hmm having feedback session on everything about the company. too much thinking this morning. feeling tired now. mentally. just taken the free lunch. non stop thinking about royee's performance in the school. wondering what royee been doing until the teacher needs to change his swimming class. teacher said that, only royee's class teacher can manage royee in swimming class, so he needs to change his swimming schedule. wondering how royee behave in the class after angels staying together with us. ya, non stop we thinking about angels, somehow we have neglected royee's feeling. not only me as mother, but my parents as well. we are more focus on angels now, maybe they are small, we all afraid of royee hurting angels. however, would it be too agressive and pressure to teach royee to act like a big brother? he is still small. he is still a toddler, who needs attention and love from adults, who have the priviledge to show his emotion without thinking how ppl feel. who can be jealous and selfish on his belongings. we dont need to handle his own feeling as perfect as we are.
royee rebut his books with angels. accidently ter-hit the maid. my mum rotan royee. ya, he was not right to use the hard cover book to hit kakak, but then, we also needs to respect his feeling. he is the owner of the book. hmmm.. how to teach him to act good at this age? how to tell him that we want him to be nice to ppl, share his things with sisters? n at the other hand he wont feel that we only love his sisters. everything is to be given to his sisters only. would it be too fast for him to be perfect at this age. royee kena rotan a lot after angels staying with me. i know my parents' intention is to let royee cause less problem n dont fight with his sisters. but then, would it be a right way n right timing now?
much thinking about royee's feeling last nite. i love him very much. of course, i cant treat him as how i treated him last time, when he can have full attention of me. when i kiss him, i need to kiss angels as well.. to let 3 of them know, i love them much. i want to be equal. i dont want them to feel that i'm bias. i am trying hard on this. i think, royee has single child syndrom. so he is hard to share his stuff. or he feels jealous when looking at ppl playing happily. i think, we should push him too much. he needs time to learn to accept his sisters. he needs time to learn to be sharing n caring. remember, he is still a tod.
it is challenging to handle bbb feelings. am trying my level best to comfort their feeling. hope they have good mental development. i am happy with current situation. i'm not really agree with ppl who dont want to have another bb bcoz of want to give full attention to the eldest. unless u want only 1 bb in your life. or else, no matter when u give birth to the 2nd or more child. the problem still exist. fighting n craving for parents love n attention. good chance for us to learn now. maybe next year, when angels understand more, then royee also can think much matured. n less issue for us.
this morning, heard from radio station, by year 2030 malaysia may have 9-10% of old ppl aged >65. less young generation. so they encourage more newborn now. hmmm then ppl will have the concern of high living n education cost nowadays, ya, subsidiary from government. got 1 audience called up the radio station, 4 is the best number. when the children grow up, then might have problem and issue to share, but not to parents, but to siblings. so to have more siblings, they have more ppl to share the feeling. ya, 4 is my number too. but then, is our financial status allowed us? time limitation to grow the children with good manner, living skills and positive thinking? hmmm.. much things to consider. then i think of royee. if royee is one of the students who is a problem giver to the class, then we need more time n patience to bring him to the right track, at least to the extend, where more ppl can accept him. am afraid of later on in other kinder or schools, we cant have a good teachers to be nice to royee. ya.. i really need to sit down with his teacher to know how royee behave in the class. he is not the jahat one, but then, i know his thinking is different from ordinary children. maybe, he is a rightie, with different brain functions? maybe, we have spoiled him? hmmm.. to be, he is matured in thinking. but then explain to him, he think very fast. rotan doesnt work, to him, more psycho caunseling needed. but then, how many teachers in the school want to spend them n really go n understand the inner him? hmmm.. i thank the church teachers ^_^ appreciate them much!
ok, need to back to the feedback session class. more communication on what u want, what u need to bring better days for u. so not only in the company, to the ppl around our children, n to our children too! we need to practise this. 2-way communication. hmmm.. need to read more to improve my skill on bringing up children in the better way. i hope one day in the future, my children will thank me as a good mummy or something like 'my super mummy!' :p so many things to learn hor.. next weekend is my mummy's bday, thinking to do something special for her, not easy to be a good mother ler.. hmmm money constraint pula.. save more money for the new house.
