zhuzhu

laogong calls me zhuzhu, when having good mood la. when he calls me 'michelle' then i must be prepared for some serious issue :p wondering why, recently royee always address me as 'zhuzhu' in front of laogong. eg last nite when i reached home, when royee saw me 'papa, zhuzhu' then laogong didnt answer royee, then royee again 'papa, zhuzhu.. zhuzhu' felt funny when royee calls me zhuzhu.

last nite, royee non stop hugging me tight n kissing me.. i been having mouth ulcers, so memang cannot tahan his 'hot passion' coz his holding my cheeks hmmm sakit! then angels came n joined the love fun. 'wo de ma ma' then another one 'wo de mummy' then debating session started.. ^_^

i cried last nite. felt unhappy. felt to go n hug my mama n tell her 'i am not happy' but i didnt. dont want to make them worried. suddenly so many pressure came to me. a bit helpless n directionless. laogong asked me dont think too much. hmmm.. i hugged bbb n cried. i dont know this would affect their emotional development or not, but i felt secured when i have them with me. remember this, when royee sat on my lap, looking at me, he touched my tears n asked 'zhe ge shi shen me? yen lei ar?' (what is this? tear drop?) then a small huha, when laogong non stop asking 'why r u crying?' then angels joined the session..

zhuzhu is no more a cutie sweetie.. zhuzhu in now covered by dust :( hope this weekend short trip with sis, can make 2 of us happy n release some stress n confusion that we are having. sadness getting worse, when sis is having the same negative feeling too..