Monday, October 28, 2013

Sei Fo




'You! Why you don't have money still go travelling so frequent?!'


'You 2! Why never learn from previous lessons?!'


'Ahhhh.. Help me! Help me! The boat is sinking! Aahhhh!'


'How to stable the boat?!'


'Ya! The batman hero is here to help! :D'

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Well enough being wuliao, serious talk is, I got pressure. Pressure from sis to ask me to save as much money as possible for upcoming travel trip.

Pressure1: where to get extra money in this not-bonus-season and increment time?

Pressure2: while asking me saving money, this evil sis asking me shopping for winter cloths too!

Pressure3: I company sis to realise her dream-come-true then why I need to stay under this and that stress huh? She suppose to thank me (spend me :p) to company her in this meaningful trip. Don't you think so? ^0^



'You think so easy to get a big cow for our non stop fresh milk supply ar?'



'Big cow can be ignorance or sleep de leh'



Well, no eyes to see what is upcoming, as u know my sis is very capable in sourcing money and info for all our DIY travel trip :D full confidence with her!



Escaping myself from this headache, jumping to my work commitment 1st. This morning sis reminded me 'you work harder, so you can get awards and better increment and bonus!'

Ok ok, will try my best la! So we can spend in our 'potential' Europe trip! :D



'Again?! Another travel trip?! Shoot you!' --- ahhhhh.. Talk for fun only ma :p



End for today silly blog posting. Thanks for reading. Happy Monday!
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ps1: sei fo = opps / die! / oh my!

ps2: I am so sick today.. Fever flu after yesterday hot sun + raining day in water world + -5 degree Celsius snow world + tired body :(

Friday, October 25, 2013

2510 Friday!

Today, in the company, many ppl are happy!


With this mail from our CEO, feeling like the company is moving to modern era :D

Talking about what to wear to the office, some ppl said 'only tight jeans and tight t-shirts allowed!' Haha not for me this sexy body shape :p my head of department said he gonna wear suit and tie :p when I shared this announcement to my children, then I made joke about this 'so, today is my wedding anniversary, I wear wedding gown to my office!' Or 'today is my children sports day, so I wear sport wear to work!' :p

In fact, my office is having nice and comfortable breakout area and academy training center. Besides, we are having breakout area like Starbucks or coffee bean hangout area. You have seen my office floor level breakout area - where I usually eat my lunch box place. Now let me show you another good place to hangout during lunch time..



Our academy floor. We have 2 floor levels for training purposes. Colourful resource center. This is the main entrance. Turn left for training rooms, turn right for meals and tea. Center is library with magazine and books.



So we have 2 TVs at the area for food. Most of the time, they play food channels, so you can watch nice foods while you are eating nice foods :p


Some people read newspaper or chit chatting here. Yesterday I packed my lunch and had my personal quiet moment here :)

Below are our computers screen savers. Our computers screen saver and wallpaper are set and changed according to new products launch or festive season :)


I like this music series :)





Got the feel of relaxing~



Snapped this pic at my office lobby. Normally the festive deco in the office lobby is the same with our customer center deco :) sometime, the children photos in the deco are children of employees! So far, non from me yet hehhehe :p



So today is Friday! Since I love my company - so far :p I will hard hard today, at least for my 1st solo audit session with end user :D gambatte!



Big gulung roti tissue for you~


Have a colourful and sweet weekend!

Tuesday, October 22, 2013

The 10!

2102013 a special date to my marriage with laogong :)






From 2003 to 2013, lots of surprises, stories and feeling happening in our marriage and daily life. Changes of houses, careers, number of children.. to the level of our dependency, tolerance, patience, understanding and words to each other :)



The way we communicate, show our feeling and care, expressing our love and understanding has changed. The need of companion to every second in daily life turns to more hearts connected moment and warm hugs required. Things changed, people changed, ages and wisdoms grown.



Even with the existence of of our bundles of joy along the journey..



The initial love crash feeling has been in deep down of our hearts. The reason for us to commit to each other, the 1st warmth hug, the 1st sweet touch, the 1st loving staring.. All these touching moments have led us to..



The precious 10 years togetherness and happiness :)

Happy anniversary to laogong and I. I love you..still :) continue to be the head of our lovely family and be the giant support to our love and care need ^^



Thank you for your love and care ^^ hopefully, you can come back early on our next 10th year anniversary :p




Monday, October 21, 2013

Pain-ache

Been having back knee pain for months, whenever I stand up after I bend my knee, I feel the mild pain and not comfortable. Lately, even when I lay on the bed, my left shin feel the after-cramp pain. Finally, last week I went to clinic for consultation. Doctor given me 2 medicine. If this medic doesn't help, then I will be referred to specialist for leg screening.


Last night I felt the pain again after I sitting and folding cloths. After taking shower, I told angel 'if mummy needs to go for leg surgery, then mummy can't take care you all for a period of time' laogong immediately answered 'it's ok, never mind, since mummy is always sleeping at home by the way'



I know I shouldn't be bothered for what laogong saying without considering my feeling. But yet, this phrase of words have hurt me..deeply. Many thoughts came into my mind. Many negative comments floating in my mind too. I stayed silent in the night..and the tears, dropping in this raining morning..



Shall I asking for a role change? For a week change where I stay in my mother's house or I go travelling, then laogong stays home and do whatever I need to do with children?

Eg..

Force to wake up in the morning, taking short shower and dress up fast. Wake children up, not only once, but few times and accepting their morning temper with smile so they don't delay anymore. Put a set of ironed school uniform + socks + panty + handkerchief + pocket money + belt.. So they don't sit there and crying for all these things.

When leaving home to the school, make sure all water bottles are filled and put in their bags. Look for rubber band to tight angel's long hair. Need to patiently ask angel stay still so you can right the hair tidy and fast. Get ready for last minute - die-die-must-do stuff eg missing books, art class stuff, school fees.. Have to control your bowel even you feel wanted to go to the toilet, or else children will be late to the school.

Evening in the office, you may say this to the boss 'sorry, can we continue this tomorrow? I need to rush for the train' or reject colleague dinner invitation although how you wish to have some personal time with your colleague. In the train, calling sis to confirm who pick up children or what to pack for dinner. Feel so guilty if traffic jams, children staying late with hungry stomach and day care center have to over-time taking care the children.

Clean the dining table and sweep mop the floor coz of children messy behaviour. Asking children for homework checking and those spelling/ejaan/ting xie practise. Rushing them to sleep before too late. Bear with their temper coz you stop their tv program or masak masak games. To let them sleep fast, story telling and lullaby singing.

Wash the dishes in the kitchen at the same time the washing machine is operating to make sure school uniforms, sport wear, panties and socks are available. If the living hall is too messy and dirty, sweep and mop the floor before I hang the cloths in my room for speedy drying. Then fold some cloths in my room, take shower, do some children instructed task eg looking for a missing activity book, art class boxes, jacket for tomorrow presentation.. Then, laying on the bed, sending a good night message to husband to let him know I care about him..

All these night activities happen from 8pm to midnight. Then starts again for the rest of the weekdays..

Feeling guilty when too tired to hang up the washed cloths Taking flu pill after umbrella children to the school Applying heat balm for aching neck and shoulder Eating breakfast in rushing time while waiting for train Finish dinner and doing housework in work attire Handling children arguing and fighting in tired mood Laying on the bed with lonely feeling Wishing for warm hugging from lover with empty heart Worrying husband working out of the town, safe? taken meal? Sexy girl temptation? Under pressure of husband comment on messy house, bad children behaviour, poor academic result, ugly wife look, not understanding on husband tiredness and lots of entertainment..


Tomorrow is 10th anniversary of my marriage :) guess, this is the only thing I hope to get from my beloved laogong. I hope for his understanding and empathy on what I have been experiencing when he is away from the home. And not coming back home and telling me 'my hotel room is much tidy and clean than our house' or 'I see you sleep everyday and not doing a single housework'.




Housework is never ending. Housework is not equal to love we contribute to the family and to our spouse. When we complaining about our tiredness and pressure from the family and work, doesn't mean we deny our partner's work stress and family commitment too. What I hoping for in my marriage is the true understanding of my feeling from my laogong. Yes, this is my wish for 2013 anniversary.



Wednesday, October 16, 2013

1610 @@@

@_@ sleepy..



Enjoyed my 1day raya haji holiday with my family :D so happy and relaxing, how nice if we can have more holidays in weekdays :p laogong was not at home, life went well too :p



Kitchen piping burst. So a good wife washing dishes at the backyard under the rain! At the same time, helping Eva to clean the messy backyard. By the way, Eva is my house compound PIC ^^


So after some hardwork, the reward time came!



See us, eat only!


Happy faces and very full stomach!



Night time I went to the church for drama practise. I am the digital background and sound effect PIC. Learnt new on stage skill when a drama teacher shared with us some good tips :)

Reached home nearly 11pm. Companied my mum eating supper. Sis and I chit chatting on virtual-Europe-trip :p

A good night sleep that ended with..



Working on my this morning meeting material at home and in the train! With sleepy eyes @_@

Well, I just obeyed to my company new CEO holiday advise 'stay away from PC and do thing I like' :D

Happy Wednesday!

Wednesday, October 09, 2013

0910 neo

a beautiful Wednesday morning starts with laogong companion, children existent, true heart seen, lesson learnt and wisdom grown ^^



After the blessing rain, the sunshine warm the shrunken heart ^^ I believe in rainbow after the rain, I believe in angels, there is always something good in everything I see :)

What I am up to lately?

Motivating myself to move forward fast! Learn the skillet that I need so I can excel in my work place. The new job scope has brought me down, started from zero. When I am about to move backward, I remind myself 'in real soon, am gonna handle all these difficulties confidently' :) keeping faith and fire up!

Hooking up to new change. In family, in parenting, husband wife relationship, work place, people relationship. Recently, I got 2 feedback on my relationship - you are too sensitive. You are too focus on your family. Guess, this is good, coz any other things we can buy with money, except for caring heart, beautiful family, good health and soul.

I feel to stay in foreign country for short term of one or two years. 1 family goes together. This feeling is so strong, just feel to leave everything behind, go to a stranger place, 5 of us staying together, be dependent to each other, explore new environment, overcome all the obstacles. Wishing by doing this, out hearts get connected more closer, we treasure each other value, no more neglecting family members need and care. I really hope to fly away now.




Told sis yesterday, now I want to focus on my family, work and volunteering job. Other than that, I want to pause a while, limited time and effort I can put in for all I want, or all people wants. is time for me to slow down in this year end before I sit down to set my 2014 resolution :)

Happy Wednesday! Today I am ready to meet up my bosses on my 1st project progress update ^^ gambatte!




Monday, October 07, 2013

Anniversaries

Today, when I read this from my cousin brother's fb, can really feel he is in ocean deep love with her cute gf. Young couple, 'you love me, I love you' and those kissing and hugging photos publish publicly :)

Think of what we were doing last time, when we were totally in love with our love one, the whole world was only him! Every night sleep in sweetness, chat in honey sweet tone..
When we grow matured, when our days and nights are not only you and me, then stories changed...

Scolding and yelling getting more common. Running around the house in rushing hours..

Either we try to avoid getting sick, or even we are sick, we try to go to work so we don't need to stay at home to be more sick..

All the ups and downs.. Made memory.. All the tears and scars, made wisdom. All the complaints and sour faces, made understanding.

Sometime we would wonder, why I chose to marry him or her, why things and feeling have changed, why sweetness turned to bitter..

Day by day, we realise, there is a reason God has put us together. Different addresses, different backgrounds, likes and dislikes.. You got what I don't have, I can help you out what is lacking in you..
Then we started to recall, what made us choosing each other as a life time partner. Then we accommodate what please our partner :)

We build family

We let the family grow with love

We maintain the growing family with laughters..

We celebrate wedding anniversaries year by year in growing numbers :)
2013 - 10 years anniversary of my marriage and 40 years for my beloved parents :)