02102012 Tuesday

the train ticket not only increased the monthly ticket fee, but the train schedule changed too. and I missed the earlier train, sitting here to wait for the late train @_@



accident.. hmmm last night when I collected royee's birthday cake, a motorbike bang into my car. thank God, the uncle was ok, and I didn't get hurt too. ya, the car got hurt :( but.. that can be repaired with money and workmanship. human being cant be repaired to the original state if any body parts broken.



for all the money matters, protecting own right by hurting others, these all are not my principle of life. what I want is, I smile from my heart, I sleep well at night.






we needs to create laughters in daily routine. so we see things in different angles, we think out of the box.

oooo I just got in the train, and I am sleepy. wanna take a short nap. am having flu, dry throat :(



this is a strong message that spoke my feeling lately :( I know you love me and the family, but you don't see my contribution..

01102012 the 7th!

what is so special today?



today is my shonejay's 7 year old birthday ^^



my boy ^^



they make me a MOTHER..



and I have been a mother for 7 years.. and the years go on..



on today, I start my day back in my mama's house, taking care my angels and separate with my royee boy..



and today is the new rate of the monthly train ticket, from rm285 increased to rm320! hey, this has spoiled my today good mood!




hmmm... 3 months to go, then I will stay permanently in my own home sweet home..

grain of sand

我是一粒沙
藏在海边没什么特别
给日头晒 给风雨打
心里的辛苦有谁人知道

啊我是一粒沙
是千万粒里的一粒沙
日夜在等 日夜在看
不可能有人会注意到我

啊一粒沙 我是一粒沙
千万粒里的一粒沙
啊有一日耶稣找到我
讲我是祂的宝贝
祂实在在疼我

啊我是一粒沙
风吹雨打我也不怕
有主作我的力
有主看顾我
我是主宝贝的一粒沙

A Grain Of Sand the Taiwanese Christian song written by Pastor GT Lim was singing about we are all like a grain of sand in ten millions, hidden in the sea, burn by sun, beaten by wind blow & rain drop, nobody knows us, nobody understand how hard we felt deep down inside, until one day Jesus found us, He said to us we are His baby, His treasure and He loves us :)

http://youtu.be/JDu7GbGXzS0






^^

handmade mood

because of I spent quite a lot lately in buying fabrics and materials..



feeling guilty too if I don't do anything..



like this fabric.. so I come out this..


like the soft colour tones.. so I decided to keep it for myself :p



an incomplete handphone pouch.. 1st time use this fabric design, as I always go for cute cartoon :p the outcome is quite nice.. I like it ^^ but, just stopped at final touch @_@



..and start with this..



hand sewing this handphone pouch homework when my sick boy is sleeping.. 1st time, I mix and match the colours for the the patch work :)



this is a classmate finished pouch. so inspiring with the creative touch up. mine look like a kid's work @_@ to work harder to enhance my skill and creativity :)


from facebook see this. ppl's ms sue.. so lovely and elegant! romantic feel oooo~



see this in my office elevator. the green lace shoes are so lovely.



wonder how would I look like when I am in the lace shoes. don't know if I can walk as normal or not, afraid of my steps spoil the shoes ><



ok, I will do more handmade stuff in my free time. or I shall say I will make myself time slot for handmade. to clear my existing fabrics collection, then buy more again :p



nice ^^

all in sudden

lately, all sorts of old old memories come to me unexpectedly and bring me to the not-so-feeling-good memory lane then bring me fear, tears, helpless... then myself to comfort, to overcome, to make myself get up and continue the everyday.

ppl always say when those old old ppl before leaving this beautiful world, they have all old time memories come to them to let them refresh the whole life once more. I got 20s, 10s memories refresh at age of 33, so, is the expiring date coming?



these few days, the need of laogong companion is very strong. he goes out at night for banking transaction or petrol station, I feel unsecured. I am afraid of losing him. working days, I message him to dinner with me, I ask him to come back early. of course, he has his plan and schedule. he does not turn up, I stay quiet. I don't know why I feel lost, because of I am moving back to my mum's house or this is a need from my inner heart. am I leaving somewhere?



last night I cried for old memory. I was in fear and darkness. then I felt relief and wait for the morning broken.


dawn, royee came to me and told me he was feeling not well. I touched him, he was in fever. laogong forced him to take medicine, royee cried and didn't want to go to the day care and the school. I chose to stay at home and take care of him. I don't know if I still have balance annual leave to spend, but I just can't leave the boy alone..

I take emergency leave, so royee can continue resting. and I have slot to get my heart a rest. eyes are swollen too @_@



happy Wednesday ^^ sudden off day, maybe I just get myself to be in world of handmade :)

the final off day!

huuuhhhh~ am sweating! I ran from the car park lot to the train station, then again speeding to climb up to and go down from the staircases, slip in the train before the train's doors closed @_@ good morning exercise then >.< that's why I prefer to wear very simple and comfortable mostly 1 piece dress and easy running sandals to get myself prepared for the last sec squeeze in the train ^0^
why am late? coz when I wanna leave the house, then I recalled I got a bag of washed cloths in the washing machine. to leave out the cloths in the sun, I spent a little more time..




I can get angels gal gal to help out during weekend. 3 of us together doing is very fast. 'tup tup tup tup' then settled. for the shoes on the floor too. bbb can really help out in doing housework, I hope this continues to many many years so together manage the house GOOD!
last sunday, I talked and joked around with bbb at the dining hall when they took the lunch. basically I shared with them our 2013 daily schedule. from morning what time wake up, how we go to the school, what they shall do in the day care centre after school, then night time time table...
so, the main purpose is this.. 'in order for us to manage our time well, and get everything done and followed our schedule, we need to organise our things. there must be 'houses' for your school bags, weekend classes bags, books and stationery. so you won't go up and down in the house just to look for the missing books'
then here come mummy's devil trap.. 'we have only 3 months left to get everything done, so if you count only weekend, we have no enough time for all these preparations for us to stay together. 1st of all, what I see is your messy wardrobe! how nice if you can organise your wardrobe nicely, then we label each of the drawer eg pyjamas, shorts, panties.. then you can get what you want immediately. in fact, TODAY we can do it!' ^0^
'you know, we always see papa talk loudly (bbb always complain @_@), sometime scold us too! all these rude habit is not good to learn, and we need to remind papa to take softly and politely. BUT! guess what? papa has a very good habit we need to learn from him! (bbb asked 'what's that?' so suspend :p) papa set up his wardrobe very neat! slot for pants, shirts, sports wear, towel.. you all can pay a visit! mama also needs to learn from papa too!'




then we got this scene. Eva is in action of keeping the wardrobe neatly. royee was in his room too, busy with the wardrobe and playing the toys as well :p




this is what angel doing when gogo and mei mei were busy. angel washed her hair and bathe for hours! get in and out from the bath room and talked to eva nakedly >_<




at last she came out, smell like a 'crappy' scented candle @_@ wear nicely and read book at the 2nd floor staircases..




busy with her wet hair..




free garu garu sexy pose for you ^0^ really beh tahan this girl




came to talk to me..




'I am a doing_nothing girl and day dreaming in this world everyday' >.<




this pic taken before they gone for swimming. suddenly bbb came in the room 'mummy, just now you told us about papa's wardrobe, we now come to see it' I got surprised too, coz this happened after 3-4 hours from my 'Inspiring and motivating' talk.
so inspiring right? papa has a good thing so everyone can learn. this is definitely a very good parenting tip - children see children do, learn by example ^^ laogong does housework everyday. royee now starts doing housework without instruction given. that day when we went back to my mama's house, royee saw the messy room, he went and clean it. of course, he does housework with the mumbling mouth.. non stop complaining this and that 'you see, the bowl how come in the room?' 'you see the books? nice nice one then go and tear it?' shake head and continue doing. LEARN from papa ma.. papa also make a lot of noise when doing house chores >_<




no matter what, I still can't wait to have all bbb staying together soonest possible! much better, if there is any maid helper to help out in the non stop housework for 8 ppl at home :p
good day!




my bbb chopsticks ^^ cute!

oh, by the way, today is the last day of my sis maternity leave :D we will have dinner together with royee as well, coz next week onwards, I will stay with angels in work days ^^

2409 Monday blue~

me: leave me alone @_@

feel to blog, but the train coach is too stuffy and warm! no aircond and I am standing and sweating >_<

30min to go! eeeerrrhhh!!




am on fire now!

ps:
if you want to see why my sis's back is on fire, you may go to her blog @
http://poohmehmeh28.blogspot.com/2012/09/blog-post_24.html




ta!

attitude

in a beautiful peaceful place, there must be ppl who non stop bringing positive energy to everyone, and there is also ppl who like to create conflicts to make ppl feeling not good. then we can ensure the eco-balanced.

this week, I got few bullets shoot in the office. I dont get hurt deeply coz I have been matured. this week, I learnt how to handle ppl, I can practice anger and people management. when ppl talk louder, we don't need to raise our voice to burden our throat. as long as our justification and tone is firm, then smart ppl know who is right and who is pretending to be right.




I like today office work ending with this conversation..

boss: michelle, you are good. ppl do many things to you, you still playing and smiling around.. you have very good attitude. never mind, the GOD is GREAT.. remember this, the God is Great.

ya, what for I want to dislike ppl who dislike me? I just need to be myself. ya, of course, I will be protective, so I can avoid you hurt me many many more times. but I wont hate you. coz, whoever wants to revenge or making ppl life difficult, the person would somehow more suffered by own negative spirit.



so, I can't force ppl to see the blue sky, if they choose not to face the sunny bright. my world is broad, coz I see and smile to the borderless sky everyday :D



sweetness and colours can always add on to the black and white dullness :) rich is the soul can make us go farer ^^

happy weekend!!



thinking to concur this handmade blanket :p dream BIG!