pinky angels ^_^

sunday morning...

u see, their territory

cutie eva ^0^

they were happy, mummy didnt scold them :p

lagoon~

saturday morning, sitting on the bed, thinking, shall i bring bbb to sunway lagoon or megakidz? since this weekend i dont need to be busy on bkt31. bbb always stay at home, must let them see outside world. kakak asked me, what cloths to let them wear, i said, 'biar saya fikir dulu, nak bawa mereka keluar jalan jalan tak...' hmm then kakak mandikan bbb, i was still sitting there with my pda, checking sunway lagoon's tickets price. then i decided NOt going. then jalan sambil jalan, i found bbb quite bored at home, they followed me jalan jalan in the house. then i asked my mum, 'ma, do u want to go sunway lagoon?' mum said 'ya, i feel like going out la, staying at home so bored' OK, i went to the room, asked kakak to wear angels mamypoko diapers, 'nak pergi makan angin!' :p

about an hour kelam kabut packing time, we left the house nearly 10am. stopped at rhb bank jenjarom, withdraw rm500 :( reached sunway pyramid nearly 11am. so many bags. heavy bags. kakak wanted to carry all ALONE. i said no la, 'nanti patah tangan u' she felt guilty to let me carry one of the bags. hmmm.. bbb dont need tickets, coz tak cukup height. so bought 3 adult tickets, 3 x rm48, rm144 for theme park + water park. so happy bbb looking at those colorful thingy. the weather, sekejap mendung, sekejap panas...

after playing few games at amusement park, then we went to waterpark. coz hot sun! the swimming suit seemed smaller size to them already. so next time, i will buy a new set for bbb. not many photos taken, coz want to jaga bags, n bbb. during the stay over there, i felt happy ^_^ looking at our bbb, when they happily smiled n laugh, i felt OK to spend the entrance fee :p after lagoon, we went to sunway pyramid for hartz chicken buffet, spent nearly rm70. parking tickets rm5.50. tolls rm2.20 x 2. petrol... oh ya, n rm20 for J Co donuts. Smile on each of our faces --- PRICELESS ^_^

photos to be uploaded later.. with video too!

another friday

again, friday. seem like yesterday was sunday. hmm.. time flies really fast. mid july now. my sis in law at late pregnancy stage, i'm gonna be gugu soon :) royee gonna be age 3, then angels will be 2 soon. n ya, my sis gonna be a married woman very soon keke..

now is 22:49 shonejay angels are sleeping. kakak too. i just taken my dinner. i worked till almost 8pm just now. then reached home at 9:20pm. kakak closed the door for me, i told her, 'banyak kerja, kerja tak siap siap' she smiled at me with kesian me face @_@ royee n angel were happy to see me. eva been sleeping. hug hug kiss kiss them, trim angel's fingernails, then i went for shower. kakak asked me to eat 1st, she tidurkan bb. i said never mind la, 'kamu pergi rehat, saya jaga mereka' she said pity me, must be very hungry. ya, was very hungry. but then if i let her handle bb, for sure they wont sleep. might as well i cepat cepat tidurkan them, then i can take my late dinner and online post this blog for u.

u r now in thailand. just now my colleague asked, is it a big jump for your hubby salary in this company? i said no. u earn the same salary as compare to the previous company. u chose this company, coz this is your dream when u left maxis. u studied, u worked hard. now u r qualified. so salary is secondary here. maybe ppl thot this is not giant company that u gonna be proud of. this is a dream that u set few years back. to let u travel. my colleague said 'it is hard for a woman to handle a family alone' ya, i agree with that. it is not easy. when few things come together, when bbb always need more and equal love n attention from me. i told her, as a wife, i wont allow my hubby to stay far from the family; as a friend to him, i would. coz to a man, DREAM is the main force n spirit to moving forward to the brighter n challenging future. a man without hope n dream, is nothing. i want u to experience this, since u r still a young man - with unlimited potential ummmh! then my colleague said 'hopefully he really appreciated this' hmmm.. i do hope so. gambling. i hope i win this game. my mum told me last nite, hope he can be like your dad one day. ya.. i hope u can prove to everyone n to bbb, u r a nice man who work hard for the family and at the same time, fulfil your wish in career n life. now u have more chances to travel around. going places where i never been too. dont forget to share pictures n stories :)

day before, i told my friend, u can trust your woman friends n sisters, but not man. hmmm just to protect ourselves for being hurt. who knows, one day something happen. no guarantee n warranty for this. i told her, TRUST to my hubby is not 100% but LOVE = 100%. that day in your email, 'why u r not believing in me?' hmmm u r far away from me, be frank, distance has taken away my sense of secure.. slowly.. hmmm... no one can extended the warranty period of marriage n love relationship, just hoping that, we can stay together happily as long as we can and together build a home sweet home to bbb ^_^

today lunch time. i went to klcc parkson, helping my sis to buy dress. no stock. then i went to isetan, brought 2 pieces of short pants to angels. so happy, i got them at 50% discount. last time i wanted to buy this design at midvalley store, when it was new release but dont have 2 same size available. LEGO is on sale at toy'r'us. standing there for minutes, finally i left the store with empty hand. yesterday just bought them 3 puzzles. so wait for next sale la. dont want to spend much now, n dont want to spoil them. kakak also less kerja, dont need to pick up the toys from morning till nite. hmm...

no plan for tomolo. waiting another quotation from bruce's friend, so this weekend, dont feel to be busy on bkt31. at 1st i planned to bring bbb to sgbuloh, visit your parents. but then your mum is still in johore. your dad asked me to go back in august. maybe i can go back together with u. thot to bring them to tiara beach - high petrol cost; to sunway lagoon - high tickets fee; to megakidz - long journey; putrajaya - nothing much we can do... so this weekend, will stay at home. maybe bring them to playground nearby or morib beach. just now helping my colleague to look for nice place for relaxing... hmmm me too hoping for a trip - blue sky n aqua sea n white sand.. hmmm the wind.. wow~ next year, let's plan for something relaxing >.<

thinking of country code. indonesia 62, philipines 63, thailand 66. what's next? u said u have changed region from south asia pacific to south east asia. then i went online to see what r the countries under these 2 regions. hmmm i think, my geography knowledge will be better if u travel more countries n changed few more regions :p when i can memorize well your phone number, then u would change to another one :( i think recently i drop a lot of hairs, coz too many numbers in my otak, n so many due dates of bills to remember. (ps: just now i bought a otak-otak bun from bread story, hmmm yummy!!) few weeks have not been back to dc31, i dont collect all the letters. so these few days, i received call from banks, to ask to pay the outstanding amount :p your dad also calling coz astro service has been suspended. hehehe.. busy ma.. settled everything for those that i received calls. for the rest, wait for banks to call me la :p see la, if very free, then this sunday go back dc31 with bbb.

tomolo is my eldest brother's bday. ok la, wanna sleep already. calling u now.. aiya, no answer :( good nite la.. pls email me.. love u~

SE P1i

tomolo i will be on mc. going to sjmc n see dermathologist. hmmm finally i will get some specialist treatment on my allergic lips. been having this for more than 3 years. hmm.. hope this problem will be gone right after treatment.

ya, so agressive, went to klcc sony wing during lunch time. bought the P1i at rm1519. got a free hand towel :p few times u called me hor, dont be jealous on my new phone, u can buy a new one too, when u come back malaysia la. so if u want the phone fast, then u come back fast >.<

ok. pen off here. wanna go back home already. want to study related topics on tod's psycho. will meet shone's teacher again tomolo morning before i drive to subang. hmmm.. big challenge to me to handle this issue.

take good care there..

challenges!

A champion horse doesnt know why it runs in the race. but it knows it runs faster bcoz of the beats and pains... the more your pains, the stronger u become. Life is a race, God is your rider. The harder He beats u, the stronger u become. so dont be troubled with year problems. react to it to WIN like a champion horse ~ sms from thomas samuel

as i always say, challenges make us stronger! ya. susah susah sekarang, senang senang kemudian. i hope we really get senang soon ^_^ settling down everything asap. ya, phone spoiled at this critical time, going to buy a new mobile phone this weekend with your consent given :p as i told my colleague, i wanted to buy a phone with cheaper price but with all the functions of phone in the world. so greedy hor.. kekeke..

this 26/7 will go klcc for the basic photography course, so after this, i will buy a better professional digital camera :p wahhh.. the hdd video camera also needed. so many things added to my wish list ooo.. will bring royee n kakak to klcc la. as i promised to kakak, i will bring her jalan jalan at kuala lumpur, ibu kota of malaysia :)

ok, mau kerja lo. 3:30pm tea time will celebrate my colleague's bday. yummy yummy bday cake hehe..

family day ^^

only the members in the house that matter to happiness. the size of the house doesnt matter. i felt very happy when everyone was gathering at home (except u :~) crowded but warm. sometime i do think, ppl nowadays only mostly have lesser children, then how to get more grandchildren when they are old. then for sure we cant have the scene of very BIG family gathering for any special occasions like what our grandparents have. last time ppl have smaller house, smaller car (or even no car but bicycle) but yet they have very happy BIG family. today, ppl have less children, bigger house, bigger car, both working parents, but yet, may not feel enough n claim high living cost. things change.

very happy, got to skype with u. see your face thru webcam, hmmmm i miss u so much! wish to hug n kiss u there :* 1st time angel skype with u, she enjoyed it. when the line got connected, then she 'papa papa' hehehe.. royee n eva were sleeping. next time la, i try to get them all skype with u. but then, must really taking care my laptop la.. their little fingers!!! non stop pressing here n there. oh ya, about royee cabut my laptop key pad, when my mum called me, 5 keypad tercabut, when i reached home, total 8 keypad he cabut. so, my mum rotan him for the 5 characters, n my dad rotan him for the additional 3 characters :( i sakit hati with the laptop, but i lagi sakit hati when i saw the mark on royee's body.

last nite before kakak slept, i asked her to apply cream for royee whenever royee kena rotan 'biar dia cepat sembuh dan takde kesan' i cant control my parents or asked them to stop rotan royee, coz sometime royee memang naughty. as long as their punishment is not over is reasonable, then i am ok. i also dont wish one day royee become very naughty n i got no chance to rotan him. sometime, i hit royee when he is too over with his action. i use only my palm, i want to feel the pain. so i can control myself for not hurting him much. i want to punish him, but not hurting him. so just to be fair, he feels the pain, so do i. me + sakit hati :(

i tight angel's hair. kakak loves to see angels wearing dress ^_^

peace!

ramai kan ^_^ bruce snapped this photo. my papa gone jogging..

kakak wash bbb shoes few times a week. like new pairs la.. :p

so far, i love this kakak. when there is big sunshine out there, then she cari things to wash. when bbb falling sick, she also worried together with me. last nite when i reached home at night, she reported to me, angel finally got her boo boo out. very big one like an egg. angel screamed!!! kakak greets everyone morning. my eldest brother felt paiseh when kakak said 'morning sir' with a smile :) last saturday kakak slept with me in the aircond room. she memang takut sejuk one. so, she got herself a thick blanket, n covered her face as well :p my eldest brother said, later i being sued bcoz i dera my maid with aircond kekeke.. so i switched off the aircond :p to let kakak had good sleep. kakak really helps a lot. 2+ weeks, she went to klang shopping with my mum 3 times. n went to saloon too! i hope she really enjoys working at our home :)

angels start singing 'i love u, u love me..' not very clear, but with the ryhthm. cute! they learning many new things n words in these 2 weeks. thanks to my parents n kakak. thanks royee too! sometime royee singing then angels follow. i think by the time u come back, u can see big difference of them ^_^ oh ya, not only kakak, but my dad also telling this morning, angel n eva have gained weight. my dad worried, afraid angels will be in big size. my dad sughested that, less biscuits n tip-bits for angels. kekeke.. i love the way my dad looking at angels n smile. so soft, so sweet. look at my dad, i can imagine last time how my dad treat me n my sis. my dad really loves children.. the smile of satisfaction n happiness ^_^ told my eldest brother to take family photo in year 2009, when his bb >6mth, n my sis sudah jadi bruce's wife :p

last time i was busy during weekend to travel sgbuloh-banting to see angels. now i'm busy travelling banting-klang for bkt31. anyway, am happy to busy with bkt31. coz shonejay angels are with me everyday ^_^ i thank God when i leave home with bbb + kakak 'tata, bye bye, kiss kiss', n leave home with smile in my heart. i come back home, bbb standing there 'mama mama' n very happy smiling. tired gone. kakak helps to close the gate, royee helps to carry my handbag, then i hold angels hands n walk in to the living hall. how nice the days are ^_^

this weekend, i will try to confirm the quotation n contractors. then get the work start. if possible, i dont want to delay my plan. want to move to the house by this year end. settle everything by this year. so next year, i may start my study as u non stop pushing for it :p ok ok, year 2009 i will become a good student ok. hmmm wokey, end this post. your email just reached to my mailbox, commenting about the new house design proposal. tata!

I LOVE U!

busy saturday~

we left house at 7am+ to meet my sis at klang bukit raja at 8am+ then we went to damamsara damai ikea. reached ikea at 9am then we had breakfast there. so many ppl q-ing up there. found a table with natural sunshine in. at nearly 10am, we started walk walk see see in ikea. found some nice ID design that suit our preference. took some photos but then kena warning from the staff there :p

royee kissed ah-yi... so sweet~

royee in ikea

he felt funny sitting on it. non stop hehehe

lunch at uncle lim

after ikea, we went to ikano power centre. from macy to aussino then to harvey norman n i-living. some nice sofa set n dining table. n tv too! ya, semua money matter. at least we can have idea n concept on our new house interior design.

sport car! cute hor

click it to enlarge the pic

at the kid's show room

big ball~

around floor we left damansara then went to klang bukit tinggi. visited the contractor's shop. reconfirmed the design n asked for revised quotation. then dropped by at jaya jusco to buy the bday cake to my mama. rushing back to banting at 7pm. then everyone coming back.. wow many ppl. my parents were so happy. ordered 100 sticks of satay too! then got my mum home made crystal jelly.

me n bbb

my mum bday!

11pm+ brought bbb to sleep. kakak slept with me last nite. after 12am, when everyone sleeping, then i discussed the new house renovation quotation with my sis. hmm slept at 1am+ before that, i did call u.. but couldnt get thru.

feeling ok today, coz i have maximized the hours by sleeping less. tiring la but didnt waste the time lo. miss u very much for the whole day.. hmmmm.. u r somehow my decision maker, without u, sometime i felt hard to make my own choice n decision.. pls arrange to come back fast... i love u...

it's friday!

ya.. time flies~ today is friday again. tomolo my sis n i will be busy with the new house issue. money in money out very fast ooo.. just taken my lunch, home cook from my mum. this morning while i was taking my breakfast, i felt so touched n happy. bersyukur. i have a lovely mum to cook me breakfast n lunch. my dad who really loves children n grandchildren. then the maid kakak also ok. my parents also feel satisfied with the maid. how nice the feeling is.. if u come back home, then i would complete the last piece of the wonderful picture of my happy days! i love the feeling now. thanks God for all these nice things ^_^

last nite i sat down with kakak n my mum. i asked kakak wanted to call back home or not, she said 'tak usah la mum, nanti saya rindu sama anak kecil, tak usah la, thank you mum' hmmm her smile made me felt sad. she must miss her daughter much. she rather choose not to call back home just not to worsen her home sick :( kakak told us about her family at indon. she works in malaysia to earn money, so she can go back indon and build a house. when she said 'belum ada rumah sendiri lagi' i think of our dc house. the joy n satisfaction to have own house, to fix everything as per own preference. she must be dreaming for this. so i asked kakak, so u going to stay long in malaysia, she said yes, she wants to earn as much as she can for 5-6 years, then go back indon n be a housewife n stay with her daughter. i really hope her dream come true. i know how it feels to separate from family n work hard for better n brighter future. am thinking how to make her salary more value.. hmmm maybe fixed deposit for her salary.

i told kakak tomolo is my mum's bday. she ask 'untuk ulang tahu berapa?' i said 53. she said my mum looks young. then this morning kakak also mentioned to my mum, 'mem muda' then my mum said, u mesti selalu happy. tau apa maksud happy? tak mau ingat (fikir/think) perkara perkara yang tak baik. ingat apa yang baik. buat kerja kerja yang baik. then kamu akan nampak happy, senyum selalu, then nampak muda. hehehehe sometime kakak memang blur with my mum malay. sometime both of them talking need me to translate. we need time to learn bahasa indon too. i really hope kakak can work happily here. n forever treating our children n our family nice.. ^_^

angel is having low fever. hope she gets well soon. today u r wearing smart with your new coat, hope u can share pic with me. remember only u wear once on our wedding day :p hope u r working happily there. pls less beer n less casino visiting har.. i miss u so much!! n I LOVE U!

gong xi 186 ^_^

today is a very special to my sis n bruce. they went to submit their marriage registration form!!! wow, my sis gonna be Mrs Lee lo~~ hehehe very happy for her. hope she get matured after this :p couple #186 for klang hokkien association marriage registration on 08 august 2008. olympic opening~ my sis wedding date~ so this year, 2 new members joining Tiew's family, tiew bb n bruce lee ^_^ hope next year, another new member, Lee bb will be joining Tiew's family kekeke..

this saturday, my mum's bday. semua will overnight at banting to celebrate this special day. hmmmm except u :( never mind lo, hope u remember to call my mum n wish my mum happy bday lo. maybe, u can bring dried mango n sugar cane from manila to my mum as bday gift. hahahaha.. later my mum rotan u with sugar cane. kakakaka.. this sunday, maybe i will bring angels to sgbuloh n visit your parents. see how it goes, Tiew's family gathering donno till what time.

FEAR

i didnt sleep well last nite. angel was active n stayed up till nearly 12am. then only slept beside me. 3am+ royee came to me n cried. wanna sleep with me on the bed. then eva crying for milk. 6am+ they woke up! :~

4am+ angel n royee

eva is drinking milk.. dalam buai

last nite royee watched news together with my parents. ternampak a car accident photo, the orang no eyes n losing 1 leg. royee non stop asking my mum why the fella got no eyes n no leg? then came to me. 'royee hen hai pa' (royee feeling scared) non stop he repeating the story. 'the eyes missing, this leg got, this leg no more, mummy, why??? royee papa, royee hen hai pa' then u tried to control his tears from falling down. so pity him. read an article last time, we need to admit n accept kids feeling, when they r mad, must tell, ya i know u r mad. when they are in fear, must tell them 'ya, mummy knows u r afraid of the photo, where the uncle lost his leg n eyes in the accident' somehow, royee still staying in the picture.. 'wai po, close the tv, royee hen hai pa, royee doesnt want to watch it' he whispering to himself.

i told him, next time u dont climb up to the table, or push your friends or gal gal. when u fell down, u get hurt, u may lost your body part. then again, he repeating the story. i know he cant erase the memory of the scene. n he really scared. i hug him. very tight. 'it's ok royee, the uncle has been sent to the hospital, doctor will fix everything for him' 'mummy, royee hen hai pa, royee doesnt want to watch the tv, royee wants to watch cartoon only :( then i asked him, we sleep ok? then i prepare him to sleep, still mumbling about the news..

to change topic, royee, u faster sleep la, mummy also wants to sleep already, tomolo mummy wants to work n earn money. 'royee also wants to earn money''wahhh, royee wants to earn money ar? when royee grow bigger, then royee works hard lo, then earn money lo''i want to earn a lot of money for mummy ooo''thank u royee, ok ok''i want to sell many many roti (bread) so i can have much money oo' (selling roti? out of so many things :p maybe another taukeh of future roti boy is here keke) 'royee, will u buy a car?''yes, i will buy a car, bring mama go swimming' hehehehe 'mama wants to travel ooo, can bring mummy to take flight ma? we go far far place la' 'ya, can, we go take photos together, royee stand here, mummy stand here, then we take photos lo' cute~~~ he smiled. then i said 'good nite royee' out of sudden, 'mummy, royee hen hai pa, the uncle losing his leg de..' :(

want to search online on related topic. see how to comfort him. n guide him to come out from his fear. this morning he also mentioned about the news on the way to the kinder. hmmm..

another happy day~

butterfly butterfly happy all day, butterfly butterfly fly fly away~

royee sings this song this morning while my mum put his kinder uniform on. non stop his mouth mumbling, my mum asked him to stop talking, so talkative :p my parents wake up early. my mum was busy in the kitchen, fried rice for our breakfast. then i said, i dont feel to eat fried rice in the morning, oily. then my mum cooked yee mee for me.. wow express! yummy! then my mum asked kakak faster eat the yee mee 'nanti bukan saya masak tak sedap, sebab kamu makan lambat, soup sudah kering, hehehe' kekeke funny.. for less than 1 hour, breakfast n lunch prepared. mummy is always owesome! so i packed my lunch - fried rice + ikan sambal + fried egg. brought jelly to the office too! jelly with longan n nata de coco. my mum made them last nite.

sent royee to kinder. this morning he greeted teacher quite loud 'zao an!' with his cute smile :) before the teacher asked him to say good bye to me, he said 'zai jian mummy' hehehe what a good boy ^_^ luckily he loves to go to kinder, less headache for us to prepare him to the kinder. listen to MYfm during the journey to putrajaya. nice songs n news update n funny jokes too. start my day with laughter :D yesterday i was wearing black, today, am wearing purple! purple shirt n pants..

when i reached home

my inspiration ^_^

last nite i took out the blocks for bbb. kakak washed n cleaned them, then they playing with the blocks. can see the different attitude of them. royee non stop bising coz he cant build the tower taller, he insist to put the smaller block at the bottom. so once the tower gone taller, then once tak balance, it collapsed. angel, only look for blocks with same colour. last nite, angels chose purple color. so, she went n took all the purple color blocks from royee n eva baskets. non stop eva n royee bising :p at 1st we scolded angel, why took ppl pieces. finally we found out her block tower was in purple color. eva is always the happy gal. she built the tower high with all the blocks that she has, then once the tower collapse, she would smile n build the tower again ^_^

one thing i love about eva is, she always bring the patung for angel or royee when they want to sleep or drink milk. most of the time she smiled. she usually cries 'waaaaahh!' hehehe.. i more prefer her smiley face :p cute n sweet. for angel, she normally smile quietly. for me, she looks matured compare to eva who looks like baby ^_^ yesterday my mum brought 3 of them to trim their hair. so now angels look more cute.. hehhee.. royee asked the hairdresser auntie to make his hair stand :p ya, 3 of them look differently last nite with their new hairstyle. love them much!!!

standing hair

muka bangun pagi~

they sleep early. coz my mum n kakak tak tahan 3 of them non stop bising :p sometime they sleep before 9am. then, they wake up early. most of the time, they wake up before 7am, before my alarm clock ring~!!! hmmm.. then 3 of them laying on the bed, normally royee will sleep between my 2 legs. just dont want him to disturb the sisters. 1 day, royee complained, mummy, i dont want to sleep on your lap already la, it is hard, then painful.. hmmm so demanding ooo..

this morning, while playing with them on the bed, my alarm clock rang.. then royee said, mummy, your phone singing already. heheh cute, i told him, the alarm clock is ringing, is time for mummy to go shower n prepare to go to work lo. then brought him out to watch tv, then angel n eva will follow. busy morning, but feel happy lo~

cute face kan.. angel~

lazy eva..

last nite 3 buai in the room. 1 by 1 i change the sleeping suit for them then put in the buai. ask them to say good nite to each other, n kiss me. hmmm sweet~ then, i sitting on the bed, adjust the buai, so their heads or legs wont kena each other. then right leg swing angel's buai, left hand for royee's buai, right hand for eva's buai. was hoping kakak wont come in at that time, my posing must be very funny n odd :p then start the karaoke session. sing those children songs.. sometime, royee would say 'chang hao hao lai (sing properly), mei you jiang zi chang de (cannot sing like this one)' then i will say 'we have this song la, mummy not simply sing la' then have to make a story that can explain the song, with suitable tones n facial expression.

last nite 3 of them slept before 10pm. thot to copy all the photos in my camera to the laptop, n post few blogs for u. felt tired pula. so sleepy. then called u up. wahhh.. now start drinking beer hor. pls jaga badan ok? liver la, heart la, whatever la.. all jaga baik baik. u said, if can get job in kl then ok or not? ya, of course, i want u to come back n stay with us ma. u make the decision la, i always support u ^_^ last nite, i asked royee, do u miss papa? he said yes. i told him, papa working at far far place lo, to earn money ma.. then royee said 'mummy also works n earn money ma' 'ya, papa n mama also work hard n earn money lo, with money can send u all to school to study n buy things for u all lo, so u must be good boy ok? dont always disturb gal gal ok?' - ok :")

last nite, when i was busy changing sleeping suit n buat milk for them, royee was picking up the toys that to the basket. full floor of toys, he cleared it! it was a surprise to me! i felt so happy n proud of him. something like, 'oh, at last u sudah insaf ar?' kekekee :p then came to me with the basket, 'mummy, all the toys are inside the basket already' 'ya! good boy, thank you royee!!' then he smiled to me :) nowadays, i always tell him not to do things that ar not right. normally i would say this 'is this rite? is this X?' (must showed the X sign to tell that this is wrong to do) 'where is your brain?' 'inside the hair' 'no, your brain is inside your head (tou ke), use your brain to think! think! think! (point to the head, like winnie the pooh) is the things u r going to do is da cha (crossed) or not. if da cha, then cannot do. when u grow bigger, when u r adult, if u do the X things, then policemen will catch u n bring u to the police station, understand?' 'understand. cannot do X things de' 'is disturbing gal gal playing is X things?' 'yes' 'so can do or not?' 'no!' almost everyday i repeat this things, few times a day sometime, but he still loves to disturb angels when they are happily playing the toys or eating biscuits. hmm...

today is 01.07.2008 1st day of july. 1st day of the 2nd half of year 2008. today the electricity bill or tariff naik. the erl train montly pass naik from rm225 tp rm285! heard the news this morning, loan interest for car purchase going to naik (or sudah naik?)... hmmm semua pun naik. happy news is, today toy'r'us at suria klcc grand opening, got special promotion. plan to buy puzzle n blocks for bbb. see la, if rajin, then after office hours, then will go to klcc. or go there on friday lunch time. with educational toys, can bring benefits to bbb, n can kill some noisy n fighting hours when 3 of them are together. these few days the maid looks tired, maybe quite tiring to jaga our bbb >.<

just now agency called me. the medical checkup for the kakak has been ok. the passport is ready for collection. she asked how's our maid? i said ok lo.. can do work lo.. the agent asked me, 'dont spoil her har!' hmmm spoiled ar? i donno. i think we r not strict to her. only strict when she tak makan 'pergi makan sekarang, nanti budak bangun kamu takde masa nak makan' i think, sooner or later, kakak will going to be my size. makan saja! ahhahaha.. kakak told my mum, come here, she can try many foods that she never try before. even roti canai kosong, she loves it, makan 2 keping :p

just now, met my ex-colleague at food court, she showed my tummy with the message 'u pregnant ar?' i said no.. then she buat the face 'aiyo!' hmmm ya ya ya, my tummy is always that big ok, my team member comfort me, aiya, u got twins me, different. but then, my twins pun sudah mau 2 years old oo.. sometime ppl offering me seat on train :( i said 'it's ok' 'come la sit here, kan u pregnant kan' hmmmm.. dont know how to answer, ppl is sincere, then i duduk. feel guilty to sit actually, coz i am not pregnant!!! ai.. when la my tummy gonna become smaller.

playing time

angel crying. eva sayang her

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no more sunshine...

very sad to see sunflowers dying.. from very happy n smiling big yellow sun flowers to fungus hosting then dying.. hmmm somehow, it shows LIFE

this morning, took hours to make decision if want to attend the hitea session with Dr SMS the angkasawan. so undecided. afraid i would miss something, it would be a waste for letting this chance, so called, once in a lifetime. but then, just dont feel to go. feel like this session is more to the person, ppl go there most of the purpose is to see how this guy looking. hmmm dont feel to be part of them. as what i answered my colleague, when she asked 'why u want to go?''to get inspired' reason for me to meet this angkasawan is, i want to know how the days in angkasa. what's the training n things he needs to do in order to get qualified for this angkasa trip. ok ok.. since i had decided not going for it. n in fact, the talk has finished, no point cakap banyak n pening with this ^_^

today feeling a bit not in the mood.. not energetic. donno why, having heavy period flow. or having ears infection. or just working with the face that i'm not happy with? hmmm cant wait to go back home n hugging n kissing shonejay angels then good rest. too much thinking made me tired. n the dying sunflower, worsen my blue. actually, the sunflowers tak kena mengena with me, my colleagues punya. but then when i walk over there, look kat the flowers, i :(

created a new blog for bkt31. so u can read the posts there to get the house renovation progress la. would be very busy in weekend. wish u were here, at least, more comments n ideas from u. donno when r u coming back, hopefully, tomolo! :p ai.. dont want to think of u la, later miss u so much then wanna cry already :~

now!

hmm having feedback session on everything about the company. too much thinking this morning. feeling tired now. mentally. just taken the free lunch. non stop thinking about royee's performance in the school. wondering what royee been doing until the teacher needs to change his swimming class. teacher said that, only royee's class teacher can manage royee in swimming class, so he needs to change his swimming schedule. wondering how royee behave in the class after angels staying together with us. ya, non stop we thinking about angels, somehow we have neglected royee's feeling. not only me as mother, but my parents as well. we are more focus on angels now, maybe they are small, we all afraid of royee hurting angels. however, would it be too agressive and pressure to teach royee to act like a big brother? he is still small. he is still a toddler, who needs attention and love from adults, who have the priviledge to show his emotion without thinking how ppl feel. who can be jealous and selfish on his belongings. we dont need to handle his own feeling as perfect as we are.

royee rebut his books with angels. accidently ter-hit the maid. my mum rotan royee. ya, he was not right to use the hard cover book to hit kakak, but then, we also needs to respect his feeling. he is the owner of the book. hmmm.. how to teach him to act good at this age? how to tell him that we want him to be nice to ppl, share his things with sisters? n at the other hand he wont feel that we only love his sisters. everything is to be given to his sisters only. would it be too fast for him to be perfect at this age. royee kena rotan a lot after angels staying with me. i know my parents' intention is to let royee cause less problem n dont fight with his sisters. but then, would it be a right way n right timing now?

much thinking about royee's feeling last nite. i love him very much. of course, i cant treat him as how i treated him last time, when he can have full attention of me. when i kiss him, i need to kiss angels as well.. to let 3 of them know, i love them much. i want to be equal. i dont want them to feel that i'm bias. i am trying hard on this. i think, royee has single child syndrom. so he is hard to share his stuff. or he feels jealous when looking at ppl playing happily. i think, we should push him too much. he needs time to learn to accept his sisters. he needs time to learn to be sharing n caring. remember, he is still a tod.

it is challenging to handle bbb feelings. am trying my level best to comfort their feeling. hope they have good mental development. i am happy with current situation. i'm not really agree with ppl who dont want to have another bb bcoz of want to give full attention to the eldest. unless u want only 1 bb in your life. or else, no matter when u give birth to the 2nd or more child. the problem still exist. fighting n craving for parents love n attention. good chance for us to learn now. maybe next year, when angels understand more, then royee also can think much matured. n less issue for us.

this morning, heard from radio station, by year 2030 malaysia may have 9-10% of old ppl aged >65. less young generation. so they encourage more newborn now. hmmm then ppl will have the concern of high living n education cost nowadays, ya, subsidiary from government. got 1 audience called up the radio station, 4 is the best number. when the children grow up, then might have problem and issue to share, but not to parents, but to siblings. so to have more siblings, they have more ppl to share the feeling. ya, 4 is my number too. but then, is our financial status allowed us? time limitation to grow the children with good manner, living skills and positive thinking? hmmm.. much things to consider. then i think of royee. if royee is one of the students who is a problem giver to the class, then we need more time n patience to bring him to the right track, at least to the extend, where more ppl can accept him. am afraid of later on in other kinder or schools, we cant have a good teachers to be nice to royee. ya.. i really need to sit down with his teacher to know how royee behave in the class. he is not the jahat one, but then, i know his thinking is different from ordinary children. maybe, he is a rightie, with different brain functions? maybe, we have spoiled him? hmmm.. to be, he is matured in thinking. but then explain to him, he think very fast. rotan doesnt work, to him, more psycho caunseling needed. but then, how many teachers in the school want to spend them n really go n understand the inner him? hmmm.. i thank the church teachers ^_^ appreciate them much!

ok, need to back to the feedback session class. more communication on what u want, what u need to bring better days for u. so not only in the company, to the ppl around our children, n to our children too! we need to practise this. 2-way communication. hmmm.. need to read more to improve my skill on bringing up children in the better way. i hope one day in the future, my children will thank me as a good mummy or something like 'my super mummy!' :p so many things to learn hor.. next weekend is my mummy's bday, thinking to do something special for her, not easy to be a good mother ler.. hmmm money constraint pula.. save more money for the new house.

my diary with bbb

7:15am wake up
8:10am leave house to kinder
8:30am phone calls to sis n u
9:05am train to kl sentral
9:10am read blogs updates from favorite list using mobile
9:30am working
6:20pm leave office to train station
7pm phone calls to necessary ppl on day time issue
7:30pm reach banting
7:50pm dinner n read newspaper
8:15pm main with shonejay angels
9:15pm preparing them to sleep
10:30pm bbb sleep
11pm i sleep

of course, midnite have to wake up when angels crying.. put blanket for them from time to time. milk for them if they want. 6-7am royee come in the room, changed diaper for him. milk for him. morning, switch tv for them, let them sit quietly then only i can take shower n prepare to work. sometime i take breakfast at home, sometime i pack them in bekal then makan while driving or waiting for train. or keep the breakfast as lunch. dinner time, take quite a long time, coz non stop bbb will climbing up to the dining table or buat hal. eat eat stop stop. playing time with them, sing songs, blocks, story telling, single word teaching. night time, sometime they dont sleep till 11pm+ have to force them to sleep.

expected. when angels staying together, when 3 of them r together, must be very tiring. i enjoy it. so happy when i can start my days with kakak 'good morning mum' n angels smile :) then my parents preparing royee to school, royee singing, n his sisters smiling.. evening reach home, can see 3 bbb standing at the gate n waiting for me.. 'my mummy is coming back' soooo nice!!!

ya.. as my friend said, i shall do this from long time ago. ya.. anyway, this is not too late to do it ^_^ enjoying my days here with our lovely children.. missing u... wish u were with us :*