a day to remember

11072011 big decision I made for my gal


Sunday nite we overnight at bkt31


Monday morning I bring her to see eyes specialist. in the car, she discovers the front speaker made sounds


in the hospital. when focus far she has double vision, so she stands near to the tv n watches mr bean show


I gone for breast ultrasound at the same time. feeling not ok with my left breast. result is the bijih in my breast harmless.


confirm the schedule for her both eyes surgery 12072011


reached home at 4pm we slept till 8pm


hairwash for her as requested by doctor. few days after the surgery cannot wash hair.


simple action, but both of us know, we do it for a purpose. my heart is heavy.


conditioned the hair. after this, she goes dinner with papa - 7 sticks of satay n ketupat.


asking for durian too. have to fast from 12am. durian is the last meal or the day.


prepared her for the operation. the class teacher called too.


she is a very strong gal. she is ready. once she knows the surgery day is confirmed, she non stop comforting herself and praying quietly. having confidence with her :)

as what the teacher said, for this young age to go thru this, she gonna have different mental development in the future. ya, I hope she is strong n tuff in the future. and I hope, my decision for her is right. pray for the best ^^

f.r.I.d.a.y

e-ha! Dorae-baba is here! hehe doraemon + alibaba :p


konichiwa! o-genki desu ka?
genki desu! anatawa ekaga desuka?

:D this is what I teach my bbb in this raining morning. 'hello! how are you?' 'good! how about u?' in Japanese language. if I am not mistaken la har :p

sometime I would think that what I learnt in the past is very useful when I become a mummy. songs that I know, stories that I listened, news and silly jokes... all can be shared with bbb especially when I want them to sit still and behaved :p last night I shared with them why we eat rice dumplings in duanwu festival and day before, I told them the 3 dogs in my life ^^



















this morning I read for them the news about the mad man went in the kinder with parang. hmmm the world is full of crazy news. look at the crying parents, can't imagine how they feel in the 6 hours - children get hurt? hungry? scared? hmmm sad.

today am in blue shirt n jeans. thinking of my left breast not feeling comfortable made me headache. one comes with another. well, life challenges, take them and overcome them, then feel the blessing and grace of God's love :)

morning half day having department communication session, afternoon half day will sit in auditorium to get inspired by Malaysian great woman.

no roadblocks today, what a surprise. see ya!



office laptop current autoset wallpaper :)

quiet moment

hmmm now is lunch time, the office is so quiet. can hear the aircond sound clearly.


this is my all time favourite. now eating this n typing blog with my iPhone. for long time I don't update my blog using computer :) just uploaded few pic on my mama's bday, and u can see my new sister in law - a quiet, shy and lovely gal ^^ and my size can make 2.5 of her :p



my Digo's marriage registration day is on my mama 56th bday. so I asked my mama 'any other wishes for you seem like you have all wishes completed' my mama said 'health. I want all of us are in good health' :)

ya, from the pic you can see me have cut my hair short. now is at shoulder length. so now I can wash my hair as I suka, don't need to worry if I have enough time to dry my hair. but still, I need to adjust myself for using lesser shampoo and hair treatment oil. last time everything was double up for my hair :p



hehe see the hair length enough, don't see my chubby round face :p pic taken after the hair cut.

well, need to get back to work. may have changes on ppl and work rearrangement in the office, hopefully it gonna be a good one. have confirmed the appointment with eva's doctor, so hopefully no roadblocks for my journey to the hospital this Saturday, dislike the traffic jams.




a book I shared last nite with bbb. it tells in adult life, we have so many happy and sad moment, funny and quiet moment, playful and serious feeling.. and we need to go thru it and take it as part of our 'life jobs' - this is the hidden message I got it after reading the books ^^

hu!hu! thursday!

e-ha! this is the 1st day I work for this week, and today is Thursday dah~


today soup - carrot + cucumber + flaxseed + black sesame - smooth n refreshing :D hope papa likes it la. the siew pao and egg tart is backup food for today. heavy jams coz of police roadblock :(

yesterday n day before I gone for training.


ya, 6 thinking hats. It is a thinking tool that helps you think in more organised way. plan to teach my children on this, the more thinking tools we learned, the more we can use out brain system and thinking in better way.

Monday I was on leave, took Eva to go kl for lazy eyes checking. a new place to explore, so 2 of us walking quite a lot, even needs to use gps to be guided to our destination :p



total 3 trains x2 we were taking. n few times the gal fall down :( she fells quite a lot recently especially when she is tired. can't figure out the actual distance with the tired eyes.



checking eyes reading ability. 6/9.


if you can see, she is wearing the red and green spec n sitting in dark room. to check how serious is the double vision. the left and right image. from this, the doctor can estimate how close the eyes muscles need to be pulled to adjust the eye balls.


this is to see the focus point of her eyes. the current position and the suppose to be position. they were many more professional tests done to know the actual condition of her eyes. didn't snap pic, coz doctor wanted show me how serious it is.



done with the clinic, I dropped by my office to have lunch with colleague As. this is the pic taken at office ground floor.



go back home. she was excited. but I was a bit down. thinking of the next appointment to set her surgery schedule hmmm..



bought a wafer to sweeten her mood ^^

hu!hu! thursday!

e-ha! this is the 1st day I work for this week, and today is Thursday dah~


today soup - carrot + cucumber + flaxseed + black sesame - smooth n refreshing :D hope papa likes it la. the siew pao and egg tart is backup food for today. heavy jams coz of police roadblock :(

yesterday n day before I gone for training.


ya, 6 thinking hats. It is a thinking tool that helps you think in more organised way. plan to teach my children on this, the more thinking tools we learned, the more we can use out brain system and thinking in better way.

Monday I was on leave, took Eva to go kl for lazy eyes checking. a new place to explore, so 2 of us walking quite a lot, even needs to use gps to be guided to our destination :p



total 3 trains x2 we were taking. n few times the gal fall down :( she fells quite a lot recently especially when she is tired. can't figure out the actual distance with the tired eyes.



checking eyes reading ability. 6/9.


if you can see, she is wearing the red and green spec n sitting in dark room. to check how serious is the double vision. the left and right image. from this, the doctor can estimate how close the eyes muscles need to be pulled to adjust the eye balls.


this is to see the focus point of her eyes. the current position and the suppose to be position. they were many more professional tests done to know the actual condition of her eyes. didn't snap pic, coz doctor wanted show me how serious it is.



done with the clinic, I dropped by my office to have lunch with colleague As. this is the pic taken at office ground floor.



go back home. she was excited. but I was a bit down. thinking of the next appointment to set her surgery schedule hmmm..



bought a wafer to sweeten her mood ^^

again, Friday!

wearing red t-shirt n jeans today. been falling sick n busy with month end closing. 1st day of the month, gonna do few reports on kpi achievement before I can enjoy my weekend. many todo list on hand, still scheduling. havent visited Mei Mei's little baby gal, guess that she going to finish her 2 months maternity leave. what a not-very-good good friend :(





this is today breakfast hot soup for my papa - pumpkin + onion + 10grains + flaxseed. my papa confirmed having diabetes. he is so down about this. he been controlling his diet from the day doctor suspected him got diabetes. last night he shared with me the menu that doctor given to him. hmmm there is tight limit to all he can eat. will try to browse on net, more interesting recipe and menu for him.





Eva is in the pic. 1 of the main reasons I love this kinder is, children have chance to go outdoor and enjoy their fun learning time under the hot sun :)






yesterday Eva have her music class concert at klang. I can only watch it from the camera movie clip :( on the way back home, I feel demotivated. why I can't join my children learning and proud moment and everything need to go thru after event photos n video :S

anyway, today I will call up the eyes specialist clinic to make appointment to see eva's eyes in next week. is time to help the poor little one. this morning she was still sleeping when i left the house.I dont want to wake her up and hope she has enough sleep, so she can have clearer eyesight in the class. must be very tired preparing for the concert.

again, I think to cut my hair short. don't want to be busy with my hair. want to maximise my freetime for more beneficial tasks ^^






happy Friday!

Tuesday sick

like today soup sunny yellow colour :) combination of tomato, carrot, cashew nuts, flaxseed, mixed dry herbs. the taste? don't know yet, am so busy with my runny nose @.@

on the way to the train station, can't stand on the flu. stop at the roadside clinic, see doctor for flu, sore throat medicine. n guess what? the clinic charged me rm84. this is relatively high compare to normally rm20-35 charges of these kinds of symptoms. so, to me, no trustworthy punya klinik. the cost charged to my insurance card, but still, pls be honest in doing business.

so hardworking me, sick still go work? hmm month end closing, better settle it ad this is my responsibility. next week, I will take leave to bring Eva to see eyes specialist. yup, laogong n I decided to cancel our end July travel trip, to free my leave and our travel cost. promised to bbb, I will take a day off to bring them to theme park, maybe, before Eva eyes surgery (if it is really necessary for the ops).



this is the normal eye ball position when the eyes focus on the camera hole.


so this is Eva focusing the camera when her eyes are normal - focus correctly, eye balls at the center position, and single image of object she sees.



this is when her eyes are tired. squint eyes u can see. in fact, she is focusing to my camera, but you can see the eyes are not lively. and the hidden secret - she sees things in double images. the double vision always make her to close 1 eye, so she sees only 1 image and not to confuse herself - which is real, which is shadow.

ok, this time closing I am feeling pressure, coz I want to do it fast, right at the 1st time. and am non stop thinking of Eva :( when she showing me the peace-victory sign with her 2 fingers, I feel heartache. coz she does this when she sees 2 me :~