30th the Wednesday

Happily step in the pail..



Hmm.. The water level is a bit high..



Would it better if I get myself in the pail so the water will be flowing out more?



It doesn't seem its way.. The water is cold although my heart is warm..



No. I should ask for helping hands before I freeze myself..

Ya.. Am having the feeling of the above illustration. In one of my new scope assignment. Feeling excited when I got new discovery and when I get positive result after my trial! Still.. am a bit lost..



See the pic of today me - pimples on the face and water retention rounded face. Last night I slept before 12am, woke up once at 3.02am then 5am then 5.45am took bath and feeling nervous! Told my sis am wearing black today. Black Wednesday coz today I need to show my 1week study result to my boss? ><

Lately, when I frustrated with my job performance, I asked myself 'am I having high expectation towards myself? Need to know everything over the night?' Or 'this is the level of my real capability?' Maybe I am perfectionist - of course am not talking about my body figure :p so I feel down when I can't move freely like I used to be in my comfort zone.



Let's fighting! Having faith of - one day, today difficult situation will be a comfort zone to me! :D pushing the limits!

Let's see my children exam papers. Last night I signed their final exam papers, got to know, angel can answer all the questions in her exam! She didn't get 100% is because of some -0.5% for word writing or not clearly. Except for Malay paper she got 46 and 63 the rest are >95%! I admit I was lacking of confidence of angel performance in her exam @_@



[angel] I like one of the picture story telling 'after school, I see classmate felt down, I walk quickly to help the classmate stand up, teacher said I was a good child' 1st I found the story interesting, feel like the girl like to be recognized. 2nd, the story is long in an exam ;p



This paper she got 99%.



[angel] The teacher was so strict in marking the paper, 1% deducted even the wrong answer had been cancelled. Hmmm..



[royee] the boy non stop laughing when sharing this paper to me. See who helped Princess Eliza? A flying girl! Hehe the flying girl or fairy made me laughing too. This is the reason I only allowed bbb to buy comics in English language only. They are good in Chinese but Rojak in English then fail in Malay language @_@



Nowadays children are carrying loads of parents and teachers expectation. My standard 1 girl got bad headache after her 1st day exam. She told me 'I got exam stress' @_@



Papa got financial commitment pressure too. Earning money by losing good health :( my colleague said, 1 child = 1 bungalow. Hmm I wonder if I can maintain my 3 bungalows well in coming 15 years?


Last night I was busy looking for missing school text books for bbb, today they need to return all the books. Pasted here and there for broken pages. Even I needed to make book covers for missing covers! After some housework, total flat on the bed. Working
mummy is tired + work stress. Just hoping husband don't put high expectation for household cleanliness and give unnecessary stress to the supermom. Not easy to be one.



Can you spot me and my 2 girls in the pic? ^0^

Happy Wednesday to you.
I will have a good one after my 10am meeting.. Hopefully ^0^

29102013 rain

Last night we were sleeping early 1family. Still we were late to school this morning @_@ body recovering from last sunday outing and today we had nice weather to sleep :p

Called up sis this morning, to ask her in future, when see us in the living hall, greet us 'good morning' coz today I see my sis no face expression and left the house like no one was in the house. To reach our children to be polite with good manner, at least we need to make it a habit 1st. Automatically children will follow :)


Sis shared this cutie stuff with me in her traffic jam route to the office. My traffic jam route is most of the time, ambulance rushing to the destination. This morning, the car in front of me, didn't want to make way for the ambulance, I frustrated with the driver, so I horned the driver. Only, he/she moved a little bit @_@ sickening with this kind of not so alert person..

When I was thinking where to have my breakfast..


The car park is flooded! Oh.. How har? I round and round around the area. There were so many empty spaces for my car, but I didn't have car park tickets :(



Finally, I got the ticket from a restaurant. They have daily or hourly tickets. Together, the restaurant owner and I studied how to use the ticket :p



Rm3.90 for a day. Cheaper than my rm4 entrance fee. Can get nearer parking spot too! May consider to take this ticket daily :)



'Gores' for today date then we are done! Hmmm hopefully my car will be safe la..

Yesterday before leaving the office, I got supervisor concerned and lectured about my work performance. Hmmm keep it up, I can bear with my own slowness in learning new things. I truly understand bosses feeling. Just hoping they can stand with my knowledge limitation for now :<



I have started November calendar. November suppose to be a month I show my result of learning the new scope. A month I need to tell bosses, my level of understanding after few months of catching up. But yet.. And not confident for all these @_@ Ai.. Hope, I can see rainbow after the rain. Gambatte!!

Btw, do you see the pineapple tart shown in the picture? Rm70 for 20 pieces. Imported from Taiwan. Got this from a colleague. Yesterday when I was so sleepy at work, i tasted it. Not so sweet but lesser aroma than homemade pineapple tarts we normally eat. I like the packaging anyway :D



Ok pen off here. I want to look at the scenery and sunshine for a minute, before I take a short nap before reaching the office :p

Happy Tuesday!

Sei Fo

'You! Why you don't have money still go travelling so frequent?!'


'You 2! Why never learn from previous lessons?!'


'Ahhhh.. Help me! Help me! The boat is sinking! Aahhhh!'


'How to stable the boat?!'


'Ya! The batman hero is here to help! :D'

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Well enough being wuliao, serious talk is, I got pressure. Pressure from sis to ask me to save as much money as possible for upcoming travel trip.

Pressure1: where to get extra money in this not-bonus-season and increment time?

Pressure2: while asking me saving money, this evil sis asking me shopping for winter cloths too!

Pressure3: I company sis to realise her dream-come-true then why I need to stay under this and that stress huh? She suppose to thank me (spend me :p) to company her in this meaningful trip. Don't you think so? ^0^



'You think so easy to get a big cow for our non stop fresh milk supply ar?'



'Big cow can be ignorance or sleep de leh'



Well, no eyes to see what is upcoming, as u know my sis is very capable in sourcing money and info for all our DIY travel trip :D full confidence with her!



Escaping myself from this headache, jumping to my work commitment 1st. This morning sis reminded me 'you work harder, so you can get awards and better increment and bonus!'

Ok ok, will try my best la! So we can spend in our 'potential' Europe trip! :D



'Again?! Another travel trip?! Shoot you!' --- ahhhhh.. Talk for fun only ma :p



End for today silly blog posting. Thanks for reading. Happy Monday!
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ps1: sei fo = opps / die! / oh my!

ps2: I am so sick today.. Fever flu after yesterday hot sun + raining day in water world + -5 degree Celsius snow world + tired body :(

2510 Friday!

Today, in the company, many ppl are happy!


With this mail from our CEO, feeling like the company is moving to modern era :D

Talking about what to wear to the office, some ppl said 'only tight jeans and tight t-shirts allowed!' Haha not for me this sexy body shape :p my head of department said he gonna wear suit and tie :p when I shared this announcement to my children, then I made joke about this 'so, today is my wedding anniversary, I wear wedding gown to my office!' Or 'today is my children sports day, so I wear sport wear to work!' :p

In fact, my office is having nice and comfortable breakout area and academy training center. Besides, we are having breakout area like Starbucks or coffee bean hangout area. You have seen my office floor level breakout area - where I usually eat my lunch box place. Now let me show you another good place to hangout during lunch time..



Our academy floor. We have 2 floor levels for training purposes. Colourful resource center. This is the main entrance. Turn left for training rooms, turn right for meals and tea. Center is library with magazine and books.



So we have 2 TVs at the area for food. Most of the time, they play food channels, so you can watch nice foods while you are eating nice foods :p


Some people read newspaper or chit chatting here. Yesterday I packed my lunch and had my personal quiet moment here :)

Below are our computers screen savers. Our computers screen saver and wallpaper are set and changed according to new products launch or festive season :)


I like this music series :)





Got the feel of relaxing~



Snapped this pic at my office lobby. Normally the festive deco in the office lobby is the same with our customer center deco :) sometime, the children photos in the deco are children of employees! So far, non from me yet hehhehe :p



So today is Friday! Since I love my company - so far :p I will hard hard today, at least for my 1st solo audit session with end user :D gambatte!



Big gulung roti tissue for you~


Have a colourful and sweet weekend!

The 10!

2102013 a special date to my marriage with laogong :)






From 2003 to 2013, lots of surprises, stories and feeling happening in our marriage and daily life. Changes of houses, careers, number of children.. to the level of our dependency, tolerance, patience, understanding and words to each other :)



The way we communicate, show our feeling and care, expressing our love and understanding has changed. The need of companion to every second in daily life turns to more hearts connected moment and warm hugs required. Things changed, people changed, ages and wisdoms grown.



Even with the existence of of our bundles of joy along the journey..



The initial love crash feeling has been in deep down of our hearts. The reason for us to commit to each other, the 1st warmth hug, the 1st sweet touch, the 1st loving staring.. All these touching moments have led us to..



The precious 10 years togetherness and happiness :)

Happy anniversary to laogong and I. I love you..still :) continue to be the head of our lovely family and be the giant support to our love and care need ^^



Thank you for your love and care ^^ hopefully, you can come back early on our next 10th year anniversary :p

Pain-ache

Been having back knee pain for months, whenever I stand up after I bend my knee, I feel the mild pain and not comfortable. Lately, even when I lay on the bed, my left shin feel the after-cramp pain. Finally, last week I went to clinic for consultation. Doctor given me 2 medicine. If this medic doesn't help, then I will be referred to specialist for leg screening.


Last night I felt the pain again after I sitting and folding cloths. After taking shower, I told angel 'if mummy needs to go for leg surgery, then mummy can't take care you all for a period of time' laogong immediately answered 'it's ok, never mind, since mummy is always sleeping at home by the way'



I know I shouldn't be bothered for what laogong saying without considering my feeling. But yet, this phrase of words have hurt me..deeply. Many thoughts came into my mind. Many negative comments floating in my mind too. I stayed silent in the night..and the tears, dropping in this raining morning..



Shall I asking for a role change? For a week change where I stay in my mother's house or I go travelling, then laogong stays home and do whatever I need to do with children?

Eg..

Force to wake up in the morning, taking short shower and dress up fast. Wake children up, not only once, but few times and accepting their morning temper with smile so they don't delay anymore. Put a set of ironed school uniform + socks + panty + handkerchief + pocket money + belt.. So they don't sit there and crying for all these things.

When leaving home to the school, make sure all water bottles are filled and put in their bags. Look for rubber band to tight angel's long hair. Need to patiently ask angel stay still so you can right the hair tidy and fast. Get ready for last minute - die-die-must-do stuff eg missing books, art class stuff, school fees.. Have to control your bowel even you feel wanted to go to the toilet, or else children will be late to the school.

Evening in the office, you may say this to the boss 'sorry, can we continue this tomorrow? I need to rush for the train' or reject colleague dinner invitation although how you wish to have some personal time with your colleague. In the train, calling sis to confirm who pick up children or what to pack for dinner. Feel so guilty if traffic jams, children staying late with hungry stomach and day care center have to over-time taking care the children.

Clean the dining table and sweep mop the floor coz of children messy behaviour. Asking children for homework checking and those spelling/ejaan/ting xie practise. Rushing them to sleep before too late. Bear with their temper coz you stop their tv program or masak masak games. To let them sleep fast, story telling and lullaby singing.

Wash the dishes in the kitchen at the same time the washing machine is operating to make sure school uniforms, sport wear, panties and socks are available. If the living hall is too messy and dirty, sweep and mop the floor before I hang the cloths in my room for speedy drying. Then fold some cloths in my room, take shower, do some children instructed task eg looking for a missing activity book, art class boxes, jacket for tomorrow presentation.. Then, laying on the bed, sending a good night message to husband to let him know I care about him..

All these night activities happen from 8pm to midnight. Then starts again for the rest of the weekdays..

Feeling guilty when too tired to hang up the washed cloths Taking flu pill after umbrella children to the school Applying heat balm for aching neck and shoulder Eating breakfast in rushing time while waiting for train Finish dinner and doing housework in work attire Handling children arguing and fighting in tired mood Laying on the bed with lonely feeling Wishing for warm hugging from lover with empty heart Worrying husband working out of the town, safe? taken meal? Sexy girl temptation? Under pressure of husband comment on messy house, bad children behaviour, poor academic result, ugly wife look, not understanding on husband tiredness and lots of entertainment..


Tomorrow is 10th anniversary of my marriage :) guess, this is the only thing I hope to get from my beloved laogong. I hope for his understanding and empathy on what I have been experiencing when he is away from the home. And not coming back home and telling me 'my hotel room is much tidy and clean than our house' or 'I see you sleep everyday and not doing a single housework'.




Housework is never ending. Housework is not equal to love we contribute to the family and to our spouse. When we complaining about our tiredness and pressure from the family and work, doesn't mean we deny our partner's work stress and family commitment too. What I hoping for in my marriage is the true understanding of my feeling from my laogong. Yes, this is my wish for 2013 anniversary.