok ok, once a while let me play the fierce demanding wife ok! i know u r busy in the office... i really miss u ma! somemore, children also need to see the actual papa when they are learning to call papa ok! kan sweet to hear when bbb non stop 'papa papa papa' u.. heehe.. i love u :p

in cyberview lodge

in the resort room. bbb are sleeping in the 7' king sized bed. u just finished eating 3 packs of potato chips. hmmm.. seldom eat junk food at foreign countries? ok.. whatever. talking about our children. ya, they grow up a lot. they know more things now.. cute cute hor..

empowerment

hmm.. today, i feel confused. myself made me confused. my thinking, i need time n space to figure out, my thinking, my attitude, my bahaviour. sometime i do ask myself, am i doing things right? who can judge me? or only my feeling would give the judgement.

talking about charity or voluntary jobs. for those ppl who go for voluntary jobs with sincere heart, they may get inspired after the activity. for ppl who doing charity works for some purpose, they may get negative feeling after the trip. or maybe, they may change to be more sincere at the next charity work. in my thinking, ppl who dont think on ppl shoes or accept different ppl background, wont have the full hearted on voluntary or charity jobs. somehow, u would be selfish at 1 point. i hope, educational level that u r achieving, is going to help u to be a better behavioured man. not the attitude that gonna shut ppl mouth coz ppl dont feel to talk to u. let ppl shut their mouths coz u have your point, n they are speechless to fight back. look at the issue from different angles, the outcome may bring u different answers.

today i feel very tired, in fact, this morning in the journey to to office, i have this non stop coming into my mind 'am i too busybody? am i forcing ppl or convincing ppl to follow my thinking or say? am the ppl who are talking to me everyday, put me into their hearts? if my words, really give impact to them?...' i found myself losing confidence recently. confidence to be a good person who i thot it suppose to be. hmmm.. need to upgrade my knowledge, broader my thinking and experience, an academic certificate doesnt mean u r knowledgeble or qualified to understand ppl feeling or handle the situation better. pls remember this. dont be selfish. these few days, 'selfish' popping up in my days, 'why u r acting like that, selfish' 'why u doing this? selfish' hmmm.. or maybe, am too sensitive for everything. yes, everything. so i feel tired.

well.. let's stop here. wanna pack my things n take train to putrajaya, n drive to klia airport to pick u up. been sitting here, reading a local very porfessional photographer's blog, hmm i got inspired. proud of him to build house for children in need during his very tight schedule n at his level.. i think, i found myself back. i think, i have been doing my things n am acting rights. at least, i feel happy n i agree what he doing is good for ownself, ppl, n society. confused for the whole day, i get myself released now ^_^ u can be rich, u can be educated, u can have power n authority, pls have a attitude that EVERYONE can easy to get close with u or at least, an attitude that can let ppl RESPECT u as who u r.

LIFE

in the office. having sore throat, headache, fever. then just started coughing. all come in a package :( staying in the office, prepared the write-up for voluntary jobs that i went in last year. then, my tears falling down when i wrote this ‘terima kasih banyak banyak, anak anak lain yang tolong pakcik bersihkan rumah, anak anak pakcik pun tak datang jenguk pakcik lepas banjir ni’ the pakcik tears dropping and looking far. i end the write up with We may live more happier, if we have less choices in this life. i miss voluntary and charity activities..

going back home soon. u called up n tell me to plan to visit your grandma n parents at johore. i dont feel to let bbb feeling too tired. afraid they will get sick after the travel, then my mum n kakak would feel tired n difficult to take care them. u r ok to go by your own. i'll take care them after we check out from cyverview. or can u pls reserve this weekend to only our bbb? u have too much to catch up with them. 2 days are too short for them to stay with u, to feel the love of their dad. next time pls plan for longer holidays, then you can spend more time with bbb and your parents.

i have rescheduled my photography course, to have more time with u. cant wait to see u at tomolo night ^_^

see u tomorrow~~~

in the office...

very yummy food from kota kinabalu, sabah

very BIG farewell card to COO

cute cute.. i signed on 1 of the crying patung there.. 'all the best!'

supervisor put this calendar facing me.. hmm

never ask for things to be easier, always ask yourself to be better

kinder tour..

the green farm..

angel n royee

gogo n mei mei

his hand hold her hand..

royee's mushroom

royee with mushrooms..

royee's foot print

snails n foot prints for all the students in his class

shone jay thea royee

the mushroom class..

yesterday royee suddenly crawling beside me, he said he was carrying the heavy shell. then i said, 'ohh, royee is snail, so carrying shell n walk slowly..' he said 'no! i am tortoise' oh ya hor, tortoise also have shell n walking slowly.. hmmm..

this morning on the way to the kinder, suddenly he shouted, 'wo yao oval!' (i want oval) then i looked around. ohh, there was a oval shape table in the house compound. 'wo yao tuo yuan xing, wo yao tuo yuan xing! (i want oval shape, i want oval shape). then he started rectangle, triangle, round shape..... wow. i got impressed, he knew all these shape names. which i admitted that, i knew about oval at very big age >.<>

so..

u r coming back. hmmm what a sudden. yesterday only i got mad with u >.<

wanted to posting some photos on royee's kinder, but my camera has gone off battery power. last saturday my sis, royee, angel n i went to banting methodist kinder for prize ceremony of words recognition contest for age 4, 5, 6 students. children nowadays need to learn a lot of things. they even learned the science knowledge which i learned at only primary standard 5 and 6! no wonder my colleague told me she sent her standard 1 boy for tuition class! standard 2 students need to write essay. some of my colleagues told me, they take time to answer their children maths questions. n some, cant even answer the bahasa melayu question :( they told me, the technique they use to calculate the answer of maths are different than us. they can answer all the + - x / questions, by only 10 fingers. hmmm..

royee brought me to the vegetable farm in the kinder. the vege that royee n his classmates planted look fresh green! royee seemed to be a little tour guide n brought us to walk around his school. he holds angel's hand.. cute! then went to his little mushroom class. saw the classmates art works. then only i know royee learned a lot of things in the school :) these few days, royee sings a lot. full songs. with cutie actions too! hehe.. then angel n eva following him :p by next year, i think they must be very very cute then when 3 of them singing n performing together on stage ^_^

last nite, driving back home. a indian lady standing in the middle of 3 lanes, waiting for car to hit her. very shocked and sad to see this. must be something that confusing her. she must be on stress on something. all the cars drove passing her n avoid hitting her. hope she is ok right now. i mean emotionally. pls appreciate our lives, life is beautiful, pls open the eyes of your heart to treasure her beauty.

gel the hair ^^

royee asking the hairdresser auntie to trim his hair 'stand'. the auntie told him, the hair cannot be trimmed as standing look. need to gel it.. this is the 2nd part of the videos.. look kat his face, look at his eyes, non stop focusing on the mirror only :p

on the way back to home, i asked him to take a short nap. he said cannot, later my hair no more standing. when reached home, he didnt want to take shower, afraid it would kena the hair. then my mum asked him to tell kakak 'tak mau cuci rambut' then royee told this to kakak 'tak mau tuti har' kakak also felt funny. sleeping time, he non stop pusing sini sana in the buai, my mum said, later your hair no more standing, then he slept still :p the next day, kakak asked me, rambut royee kasik cuci? i said ya, kasik cuci bersih, semua gel.. hmmm this boy..

furniture hunting..

saturday early morning, i brought royee to klang. picked up my sis n lots of milk powder from shah alam then we went for bah kut teh as requested by royee. royee loves bah kut teh. before that we thot to bring him for breakfast at McD. the happy meal toys were out of stock. then we went to klang bukit raja for dried bah kut teh.

at there, while taking our bah kut teh, the radio played the song that i always sing for royee 'zi ji die dao zi ji pa' (u fall down, u stand up by your own) royee said i simply sing this song, created by my own. until that morning, he heard this song. then now he sometime follow me to sing it. i love this 'ni kan san shang wei ni kai man hong hua' (look at the hill, all the red flowers are blossom for u) ^_^

went to bkt31, asked the contractor to come n measure again our latest design. then went to maid agency to collect kakak's passport. the agent asked me not to spoil the maid. hmmm.. then dropped by at the contractor's shop, to collect the quotation. then rushing back to banting to attend the prize ceremony at royee kinder. after royee kinder, we went to banting furniture shop, hmmm not suit to our tastes.

evening, asked my sis to go sunway pyramid to see the dining table that i mentioned in Lorenzo. both royee and angel were sleeping, then we brought eva. go to sunway pyramid, saw the dining table, we need more table for comparison. then i suggested to go ikano power center Macy. then we drove there at 7:30pm. reached there 8pm+

from Macy to Harvey Norman. then we stopped n took our dinner. steamboat. then we went to ikea at 10pm. plan to build the tv cabinet, living hall cabinet, n even kitchen cabinet by our own. hmmm see how la. need to ask your opinion on this, coz u r the one who need to install everything for us :p left ikea at 11pm+ after the annoucement 'dear customer, we are currently closed...' hehehe.. reached banting, hmmm 1am.. sooo tiring ooo...

at sunway pyramid. 1st time with her dora backpack

at macy

at ikano power center

diam diam tak senyum one..

dinner at steamboat, ikano power center

discovering herself..

angelina roinn

on the way..

'that's all for this week!' i left this when i switched off my pc.so tiring when running up n down for urgent doc. my colleague said i look cool n steady even i'm busy n tight up. for her she would either scream or scold ppl. haha.. i love busy working hours, time flies.. n i feel satisfied when i complete one task. self esteem is very important in the office.

friday, feel envy when i heard junie said friday is her paktor day with her hubby. n she was waiting for her 'driver' to pick her up. out of sudden, i feel lonely, i feel empty. i dont know if u been missing me over there, i miss u dearly! feel very lonely this week. after busy working n taking care bbb, i feel like missing something. i know why so many private affair happen in long distance love, coz i do have 'how nice if i had a bf now' come across my mind some time. must stand very firm on this. be responsible to our spouse n kids. i hope u can manage n behave yourself there.

ok. wanna tag myself out from this train station. not a good place for me to sit here n type this post, feel somemore lonely. love u..

one of the sundays..

bbb sitting together.. tak di-arrange..

angel tak smile one..

my eldest brother talking to bbb..

angel n eva

angel with muka baru tidur.. busuk!

night with bbb

asked them to show 1 to 10 using their fingers

photos after this, fighting n jumping on the bed!

u called me when i took photos n playing with them. so noisy. finally, i managed to sleepkan royee n eva. then i let angel to play toys. i brought the durian that my dad reserved to me. sooooo yummy look~ eating durian nearly 10pm. hmmm cant resisit it.. they were really tasty!! angel looking n smilling at me. asked her want to have a dry, she nodded her head. she tried twice ^_^

as i told u, every nite i have very nice dinner from my mummy. then durian n bird nest dessert sometime. kekeke.. jealous u. philipines has sugar cane n dried mango rite? have u tried them?

sisters..

cute hor.. eva went n waved bye bye to angel.. wondering why eva didnt call angel.. at least make some sound ma..

i love this video clip. cute cute~ hmmm for them, since in my belly they been staying together. so the special love between them is hard for us to have it. i love to see them smile at each other.. eva carried the toy bag. in fact, i asked her to pick up all the toys on the floor. then she waved bye bye to angel. then she kissed. then she hi-5 before leaving the room.. i love them :*

on my way back home

in the train now. still laughing alone about junie's funny stories. nice chat with her today. got something from the conversation, be brave to speak out our mind, so we wont easily get bullied by ppl. 'that's why u r so lovey dovey' hmm this made me think about myself.

these days am learning to speak out for myself so ppl dont simply take advantage on me. few ppl mentioned this to me, scolding me too. am still figuring out, am i doing this rite. after changing myself, would it be still 'i am who i am'? hmm suddenly remember that u told me this few years back 'coz u easy to get bullied ma' when i asked why u chose me..

(a man sitting opposite me, look n wear like mr crocodile :p)

today u called from bangkok, told me u spent much over there. cloths, massage n spa, gal show, boy show.. seem like travelling there. my fren said habis la perempuan kat sana semua lawa lawa.. i said, so? i pun tak dapat buat apa apa ma.. honestly, i feel tired to suspect this n that. if u had gf, u know the consequences. bbb r always mine. i always remind myself this, husband n wife might be ex, parents n children would not. to keep this in mind so i wont get that hurt if anything happen :) anyhow, hope u appreciate this chance n freedom n trust.

ok want to drive back lo. super hungry! pls come back fast! miss u much :(

mid july

this morning having some argument with my sis on bkt31. hmm.. shall avoid this in the future. coz we going to stay together, so must be tolerant. luckily u r not here, or else u have another opinion n ideas, lagi susah we make decision. everyone is hoping for the best for the house, ya, so never mind la, if cant make it done this year, then we move in next year lo. so man man lai.. ^_^

this morning i fried the rice by my own! after so long oooo.. i miss the smell n taste of my fried rice.. ya.. so tasty!!!! cooked for myself - breakfast n lunch, n breakfast for kakak. hope it taste ok to her :p rushing to the train station, forgot about my lunch box, went back n pick it up, then i missed the train :( again, today i am late to work. have to go back late again this evening...

bbb are cute n so lovely. sometime i cant control myself to hug n kiss them.. over n over again :p then when i carry 1 bb, another bb will come to me.. then another one.. 1 at left, 1 at right, 1 at the back.. happy la.. feel lucky to have bbb to temam me ^0^ angels are still having low fever, midnite worsen the fever. very high temperature. sub a pill, then sleep again. i dont sleep well these few nights. jaga them.

well.. time for my lunch break. wanna makan my nasi goreng lo~

when i grow up, i want to be...

mummy: baby, when u grow up, what u want to be?
royee: doctor!
mummy: police or doctor? (saja want to confirm his answer)
royee: wo yao dang yi sheng la~ (i want to be doctor la)
mummy: why u want to be doctor?
royee: doctor can jap ppl (holding a pencil, and jap me)
mummy: u want to be doctor coz u want to jap ppl?
royee: doctor.. doctor.. doctor can bao ren de (carry ppl one)
mummy: why doctor carry ppl?
royee: yin wei na ge ren sou shang le ma.. (bcoz the person get hurt already ma)
mummy: oooo.. doctor can give patient medic hor, then no more sick lo..
royee: ya.. i can take medic by my own.. dont need to hold mouth one, hold mouth very pain one..
mummy: ya.. royee good boy ma..
royee: mummy i got no sick already. u bring me go swimming ok? (i told them if sick, we cant go swimming next time)
mummy: u r still coughing la..
royee: wo mei you (said no, trying to control his cough.. then.. non stop coughing!)
mummy: u see, go n sleep early, then u will get well soon.
royee: wo you yi dian dian bing ba liao de.. (i have small sick only)
mummy: ok la, u sleep early, tomolo mummy send u to the school. u go there n learn many many things, then when u grow up u can be a good doctor n save ppl live.
royee: ok.. i want to be doctor one. doctor can da zhen de (jap me again >.<)


royee to be doctor.. hmm.. let see.. :p