pre-cny paktor

paktor day, ya, we hold hands, we kissed. much muaks :p more happy is, i bought SKII miracle water, 1 blouse, 1 dress ^_^ reached home, super tired! thanks laogong :)

dinner at Fish Market

cny menu

my laogong

plan to buy this

food served.. love the salmon

in the fitting room, love the smile in the mirrow

in the fitting room >.<

:*

hmmm.. :p

^_^

last evening.. left the office, walking towards the train station. hmmm was feeling blue. listening to christian songs.. suddenly, i looked up to the sky, the sky was nice, i felt windy n peaceful. i smiled. smiled to the sky. i really smile, like smiling to a person, i smiled to God up there ^_^ i felt released. i felt happy. then i continued walking happily n facing the world :)

n a SMILE for u when i saw u waiting me at the front of the train station ^_^

love sparkle

dating must hold hand ^_^

'yesterday was a bless' can really feel how happy my friend is :) when she showed me the new watch, hmmm before showing the new watch, her smile, shy, but yet full of happiness :) both of husband n wife take a day off, went for dating. exchanging gift. how nice it is.

as i asked u this morning, can u spend more time on me? n staying with me with the paktor feeling? can u treat me like treating a gf? u asked what's the difference? when we paktor, we love our gf/bf, only gf/bf is in this world. we afraid of losing our love one. we make up n dress up ourselves, just to let our love one have good impression to us, at least, we gonna spend more time n effort to let our partner to look us good.

husband n wife, then plus children. we can see how ugly or all the bad habit of our spouse, when we r get used to this relationship n daily living style, we r tend to forget to cheer our partner up, n to give them surprise n bring more happiness. maybe, we r too fast to jump in the marriage part, so we have missed the paktoring sweet moment. right now, just hoping we can bring the love sparkle in our relationship, and have the paktor feeling, plus the blessing 3 little love one - our shonejay angels ^_^

thanks for bringing lots of laughter last nite by letting children playing the little pony. they were so excited. ya, until royee threw out :( with your little time n effort, u can bring laughter to them. as long as u want, u can have us to smile in our hearts :)

laogong, thank u!

“It is not up to me to change my husband, that is up to God. My job is to keep him happy.” ~ Ruth Graham

Today, list five things you appreciate about your husband

zhugong, thanks for

1. choose me as your legal wife
2. your assurance of your love to me, n wont allow me to leave u no matter what
3. share your inner secrets to me that made me more understand u
4. allowing me having full access to your salary bank account
5. our shonejay angels :)

zhugong, I love being married to you ^_^

prayer
Father, so often we want people to appreciate us, but neglect to appreciate those closest to us. Help us to be the kind of wife You want us to be. Amen

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Thu 15/01/2009 15:52
I need to thank to you here actually..
Shameful with my changes inside my mind sometime…

Bonjji Thea

1 day

1 day, I may take bus from putrajya to banting.
1 day, I may just leave home for short vacation.
1 day, I may just leave u, without any notice.
1 day, I may just release myself, n fly towards to heaven. ^_^

chinese-english language translator

yesterday, junie said, 'wei, your blog has so many chinese wording, i donno what r u talking about'. ya, this is my concern now. sometime i feel to post in chinese, coz i can express my feeling with better description in chinese. hmm my english is poor ma :~ i told junie, i wanted to have chinese n english blogs, but i feel tired to maintain 2 blog sites. i had the idea to translate my chinese post to english, but then, i am not VIP, not many ppl are reading my blogs, doing this, ppl may laugh at me la :p hehe

anyway, i have set up my mind. maintain this blog for my daily feeling n stories around me. i have my yippieyaya.blogspot.com this would be my main blog site to connect to all my links n all my bbb small pic there! will try to translate my chinese posts with my broken english. i think, my readers would understand my broken english than those direct chinese-english language translator. i had tried that, hmmm i myself didnt understand the english translation :p

it might be only few frequent visitor come to @sweetie. i thank u all. willing to come n share my stories n feeling here ^_^

emergency contact

this morning in the train, talking about sense of secure, u asked me why from day 1 i never think to depend on u. i answered, last time i could look for my dad for any help, coz i could just simply tell, bcoz of my hubby is at oversea. right now, i cant, so i would like to thank u. 'thank me for what?' thank u for bringing me more closer to God. u indirectly has strengthen my relationship with my God :) coz, since i cant go to my dad so often for help, as my hubby is beside me. n i dont have confidence of sense of secure level that my hubby can be given to me. so, i can only seek advise n guidance from my God father. i told u that till now, my emergency contact is still my dad's number. u asked me why? 'coz my dad would never say dont want me' my tears dropped once i finished this sentense n my dad's face n love came all into my mind :~ u noticed that, even i pretended nothing had happened. then.. left eye contact len came out. u passed me tissue 'dont cry la' then very silly act, wearing contact len in the train, ya, peak hour. hmm somemore, it flip! huh.. so emotional today.

poohmehmeh28

＜咩咩的点点滴滴＞就是我和我姐的点点滴滴，因为，我是咩咩，她也是咩咩。

my sis's blog. the description made my eyes gone wet :~ soooo touched n lovely! her own blog, but started with our sweet sis LOVE! full of feeling here.. all sweet sweet.. miss my meh meh.. miss my poohmehmeh.. love u mie~~

mail from sis - wed 14/01/2009 09:15

Yaya.. we men lai jian huan ri ji.. mei you ang gui de dong xi neng tian tian gei ni.. la la la… ahkakaa…Sui neng gou hua chuan bu yong jiang.. shui neng gou yang fan mei you feng xiang.. sui neng gou li kai hao jie mei.. la la la…

懂我

我所谓的归宿感，是夫妻把彼此的梦想和喜欢放在自己的生活追求，一块儿努力去达成对方开心的理想，即使和他分享快乐亦好。如果是这样，哪怕日子过得去再辛苦，令一方也愿意一起捱。你问，这样的日子可以捱多久? 我不知这样可以捱多久，但我相信我也看到，只要两人共同走向未来，两颗心是一起的，成果会是甜的。我爸妈就是铁定的最佳例子。

妹妹喜欢和台湾珍珠奶茶，奶茶，老公就努力存钱带她到台湾喝正宗的台湾珍珠奶茶。我相信有一天，妹夫一定会带妹去日本吃道地的烧烤章鱼丸。因为他已把她的梦想，放在他心上了。契妈昨天打电话给我说，与她吵架吵了两个星期的老公，打了通电话给她，说了你别跟我爬上椅子拆窗帘，你的脚痛，别把脚再弄伤了，了，等我回来我来装，新年的东西你别做了。虽然老公的语气是凶的，但契妈说没想到他还有我心。契妈的语气也没像之前致电给我般，气得咬牙切齿。同事想拥有名牌包包，哪怕一生就只有一个那品牌的包包，她的老公也把这是放在心上，昨天，昨天，老公把花红给了老婆。老婆很开心与感动，虽然她不舍得把这一笔大数目就这样拿去买包包，但她感受到，她的喜欢在老公的心里位置。这就是我所想拥有的感觉。

我要的不是钱，这我可以自己可以努力去赚。我要的不是空洞的甜言蜜语，这没意思。我要的只是，你把我的感受放在心上，我想要你可以记得我所喜欢的，我想要的，我只想你懂我。今早，我突然有个念头闪过，难道我此刻所谓的幸福拥有，只是我在自圆其说？

女人与小孩

When I wish upon a star

唔~ 我的星星

我不知道这个小孩怎样凭空而来 他可能让我告别长久以来的摇摆

带他回来给他一个温暖的家 每天晚上散一个小小的步 慢慢有人说那个小孩长得象我

跟我一样需要爱 一样的脆弱 跟我一样害怕孤独 和寂寞

象我这样的一个女人 以及这样的一个小孩

活在世界上 小小一个角落 彼此愈来愈相象 愈来愈不能割舍

我不知道这个小孩是不是一个礼物 但我知道我的生活不再原地踏步

陪他长大给他很多很多的爱 让他拥有自己的灵魂和梦 因为一个小孩是一个神秘的存在

跟星星一样奇异　一样发着光 跟水果一样新鲜 花儿一样芳香

象我这样的一个女人 以及这样的一个小孩

活在世界上小小一个角落 彼此愈来愈相爱 愈来愈互相依赖 啦~ 愈来愈相信安排

唔~凭空而来 一个温暖的家 一个礼物 我的星星 星星

had been loving this song since years back. the rhythm, the nice vocal of a mummy n the daughter. last saturday, again listened to this song, watching the music video, as a mother, i have strong feel to this song. feel touched. fully understand the beauty of the lyric n the LOVE in it. tears dropped, contact len dropped :~ sis looking at me at one kind >.<

shonejay angels, i love u all ^_^

reply email to kc

Being a mother can always make us strong n stronger. I am sure u can overcome this tiring n suffered period just give yourself good rest n happy mood :) i am tired also, taking care 3bb who r now very active n talkative, non stop playing n being naughty. Sometime i feel angry with their disturbance, i cant rest well even i am sick. But think deeper, they r my own children, last time our parents also taking care us day n night. So i diam diam jaga them. Working n travelling also tired but need to earn money, see supervisor face color do things lo, 1day 1day very fast also.

When husband not around, i feel very lonely, tired, busy, have to take care everything by my own, bills, bbb, in law.. Sometime crying alone after children sleep. Life goes on anyway. Luckily i have my parents n siblings support me lo. Last month husband just came back from philippines, very happy he came back, but i also need time to adapt myself again. Man is man. Taking children no patience one. So still the same lo, but better is i let him handle in law n i have someone to share stories other than my sis. Last week he went to philippines again for a week. On n off, just hoping he has more time here with children.

Ya is good to have sister. When i feel down n really need a shoulder to cry on, my sis is always be with me. I am enjoying the stay at bukit tinggi house, try recipe with my sis, go shooping for grocery together, got a partner who is really close to heart lo. Ya, let god decides gal or boy, as long as jane has sibling then she wont be lonely. My children now all study at kinder, hope they learn good living skills for their own good. n more behave lo then i dont need to be that tired n non stop shouting them like ah soh.

Since children r growing, i want to have some personal time for myself. Reading in the train, pamper myself by going massage n buying some new cloths. Doing it slowly la, at long as i can let myself release stress n be more relax n happy. Ya this year goal is to change myself :p recently only confirm dont want another bb. Economy downturn, children edu spending more, so better focus on quality than quantity as husband always mentioned. I love children so i hope my sis faster has her baby, then i can tolong jaga :)

U be happy ya! We all r learning to play well in wife, mother roles. All the best! N u can always share your feeling with me :)

posing..

wondering why he has 'kepala senget pose'

n 'baju berlubang'. hmmm

bbb are ready to go to the school~

angelina

evangeline

my angels are going to kinder :)

wow bbb are in same color uniforms

went to buy kfc at the store banting (new year treat from my mummy :p). there was 'back to school' fair at the store supermarket. saw a pair of small white color school shoes, asked royee if he wanted that as his school shoes. royee said 'no, this shoes have no color, i dont want. we look for something which is with color' hehe.. i found this funny. laogong said 'next time royee must be prefect, or else he can only wear white shoes' :p

these days, i always calling angels' full names. just to prepare them to get familiar with their own names, as i dont know which name the teachers going to call them. and royee calls his sisters' chinese name now, 'this is roinn, this is ro bei' :p just loving them!!

time flies, they are now at schooling age. just hoping after few months of kinder days, then angel n eva can speak fluent chinese, more behave. n royee doesnt need to be bored at home n bully his sisters. hmmm feeling down when think of this coming monday u r not going to be with us for angels important day :( hope u can come back fast from manila.. miss u already...

royee - shopping with mama

sunny boy with xmas tree

enjoy the free ice cream

yummy~

tired already. baby, mummy loves u :*

on christmas day

morning: unwrapping the gift from auntie Yoges~

noon: waiting the train at putrajaya sentral

evening: let it snow at midvalley magamall

aaaa royee

last nite when we reached home, my mum complained about royee cutting angel's hair :( reason given was 'angel's hair is long, need to be trimmed' aiya this boy..

royee asked me with his super cute face 'mummy, why granpa is sleeping in grandma's room?' 'there is grandpa's room too! both of them sleep in the same room ma' 'oooo.. hehe' asking all those question..

now royee likes to address himself as 'baby' 'mummy, mummy's baby is on the bed ooo' 'mummy, mummy de baby wants to sleep' hehehe feel funny sometime. he is such a joyful boy~

hyatt kuantan 6-8 dec

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honey ginger chicken

miss the taste. roasted this last sunday. hope i can try all the recipe that i learned from the cooking class soon. then combine all them n make 1 party for family members :) thanks for my sis shopping for the food, preparing the material, cooking together. it is fun to have a partner to try out new recipe n in the kitchen. the money that we invested for the kitchen is worthwhile hehehe..

hubby is back

yes, i choose to blog about this after 3 weeks of your back. maybe it was few months separation that cause me need to adapt myself to the daily life which is together with u. last nite, when we together walked at putrajaya sentral station's car park, i found myself have OK with your back now. i feel relaxed n peaceful. so now i dont have the feeling that u r stranger to me (it might be weird to some ppl); now i feel easy to sit together with u in the train, side by side; now i can fully concentrate on my reading when i am in the car or train, coz i know u r beside me to be my cctv :) i really appreciate this 'u dont need to tell me your feeling n stories thru your blogs, u can tell me in person, i am beside u, i am with u everyday, we dont need blog to communicate, ok?'

laogong, thanks for being patient with me in these few weeks. n thanks for sharing your stories n secrets. thanks for your encouragement. thanks for loving me ^_^

God's reward

my twin angels - angelina n evangeline, they are premature babies, they are healthy, they are adorable, they are lovely! admit that i dont spend much time with them (compare to royee) since they were born. i cant bring them out frequent as what i do to royee, coz it's not easy for me to manage 2 of them by my own if i bring them out. n i need to bring royee together, so whoever at home taking care angels would be much easier (royee is always the naughty one!)thus, i always look for chance to bring 1 at a go if the other angel n royee are sleeping. the quality time for me n angels are usually in the morning, when they wake up, i cuddle them in both my arms, sing for them :) i love to see their smiles... a bit shy.. :p

royee mentioned to me this last night 'mummy has 3 babies (counted his 3 little fingers), baby, angel and eva.. mummy loves 3 babies, all also love one, not only loving 1 baby, must love all one..' ^_^ ya i told him, u all are mummy's babies, of course mummy loves u three. shonejay, angel, eva all are mummy's babies, mummy loves u all, n u all must love each other ma.. royee said 'yes, only 3 babies, must love one' :)

i love shonejay angels :*

phone call

当时我有个想法，第一，如果没有电话，该怎么办？第二，为什么当发生事情时，身边亲密的人却联络不上？万一这次我是奄奄一息，想要交代或听他们的声音，那岂不是很遗憾？嗯。。平时看到亲人联络自己，以为没什么好着急，稍微没空就不回复，如果当时亲人正受重伤，就期待跟你最后的道别，错过了就一辈子就没机会啦！！！过后才一直责备自己，这就后悔莫及咯。。 - pooh-

sometime we tend to not answer ppl call, n especially when we r busy, n our loved one calling, we would take advantage to igore the call, n say 'ok, call him/her back later' or pick up the call, before the other side start talking, 'let me call u back' then we hang the phone. hmm we cant control the situation of the recipient, n sometime we might stay in the situation where we might have no chance to call up our love one n tell the last word to them or asking for help. i always sms hubby 'i love u' when he is taking flight, or when i am taking flight. if i travel farer, i sms to my papa mama n siblings to tell them i love them. if somemore farer, n a very new place for me, i tell all i want to say to my sis, even passwords, pin number, what to do if anything happen.. hmmm.. n in my phone, i have the template message 'i love u all n my shonejay angels' n i always set my family phone number as a group. when hubby drive the car super fast, i wont scold him, i would hold my phone very tight n start looking for the sms template.. or if the public train that i take, suddenly has weird sound, then i would make sure my phone in function.

remember 1 of my college lecturers asked this question 'how many of u ever think of death? everyday?' hmm i think we seldom think about death but we are more tend to think of problems that we are facing or might be facing. the lecturer said, 'u would tend to appreciate your life more if u think of death (positively)' to me, this makes sense to me at some points. that day i went for the PEP class, the lecturer said, what would u do, if your love one have only 7 days left to stay with u? u will give your love one everything the best, u give all your time n love in these 7 days. well, we dont know when is the final 7 days for our love one n family to stay with us, so treat everyday is the 7 day, treat your family n love one with your true heart n celebrate each of the moments together, spend quality time with them.

ya. 7-days. we dont know what's gonna happen at tomorrow. so dont think too much on what u r lacking, just need to celebrate with what we are having n treat everyone with our sincere heart. n try to answer calls with calm n smile ^_^ welcome the disturbance, sometime u would get to see this beautiful world at different angles :)

xmas deco

designed this for the office xmas deco. cant find plotter to print the bigger version of this slide to the backdrop size i wanted. so sticked it on my desktop whitebooard. bring the xmas feel. in fact, i have changed my phone caller ringtones to xmas selection since 1st dec. ho! ho! ho!

bbb at kuantan

rainbow

saw the rainbow yesterday when we reaching putrajaya sentral station. looks nice. there are time the big hot sun shining, or raining cats n dogs, n there is always time rainbow come out n bring happy n lucky feeling to us. in our daily life, there are hurting, guilt, curious, confused feeling.. but then, happiness is always popping up in between them ^_^

i love the feeling bbb last nite q-ing up 1 by 1, opened their arms n gave me big hugs. the feeling were so great! am very happy to have so important position in their hearts. u joined them. u gave me BIG hug too! hmmm sometime adult love someone with mouth only, i love u i love u but no action. we need to learn from children, they love ppl with love n action :)

ya.. more rainbows for me in year 2009!

unconditional love?

无法浅释你对我的爱，在我们之间不再是你和我，我爱你；曾经因为你的热情而快速让你带领我来到这没逻辑的爱情世界；如今也因你的举动来挑战我对你的爱之深度。。没有风雨，哪会珍惜避风港；没有了你，我从不知我的理智，可以让你的一个眼神而熔化。。不愿祈求天长地久，只望你还在我身边的每一个当下，你是真情的。

writen this 2 years ago. n it has been bringing the same feeling as of today. for a married couple, i hope to hear the truth from u. i dont want to spend time to guess what's the hidden meaning of your words. we non stop guessing outsiders intention n good to us, when facing our love one, i wish to be relaxed.. no lie, no hidden meaning, only truth n care.

this morning i got this thought, for husband n wife, they are staying together even there is some flaw in their love relationship, bcoz of the unconditional love to the spouse or unconditional love to our children? bcoz we love our children, so we can tolerate our spouse, at the other meaning, we are trying best to let our children to have complete family with papa n mama. hmmm..

which type of wife r u?

你算是模范女子的佼佼者，不止入得厨房出得厅堂，还有自己的事业，深得男人心之余，女人也会以你为榜样。你坚持要有自己的事业，不用老公养，且具备中国传统女性的美德，无论工作有多忙，你都一定会抽空打理家务，照顾家人，相对来说家庭是你的首选。

hmmm.. for me, a good wife is also needs support from husband so she can remain to be a good wife or be a better wife. if husband just dont appreciate what the wife has done for him n the family, then the wife might be tired n lazy to maintain this role.

new time table

u r here with me. staying together everyday. now both of us need to adapt to the new daily time table. 6am wake up n prepare ourselves to work. try to catch up time to play with bbb while changing cloths n putting up basic skin care. leave house at 7am+ catch the 8.05am train at putrajaya. peak hour, no seat for us, standing n chatting. reach kl sentral at 8:25am, u take LRT train to klcc n i go to 7-11 to buy bread for breakfast n dinner. i reach the office before 9am. u always have evening meeting, we try to catch 8pm train, so we can have a little more time to spend with bbb. but then, normally we can only manage to catch 8:30pm or 9pm train. sharing bread in the train. then reach house normally 10pm+ take bath then prepare to sleep. reading newspaper or online internet before sleeping for u.

hmmm this is our new time table. normally bbb sleep when we reach home. hmmm.. for me, more than 12 hours i need to stay in the office. now is year end, a bit busy in the office, so am still ok with this. i work OT while waiting for u. for next month, i think i will sign up the gym class nearby, so i can workout while waiting for u. sad thing is, i have only weekend can play with bbb. that's why, i cancel a lot of weekend programs n dinner invitation. bcoz i have only 2 days to stay with bbb.

hope u r happy with the days over here. i am happy to stay with u. as i told my colleague, my year 2009 wish is, i can have u to stay with me n bbb everyday. ya everyday. with your heart n love stay with us as well :)

looking forward for the kuantan trip this weekend, i really need to go out to relax myself. n hope bbb will enjoy the trip as well.