hyatt kuantan 6-8 dec

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honey ginger chicken

miss the taste. roasted this last sunday. hope i can try all the recipe that i learned from the cooking class soon. then combine all them n make 1 party for family members :) thanks for my sis shopping for the food, preparing the material, cooking together. it is fun to have a partner to try out new recipe n in the kitchen. the money that we invested for the kitchen is worthwhile hehehe..

hubby is back

yes, i choose to blog about this after 3 weeks of your back. maybe it was few months separation that cause me need to adapt myself to the daily life which is together with u. last nite, when we together walked at putrajaya sentral station's car park, i found myself have OK with your back now. i feel relaxed n peaceful. so now i dont have the feeling that u r stranger to me (it might be weird to some ppl); now i feel easy to sit together with u in the train, side by side; now i can fully concentrate on my reading when i am in the car or train, coz i know u r beside me to be my cctv :) i really appreciate this 'u dont need to tell me your feeling n stories thru your blogs, u can tell me in person, i am beside u, i am with u everyday, we dont need blog to communicate, ok?'

laogong, thanks for being patient with me in these few weeks. n thanks for sharing your stories n secrets. thanks for your encouragement. thanks for loving me ^_^

God's reward

my twin angels - angelina n evangeline, they are premature babies, they are healthy, they are adorable, they are lovely! admit that i dont spend much time with them (compare to royee) since they were born. i cant bring them out frequent as what i do to royee, coz it's not easy for me to manage 2 of them by my own if i bring them out. n i need to bring royee together, so whoever at home taking care angels would be much easier (royee is always the naughty one!)thus, i always look for chance to bring 1 at a go if the other angel n royee are sleeping. the quality time for me n angels are usually in the morning, when they wake up, i cuddle them in both my arms, sing for them :) i love to see their smiles... a bit shy.. :p

royee mentioned to me this last night 'mummy has 3 babies (counted his 3 little fingers), baby, angel and eva.. mummy loves 3 babies, all also love one, not only loving 1 baby, must love all one..' ^_^ ya i told him, u all are mummy's babies, of course mummy loves u three. shonejay, angel, eva all are mummy's babies, mummy loves u all, n u all must love each other ma.. royee said 'yes, only 3 babies, must love one' :)

i love shonejay angels :*

phone call

当时我有个想法，第一，如果没有电话，该怎么办？第二，为什么当发生事情时，身边亲密的人却联络不上？万一这次我是奄奄一息，想要交代或听他们的声音，那岂不是很遗憾？嗯。。平时看到亲人联络自己，以为没什么好着急，稍微没空就不回复，如果当时亲人正受重伤，就期待跟你最后的道别，错过了就一辈子就没机会啦！！！过后才一直责备自己，这就后悔莫及咯。。 - pooh-

sometime we tend to not answer ppl call, n especially when we r busy, n our loved one calling, we would take advantage to igore the call, n say 'ok, call him/her back later' or pick up the call, before the other side start talking, 'let me call u back' then we hang the phone. hmm we cant control the situation of the recipient, n sometime we might stay in the situation where we might have no chance to call up our love one n tell the last word to them or asking for help. i always sms hubby 'i love u' when he is taking flight, or when i am taking flight. if i travel farer, i sms to my papa mama n siblings to tell them i love them. if somemore farer, n a very new place for me, i tell all i want to say to my sis, even passwords, pin number, what to do if anything happen.. hmmm.. n in my phone, i have the template message 'i love u all n my shonejay angels' n i always set my family phone number as a group. when hubby drive the car super fast, i wont scold him, i would hold my phone very tight n start looking for the sms template.. or if the public train that i take, suddenly has weird sound, then i would make sure my phone in function.

remember 1 of my college lecturers asked this question 'how many of u ever think of death? everyday?' hmm i think we seldom think about death but we are more tend to think of problems that we are facing or might be facing. the lecturer said, 'u would tend to appreciate your life more if u think of death (positively)' to me, this makes sense to me at some points. that day i went for the PEP class, the lecturer said, what would u do, if your love one have only 7 days left to stay with u? u will give your love one everything the best, u give all your time n love in these 7 days. well, we dont know when is the final 7 days for our love one n family to stay with us, so treat everyday is the 7 day, treat your family n love one with your true heart n celebrate each of the moments together, spend quality time with them.

ya. 7-days. we dont know what's gonna happen at tomorrow. so dont think too much on what u r lacking, just need to celebrate with what we are having n treat everyone with our sincere heart. n try to answer calls with calm n smile ^_^ welcome the disturbance, sometime u would get to see this beautiful world at different angles :)

xmas deco

designed this for the office xmas deco. cant find plotter to print the bigger version of this slide to the backdrop size i wanted. so sticked it on my desktop whitebooard. bring the xmas feel. in fact, i have changed my phone caller ringtones to xmas selection since 1st dec. ho! ho! ho!

bbb at kuantan

rainbow

saw the rainbow yesterday when we reaching putrajaya sentral station. looks nice. there are time the big hot sun shining, or raining cats n dogs, n there is always time rainbow come out n bring happy n lucky feeling to us. in our daily life, there are hurting, guilt, curious, confused feeling.. but then, happiness is always popping up in between them ^_^

i love the feeling bbb last nite q-ing up 1 by 1, opened their arms n gave me big hugs. the feeling were so great! am very happy to have so important position in their hearts. u joined them. u gave me BIG hug too! hmmm sometime adult love someone with mouth only, i love u i love u but no action. we need to learn from children, they love ppl with love n action :)

ya.. more rainbows for me in year 2009!

unconditional love?

无法浅释你对我的爱，在我们之间不再是你和我，我爱你；曾经因为你的热情而快速让你带领我来到这没逻辑的爱情世界；如今也因你的举动来挑战我对你的爱之深度。。没有风雨，哪会珍惜避风港；没有了你，我从不知我的理智，可以让你的一个眼神而熔化。。不愿祈求天长地久，只望你还在我身边的每一个当下，你是真情的。

writen this 2 years ago. n it has been bringing the same feeling as of today. for a married couple, i hope to hear the truth from u. i dont want to spend time to guess what's the hidden meaning of your words. we non stop guessing outsiders intention n good to us, when facing our love one, i wish to be relaxed.. no lie, no hidden meaning, only truth n care.

this morning i got this thought, for husband n wife, they are staying together even there is some flaw in their love relationship, bcoz of the unconditional love to the spouse or unconditional love to our children? bcoz we love our children, so we can tolerate our spouse, at the other meaning, we are trying best to let our children to have complete family with papa n mama. hmmm..

which type of wife r u?

你算是模范女子的佼佼者，不止入得厨房出得厅堂，还有自己的事业，深得男人心之余，女人也会以你为榜样。你坚持要有自己的事业，不用老公养，且具备中国传统女性的美德，无论工作有多忙，你都一定会抽空打理家务，照顾家人，相对来说家庭是你的首选。

hmmm.. for me, a good wife is also needs support from husband so she can remain to be a good wife or be a better wife. if husband just dont appreciate what the wife has done for him n the family, then the wife might be tired n lazy to maintain this role.

new time table

u r here with me. staying together everyday. now both of us need to adapt to the new daily time table. 6am wake up n prepare ourselves to work. try to catch up time to play with bbb while changing cloths n putting up basic skin care. leave house at 7am+ catch the 8.05am train at putrajaya. peak hour, no seat for us, standing n chatting. reach kl sentral at 8:25am, u take LRT train to klcc n i go to 7-11 to buy bread for breakfast n dinner. i reach the office before 9am. u always have evening meeting, we try to catch 8pm train, so we can have a little more time to spend with bbb. but then, normally we can only manage to catch 8:30pm or 9pm train. sharing bread in the train. then reach house normally 10pm+ take bath then prepare to sleep. reading newspaper or online internet before sleeping for u.

hmmm this is our new time table. normally bbb sleep when we reach home. hmmm.. for me, more than 12 hours i need to stay in the office. now is year end, a bit busy in the office, so am still ok with this. i work OT while waiting for u. for next month, i think i will sign up the gym class nearby, so i can workout while waiting for u. sad thing is, i have only weekend can play with bbb. that's why, i cancel a lot of weekend programs n dinner invitation. bcoz i have only 2 days to stay with bbb.

hope u r happy with the days over here. i am happy to stay with u. as i told my colleague, my year 2009 wish is, i can have u to stay with me n bbb everyday. ya everyday. with your heart n love stay with us as well :)

looking forward for the kuantan trip this weekend, i really need to go out to relax myself. n hope bbb will enjoy the trip as well.

royee's hatyai trip

at klia

i love his smile :)

hohoho my cute boy~

little army

Danger Mouse

who is danger mouse? - He's The Best He's The Greatest He's The Greatest Secret Agent In The World! He's The Ace - He's Amazing... He's the Strongest... He's The Quickest.... He's The Best!

You are tender, you fall in love quickly but you are also very serious about all relationships. You are a family person. You call your mom every Sunday. You have many friends and may occasionally forget a few Birthdays. Don't let your passion confuse you with reality.

Wah wah.... So true.... ~ kak norida

hmmm.. 'dont let your passion confuse u with reality' well.. will look into this.. ^_^

Life is full of challenges

Am waiting papa mama n royee outside lcct airport. Many thoughts r in my mind. 'a thought can kill a person' hmm i have so many decision made now, my thoughts wont kill me, hoping them make me have spirit to move forward for better future :)

Decided to send bbb to sunday school at klang chinese methodist church. Checking the time table. Am going for sunday player at kcmc too. Let me adjust the time table for every sunday.

Well dad just called up, need to pick them out now. Miss royee so much. Miss his sunny smile :)

Hmm

On the bed. So many queries hoping to be answered. I wish i could see n read ppl mind. To escape. Am wanting that. To release myself. Yes, i am very tired. My mind is busy, non stop thinking of so many things. I feel to cry. I feel to shout out loud! Wondering why so many different feeling come up at once. Exhausting.

playlist

《小小的梦想 》

蓝天是白云最美的故乡 大地是小草成长的地方

海洋是河流安歇的暖房 梦想是未来幸福天堂

小小的梦想能成就大事 只要仰望天父的力量

小小的梦想能改变世界 带来明天的盼望

《我要向高山举目》

我要向高山举目我的帮助从何来 我的帮助从造天地的耶和华而来

我要向高山举目，我的帮助从何来 我的帮助从造天地的耶和华而来

哈利路亚，哈利路亚，哈利路亚，哈利路

哈利路亚，哈利路亚，哈利路亚，哈利路

only these 2 christian songs in my phone playlist. listening to them when i am on the journey to the office, or drive back home. i play these 2 songs to bbb when i prepare myself to the office, and when i buai them to sleep.

many things we can do to get happiness in our lives. so am looking around to explore more n not sitting there n non stop thinking of some facts that cant be changed.

child sexual abuse

learn about child sexual abuse, prevent it. think of all the possibilities and avoid putting your children in danger. the harm which got from the abuse, somewhere somehow affect the children growing, thinking, behaviour even at their older age. lets us protect our children n try our best to let them have happy days ^_^

1 of the afternoons

keke :p

maplestory

am downloading patcher for mapleworld :p ya 1:32am bbb r sleeping, n i am downloading games >.<

maplestory is not compatible with windows vista. just now i learned something new, i searched online n made the program compatible to vista by switching it to xp mode. something like that la. we learn a lot if we explore more :) u 1+ weeks staying at china chong qing, u must see lots thing lo.. share with me later ^_^

busy

i am busy. my schedule is busy, my mind is busy. hmmm wondering why, is it because of year end? everything to be done before new year coming? all goals must be met n achieved with flying colors? hmm night before i received message from my eldest bro, gogo asked 'r u busy recently?' what a shock question to me. ya, why i seem to have no enough time for what i want to do, i can even reply ppl sms in the same day. no time for blog too. 2 weeks ago weekend pictures, has no time to upload n share with u. n no email to u too except catching up time to chat with u online during your free time at china.

hmm 3rd week of november. on 11/11/2008, my colleague asked, what u have achieved so far in this year? i said ya, i have all my children staying together with me, i have bought n move to the new house. i have done more good n charity work from home n to ppl around me. what i have not achieved? education plan for my 3 children (no time to sit down n think about it, n need to recheck our financial status), take family studio photo (u r not around, hard to fix the time). anyway, i am happy with my year 2008. 1 mth+ to go, hope everything goes well ^_^

royee graduate lo

royee n his vege in the kinder

got the photo from the kinder. wondering why he posing like this. hmmm. just enrolled royee for the school holidays class at the kinder near by. for the month of december. 9am-12pm class every weekday.

celebration of achievement

Just now when i was in the lift, one male colleague said 'going back?' i said 'ya. Today i go back early. My son is 3 years old n he has his graduation ceremony tonite' the colleague said 'they celebrate each of the achievement, every year they have different celebration. N i found that when the children growing up, then we have less celebration for them. In fact these children la need more celebration n recognition from their parents. But somehow, many ppl dont support children at this way' then another guy who is in the same lift was agreed wit this.

Ya, we celebrate a lot of meaningful moments from baby delivery. 1st week 1st month then 1st bday. They parents give support to children in the kinder even ther children perform a normal role. Then we found happy n proud of them. As what the colleague said, many celebrations we have in primary school when come to secondary, much much lesser most parents give that much of attention to the children. Hmm i told them, come to secondary school, parents might ask children why only 8 As instead of 10?

I dont know what type of parents i am going to be in this topic. What i am hoping now is to celebrate all the achievements n happy moments with bbb. Celebration doesnt mean i use gifts or materialistic items as an exchange for their good works. I hope we can together share the special moment with them by giving recognition n support. Like my sis n i always go out dining together when we have salary increment n promotion. We would be very happy to each other no matter how big or small the increment is. Hmm sharing is very important. Or else, u would sitting alone looking at what u have done, quite lonely n the excitement level cant be double up without ppl 'well done!' or 'u did it!' right?

Ok am taking train. Rushing for royee's graduation ceremony. Last nite i saw all his artwork n work books for this year class, he learned a lot! Parents, dont think your children at 3 years old only go to school play play sing sing n learn nothing then wasting time. Let them go to a caring n secure funland then u would get impressed with what the small little one can absorb in this age :)

Btw, royee will perform duckling dancing show again tonight. Hope i can get nice shot tonite n share the pictures with u n friends. Take care.

Ps: dont be naughty in the flight ya :p

cuti

so u r leaving to china at tomorrow morning. take good care of yourself ^_^

xmas cuti, where shall we go? 1 day sunway lagoon, 1 day megakidz, 1 day paya indah wetland. then another 2 days relax at home. 1 day for BBQ party. hope children will enjoy the xmas cuti. may prepare xmas gift for them, as what i did for last year xmas. see la, wait till u come back home then only we decide where to go.

btw, i have said no to my dad's sponsorship to aus gold coast, brisbane. wait la till i have enough money n i want to bring bbb to go this place together. so start saving more money la.

i love u :*

111108

this am i typed a long post when i was on the journey to the office. the handphone got restarted itself with message 'this phone has been restarted for bnetter performance'. ya better performance with my post lost. hmmm..

still having fever. been having fever n flu since last friday. taken 1 pill for flu last nite at 3:45am, till now i am still feeling sleepy n tired. many urgent works need to be cleared, so dont want to take sick leave. in fact, reducing my sick leave is 1 of my goal till this year end. kakak asked me why i always get sick when i stay in bkt31. hmmm i have no idea too. feng shui not ok? dont have enough warm to sleep alone in the big room? too tired with housework n taking care bbb for the full 2 days n nite? am just not fit to use 2hp aircond? ai.. whatever it is, now am doing changes n trying my best to have healthier sweetie :p

this morning, i took oat. then reading newspaper. my mum prepared royee for the kinder class. royee asked me 'why u wear this color de?' then my mum asked royee 'mama mei ma?' (is mama pretty?) then royee answered 'mei' then my mum asked him 'mama pretty or wai po pretty? (mama or grandma is prettier?) then royee said 'mama' then he continued 'wai po ye shi piao liang~' (grandma is pretty too) then my mum asked again, 'is angel prettier or eva prettier?' (honestly, i dont like this question) then royee answered 'angel' my mum asked why eva is not pretty? royee answered 'bcoz eva's hair is luan luan de' (is messy).. anyway, royee kissed both angel n eva when he left the house.

found out royee always plays with angel n ignore eva. pity eva is always playing alone. or standing aside n look at both bro n sis playing together happily. i dont like this. i always ask royee to play with both angels. hmm now this is a challenge to me. i need to change royee's mindset on this. wondering why royee prefer to play with angel than eva. need time on this. will search the related parenting tips on this. hmmm siblings rivals. hmm..

this morning i got message from mei. she said angel looks prettier than eva from the pictures. hmm i always get this statement from many ppl. i always answer, angel is prettier, eva is sweetier. to me, angel is a rose. beautiful flower with thorns. she is cool n sometime very fierce face. not easy to handle her; for eva, she is a sunflower to me, she is always with her smile :D even a single tickle can make her smile happily. she is more obedient when u bring her out. she can go n sleep quietly when she is sleepy or tired. n less wawawa:~ from her (unless they fight for toys). i hope there is always healthy competition between 2 of them. n no competition for something that we cant do much. i really hope 3 of them can love each other much. i always tell royee this 'if u as a gogo u dont take good care of your sister, then who else will take care n love them?' 'when papa n mama old already, left only 3 of u to support each other, if u always bully angel n eva, when 1 day u need help, who gonna help u?' hmmm..

well.. lets stop here. want to get back to my work. just canceled 1 activity in my calendar. no idea when is the exact date u r coming back, so i try to freeze all my activities at end of november n be prepared for your back. besides, my parents n royee r going to hatyai, so i need to stay at home n jaga angels n kakak. cant wait to see u~

friendship

this morning, royee woke up early. i told him to prepare himself fast, so we can go sunny market to buy kuih for him. today no crying in the morning ^_^ we left house at 8am. went to the sunny market nearby, i bought him sweet potato doughnut, then bought myself fried meehun for today's lunch.

went to royee's kinder. as usual, before he opens the car door, i say 'bye bye baby, i love u~' then he says 'zao an' (good morning) to his teacher, then 'mummy zai jian' (good bye mummy). normally he walks alone to the class with his bag n water bottle. proud of him to be independent :)

today, something special happened. i see this, royee's friend, who left the car earlier than royee, who wear ladybug bag, showing his hand to royee, then royee holds the ladybug boy's hand. i feel touched to see this. then they waited there for a while for another gal classmate, then together 3 of them holding hands n walk towards the classroom.

i smiled. i feel touched n warm to see this. FRIENDSHIP, it starts naturally, it starts even we r small, it starts when we need comfort n companion. only time can tell true love is.

go morib beach with grandpa

royee

angel

eva. yes, her left eye needs treatment

happy angel~


lovely eva~

bbb

^_^

^o^

wow~

sweet angels~

hehe~

royee~

the duckling ^_^

proud of my royee n the children. this is the ending part of the performance. so embarassing, i couldnt locate royee until the ending part :S in fact, he was the 1st duckling came out to the stage hmmm.. malu hor.. anyway, they children r cute, they r well trained, n they practised so hard. i love the children n teachers! ^_^

if u cant donno where is royee, royee is the 1st duckling followed the mama, hug the mama so tight one :p

little duckling

make up

with the pinky cheek n lips balm

got this from royee's classmate' auntie

shonejay angels

in the morning. if i manage to wake up early n have extra time, then i sing for them or play with them in the room. if have not much time for preparation, i talk to them while i changing office wear, then lots more question they ask - what color shirt i wear, why today mummy ware thing?mummy, u forgot your panty liner >.<

wondering how when u r back. maybe they will bug at u only, so i have more time for my morning oats :) maybe we have less time to stay with them, coz we need to leave the house early so u manage to reach the office on time. then i would miss the time to send bbb to the kinder. hmmm in life, we have some then we lost some. anyway, i hope u can come back fast, at least, we have free time for quality time with bbb at nite n weekend ^_^