0407 Thursday

Hip hip good morning! ^0^



Sis called in the morning 'you this morning scolded your children hor' ahhh.. The day when I don't need to rush and scold, if they are not schooling or when they are not staying with me @_@



I am seriously looking forward for upcoming travel trips. Need to recharge my body battery, refill my soft and tender characters :p it won't last long if I continue being a angry woman day in day out, very soon not that laogong fed up with me, I might not be accepting myself @_@



Last night I watch the story of sammi cheng. How she regain herself after serious depression she got. From this sharing, we would definitely being reminded - money and status can't make us rich. Only love and hope can fill up our empty heart and bring us joy and peace.


Spiritual satisfaction is very important to make us appreciate life. In sammi's sharing, one thing touched my heart was - sammi and friends went to china small village and be volunteered teachers for 1 week. How she helped the child to bath. As children over having chance to really clean themselves eg 1-2 times in 12 months.



I hope 1 day, when I am ready, I can go this far. To reach out the very inner hearts of someone at the other corner in the earth. By giving out to them, I gain from them :)



Plan to go for this concert Saturday night. Bring along bbb. This morning I listened to few of victorgee songs, nice ^^ I always have the thought, one day in the future, I can write and compose gospel song.. For children or for my bbb or at least, for myself ^^



So I can sing the song to my grandchildren? Hehehe..

Was very tired and sleepy last night, because of day time black coffee, I couldn't fall sleep. So I got up and do some treadmill walking and watching the inspiring story of sammi's :)



Again. After workout picture sent out to sis to 'motivate' her as requested. But it seems, she hasn't started any walking or jogging yet..



Have a good day!

After ptm

2/7/2013 the school was having parent-teacher meeting for children report cards collection.





Bbb doing well in academic result, 1 class upgraded if the result remains or better than now. However, they got very not so OK comments on their attitudes and characters @_@ macam macam la, you don't know to laugh at it or to cry for it.



Teacher said the boy always walking around the class like at home. Don't care much about teacher's instruction. Too playful, talkative, dirty.. Memang social punya budak! Kelakuan - C! This morning I told royee, for better rating of behaviour at school, it is very easy to get A as long as you listen to teacher 'hey! Very difficult la!' Ya, for a hyperactive baby, you want him to sit quietly, it is torturing.. :( can you imagine sport teacher comments royee is 'too active' at the field? A subject suppose to be active but he can be too active?



Royee got no.2 in 3rd class, overall he got position 67 which manage to move to 2nd class :)



For my angelina's report card, I laugh after reading the comment. To improve her learning attitude and change to be good. In Chinese word 改过自新, to me, it is used for ppl who does bad thing, so you renew yourself. Ya, my girl needs to be 'renewed' @_@ when teacher scolds her, she smiles to teacher, when teacher asked her to complete homework, she put all the colour pencils and pencils on the table and on the floor! 'I am looking for my pencil' hmmm wondering how big the pencil case is.. Kelakuan B.



Surprisingly, she got no.5 in 3rd class! A girl in her own world can get top 5 in earth class :D overall 35 for standard 1, can get in 2nd class if this result maintained.



Compare to brother and sister, Eva got lesser 'bombastic' comments from the class teacher. But still, she is dirty. She got bad habit of chewing stationery eg pencil, colour pencil or coins or rulers in the class @_@ one day, teacher got shock when Eva's mouth was in blue colour! Coz she chewing the blue colour pencil :~



Eva's result are quite ok. All A, except for art class - C - didn't submit the art piece :~ no.8 in 2nd class, next year can be in 1st class if she continue with this performance.



So, we got to know all our children weird behaviours at the school. Then we seen this too, some messages from Eva's class teacher to parents. To cut nails, to bring handkerchief, to wear safety short for girls, to make sure sufficient stationery...



So after the celebration of the good mid year achievement, awe eat and we laugh together with teachers comments..



We went to the bookstore to buy stationery. The involvement of father in this ptm is very important, at least he knows the children from 3rd party comments, he should by now knowing why the wife non stop spending money for children stationery and activity books ^0^



Last night I was quite relaxing. Coz laogong knew what needed to be done for children with teachers comments :) last night I felt happy with laogong involvement in schooling stuff :)

Once reached home, got children to sleep, did cloth washing, then I started to be on my treadmill..



Fast walking is easy for me, coz I walk quite fast in daily life. But to maintain the timing >30 min, I need to be occupied. Last night I watched the Taiwanese Christian tv program on a lady overcome the bad relationship in her marriage to find herself and live happily with her new-self :) very inspiring, to listen to the story on how she coped with her husband who gamble quite serious.. So I got myself sweating and crying :p



Saja snapping this pic to let my sis see I do stretching. Stretching in action tak jadi snap pic, coz no hand to press the button hahahha :D



Send this pic to sis before I sleep. This morning she called 'you every night send me your after workout picture, when I see it I would get angry, then I have force to go exercise' hahhaha my sis is sometime too cutie funny siao! :p

Tata! Have a good day!

2nd of July ^^

Good morning!


Breakfast for you! :D guess sis will again complain me on her breakfast coz overcooked the wrap :p "you want me to die because I am too noisy? or you are too rushing in the morning and you just left the wrap on the pan har?" See la, no thank you note from her but complain much on the 'little bit' darker wrap ^0^



This pic shows how Nepal children go to the school. They take risk everyday for their education opportunity. Look at my children, they take all the gifted luxury convenience for granted. Every morning I seems to be a roaring lion and ROAR!!!

Yesterday when I reached the school, teacher on duty checked her watch, then became cheer lady and got angel to walk faster "faster faster, today you are not late!" Teacher must be 'proud' coz the problematic trio are not late - for today :p

Today, another 'blessed' moment. We are late actually. The gate is closing. When the guard auntie saw us, she stopped the closing gate, so children manage to get in without putting names on the record book. Somehow, after 6 months, the guard auntie 'knows as well' too >_< haiya, I am so malu la! Embarrassing myself every school day!




Today is parent teacher meeting day. I don't have additional leave to go to the school. Have an important meeting too in the morning. Then I got laogong to go to the school. Well, let him feel what I have been through is good too! I told laogong we try not to be - absent parents in children life. All the big and small event and occasion of their lives.



So.. Hope today laogong can share with me 'good' comments from teachers of bbb :p last year, when royee was at standard 1, the class teacher said "his result is good, he is good in study, but..." Very long story after the amazing 'but' :D I guess, same opening for today dialogue too hehe.



Love my children. When everyday I complain about my children this and that, after watching the video clip last night, talking about a lady lost her children "when my sister came and complained about her teenager was not behaved, I told her 'no matter how naughty your child is, he is still alive staying with you, you still have chance to educate and guide them to the righteous, for me, I have no chance to talk to my children anymore'" this touched my heart. Why we want to spending time complain and give up our children when we are having chance to change the situation?



I have lost contact with my handmade world @_@ as for now, my focus is on my children character building, learning new skill at work, and looking forward to my coming travel trip. I definitely need to rest at ME time.

Happy Tuesday!

1st of July

Just done this..





While watching this inspiring story sharing.. How this woman gone through difficulties in her life - lost a 3 year old child, then ex husband, then lately, a very good daughter of her.



Trying to snap my berpeluh peluh look.. Btw, my eyes brow made me look so fierce hor



This one acted sweet kakaka :D anyway, feel refresh after sweat myself out

Hehehe.. For your information, sis and I are staying under the same roof.. But we message and calling each other everyday :p









Good night!

23:16 tonight my laogong is at home! :p

2806 busy brain

Today suppose to be a super busy day for me at work. After a dramatic start of the day with my bbb, I brain cells are busy cramping my head..



Since last week, angel been saying dont want to go to school. Until today only I know the real reason behind. She couldn't find her 2nd mathematic activity book and teacher punished her.

In the car, I telling them this sentimentally 'you all don't trust mummy. All happy, unhappy, good or bad stories, sharing, punishment you all don't share with mummy. If there is any problem, you keep it in your heart, then you try to escape the problem. Why can't you share with mummy and we solve it together? we seek for help together? We pray together? Mummy is so closed relationship with you and you can't share with me, then who else you want to share your story with?'

This is sad. To me, this means that I failed in mother's role to gain my children trust and I can't give them sense of security to protect them.

After sending them to the school. I turned back home to look for the book. 'thank God!' I said this with my watery eyes. ya I found it. So I drove back to the school. My effort is not pampering my girl. I just wanted to let my children know, as long as you share your problem with me, I try my level best to solve it for you in a good and right way.

After few layers of registration and school stamp chop and teacher signature, finally I got in Angel's class and the class teacher talked to me. Quite long..



Basically, angel is in her own world. She doesn't have sense of urgency, worrying.. She is 'unstable' in mental and emotional control. So sometime you see her very good and happy, sometime she is so sentimental and dramatic @_@ many stories in the class teachers shared with me, she can't even wait for the actual parent-teacher meeting day >_<



Well, every challenge in life is a learning path to us. I am not a medical student, but I have chance to learn more on those professional knowledge through my children medical treatment. My china sis in law always saying this to her friends 'my dasao teaching and taking care children in scientific way' ya, become non-licensed doctor kakakaka :D

See how la. let me settle today office work. Today have a 5km walk. Hope I can make it tonight, as last night reaching home late, standing next to the treadmill, 'shall I spend 1 hour to get myself sweat out then another 30min to cool down or I go to sleep and have better focus the next day?' So I choose to sleep :p got do legs stretching and carried dumbbell la for a while only ^0^



Have a peaceful Friday :)

2706 back to school!

After few days off days due to serious haze condition, today children are back to school in a mummy-gone-mad morning @_@

The boy complained his tumble lost. Then complained about me not giving him water to drink, he would die because of thirst! Siao! Thought of being a good mummy didn't want to scold children in he morning, after few rounds of complaint - hey! You didn't bring your bottles back then you complain about me not giving you water? Go and look for other bottle and prepare for gal gal as well!

hoh!! After scolding the boy, went up to the room, seeing 2 girls were still sleeping >< crying to wake up, crying not to go to the school, crying for dont know what reason.



Last last you see thing like this. Yes, after 5 offdays, the girl doesn't want to go to the school because of not doing homework.



Last night when I was mopping the floor, she was so relaxing, stretching legs exercise and reading comics!



After borrowing pencil and eraser from the siblings, I written all answer for her, she copied then we finally reached the school 'on time'. Teacher somemore checked her watch to make sure the time it 'on the dot'. Hohhh!!!



Just hoping they have a happy childhood with lots of freedom and words from mummy >_<



So, what's new today? When I parked my car at train station, walking to buy ticket, I heard lady shouting! I thought of someone stealing her handbag and ran away. But it didn't seem that way, the girl was starring the ran away motorbike with angry faces. When I went near to the lady 'you know why I scolded the man?' I have no idea, coz I saw her purse was with her.

'The guy was masturbating his dick on his bike!!' Oh! Shocking answer. 'Haiya! Why can see girls passing by and do this thing at the roadside, go back home watch the porn cd better la, the girls are more sexier la'

In fact, we need to beware of this. As I told my sis, what if one day the guy comes and disturbs girls? Hmmm.. The lady said 'when I scold him, he smiled at me somemore. Then I scolded louder then only he ran away'..



Hope today will be another good day :) these few days i got bad headache, need to use medicated oil that serious, as I can't take pain killer. Night time I sleep not well. Always wake up around 4am. Work stress I guess. Tomorrow will be the final day then this project complete! Hope for smooth ending of this project, then I can continue to complete another mega project.



Happy Thursday :)

blue sky

如果我的祝福
能够让你不再感到孤独
这属于春天的音符
我最美的祝福
是送给你成长的礼物
如果我的付出
能够让你不再傍惶无助
我愿将所有的希望
化成亮丽的阳光
照亮你心灵最深处
爱就是对明天的期待
对生命的关怀
擦亮你心窗抹去尘埃
喔你将会看见
窗外依然有蓝天



Sometime, there are someone in our circle of friends are facing some difficulty or not so happy situation which we dont know until we catch up with them or they come to us. Sometime when we send out a simple message to friends 'Hi, how are you?' The replies from friends might be different.

Sometime, normal chit chatting between friends can lead to more serious stories of our friends. So what I am trying to say is, we might not be able to meet up our friends often, but we shouldn't stop messaging or checkin our friends latest update. I admit, in this effort, I am not good enough, always telling myself I am busy with my family and children, in fact, a simple message sending out is less than a minute.




Lately I have a friend who is facing complication in marriage. Shocking news to me on what she has been going through. I don't know how to help her out, so I seek guidance from my cell group members. They given me few numbers.



Today if you come across my blog. If you or your family and friends are having some personal or family or mental concerns that need someone professional to listen to, you can try the above numbers. If you search on web, they are many counseling units provide help and free consultation to needy. The above numbers are part of the big group.



Am happy my friend follow up to the psychiatric and seek professional advise. From her sharing, she understands her own condition better and this is somehow calm herself to move forward. Women need to love ourselves, sometime we hide our not so happy stories down in our hearts. This is not right. In fact, it is not easy to face all the sadness alone. I have gone through some not so alright journey, sometime in the midnight, still staying in fear and crying alone. I told my friend, I might see the psychiatric too when it is necessary, sometime, our sadness or fear just need a professional end :)



Remember, rainbow is always come after the rain. Then you see sunshine too. The purpose of this post is, stop get depression or frustrated with your current living, if it is not up to your satisfaction level, go out and share your stories with girl friends as they might have 1001 similar stories to share with you, from there you see how other people facing their difficulty. Or, if more serious condition that need professional advisor, you can try those non profitable units or paid clinic to help you through the challenging path of life.

Thank you. Hehe. Finish reporting on what I been wanted to share. Reaching station. Tata!



Don't forget to love yourself!