the star of efficiency ***

皮亚杰piaget 幼儿心理教育家说：“幼儿需要很多的双手操作活动，他们从尝试与错误中学习。在游戏为本的活动中，幼儿能进行实验与确定发现。”

read this at happyland. for the pass 2 weekends, i tried to maximise my free time to prepare activities for bbb. by doing this, they explore new things, develop their creative thinking. at the same time, i got to know my bbb better n understanding their thought n behaviours. they are different. last nite on the way back home, i told laogong about children attitude n behaviour. as what my friend junie always mentions, she would blame the mother if the child's behaviour is not ok. recently, i strongly feel that, children habits, attitude n thinking, somehow, parents play important roles. i feel that i have lost so many golden chances to teach n guide my children, now is the time, i need to catch up. since now bbb r still willing to listen to me.

been busy in the office. at the same time, i non stop reminding myself, children grow up day by day, very fast, they wont wait for me to guide them or bring them to explore the world, since papa n mama r busy, they will find their own ways. n i find this is not okay, what if, they learn the wrong things? hmmm.. so, i need to race with time. at the same time, i need to take good care of myself. with healthy body n mind, then only i can guide my children to be happy children :)

cant wait for weekend n more holidays, so i can spend more time with bbb. sometime i feel envy about ppl working from home, or working half day or a full-time housewife, so more bonding hours with children n family members. eg last nite, i reached home at 11pm. bbb were sleeping. i sat down n chat with my mummy. i felt tired n sleepy, but this is the chance i can talk more with mummy n get some updates from her about my daddy, bbb, maid n other stories. went to the room at 12:30am. laogong also slept already, luckily i spent time talking n listening to him during the journey to/fro office. hmm my eyes felt so heavy then i slept. as usual angel or eva would cry in midnite, i felt warm, coz at least, i got chance to carry n hug them in their dreams.

hmmm not easy to handle all the roles well, balanced, perfect. so try at my level best lo. just now during lunch time, i shared with my colleagues my daily routine before come to the office. morning after taking shower, most of the time, bbb wake up already. quite rushing actually coz i would definitely snooze my alarm clock till the last min :( however, while putting all the skin care, lotion, cloths.. i need to sing n be cute n funny to make bbb smile :D memang multitasking la. then laogong would 'faster la.. late already' hmmm.. carry them out to the hall 1 by 1, n make sure they :D then only i switch on the tv for them, n bye bye to them.. not easy lo, even want to wave bye bye also need to act cute lo.. then they kekeke only i leave the house. but of course not everyday i have nice treatment one, sometime, they wont entertain my funny faces n they wawawawa :~ i want mama!!!! then i leave house with sad n tired feeling :~ my colleague said 'wahh, u boleh tahan, kalau saya, sudah jadi KING KONG! naik marah la!' aiyo, how to be marah ler, nanti they non stop crying, lagi penat my parents n maid ooo.. not only this, when i get into the car, i need time to settle down my rush hour feeling, then laogong pula 'what that face? what happen to u again? why dont want to eat breakfast? u r not happy on what again?' hmm... after settle bbb, need to ambik hati laogong.. hmm sometime, dont want to argue n cakap banyak, i smile at laogong so he wont ask this n that, suspect this n that.. hmmm.. (hope laogong reads this post :p)

staying with children, not only we teach children something nice n good. in fact, i have learnt a lot too.. not only my attitude, but the way i see the things from different angle n creative imagination :D learning from mistakes n experiences n experiment.. :D n of course, now pandai membebel, rambling n mumbling much, coz my bbb also non stop telling the same stories.. ekekekek... see ya~ want to take 7:30pm, hope, bbb havent slept when i reach home, n hope they happily smiling n sleep fast when i sing for them :p me har, really a demanding mummy :p

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Reply to mei’s mail – racing with time..

U r right. Now I work for self esteem n of course, for income. I don’t think of promotion but I think of rewards. Rewards mean bosses appreciate my good work n a milestone for myself. Other than that, I work happily to help those end user who are in need. I would much happy if my family members tell me’u r the best!’ compare to my boss telling me this. in the office we have those goals to meet, to score for 100%. In fact, apart from that, we have much more to achieve in life, for all the roles we are playing n to our own self. Currently I cant promise to spend time with my bbb every night in weekdays, coz workload n income limitation. However, my promise to myself is, reserve my weekend n holidays to bbb. Thus, u can see me go massage during their sleeping hours, or, bring at least one to go with me. I really hope, I can witness all their special moment or 1st time by myself, compare listening stories from my parents n maid n teachers. So lets jia you together lo! :D

rushing wednesday

work for tomorrow then cuti again. Time flies. Am in the train alone without laogong, laogong taken the earlier train, n i missed it. Was rushing to park the car n running to catch the train, when i reached, train just moved n bye to me. I wake up early this morning, to prepare breakfast - sandwiches + banana then pack those biscuits, milk powder n oat to bring to the office. Planned to reach the office early so i can finish my walkathon blog post n all other posts. I got the message from arpu yesterday 'wei darling people in singapore waiting for ur blog update :) I know u r very busy...' In fact, i got message from laogong too 'where is your new update? Bad bad' hehe happy to know that at least there r readers out there to care n got interested in my stories :)

Well, i have been busy with my old n new job scopes. Start feeling the pressure n my bp gone high. So i feel giddy n bloated. Water retention pun ada. Bad la. That day when i was in the mid of tension, the me in the mirror didnt look like me! The face n lips were so pale then very big face n bad hair. Hmm that's why i took laogong's word seriously 'u look old, especially your eyes, i think we need to send our children to nursery childcare center for 2 weeks' ya, i need to rest. But i will adjust myself n manage the time table, i cannot let go my bbb, if not, not only my eyes look old, my heart would be too :p

what is in today todo list? submit the income tax efilling. actually i have completed it early of april for myself n laogong. ya, dont feel to pay the tax that's why i dont want to submit :p i used this to comfort myself, 'u earned enough then only u r eligible to pay income tax lo' be thankful lo, at least i am having a job :) to get more rebate, maybe, i need to work much harder to show good performance, then i can get some awards from the company, then i can have rm2k rebate :p kekeke.. this one memang susah, so buy more books for children n myself lagi senang :p month end, need to pay all the bills, credit cards.. hmmm all need to be done by today. there is also todo list for my office work, wow, today is a super rushing day!!! i dont want to stay back today. n i want to have lunch with my friends in the office! 2 days already, i didnt join them for lunch, i miss them soooo much :~

so everything much QUICK n FAST! tata! mau kerja liao! hehe sound so efficient :p

gf vs girl friend

i am the type of person who believe in man n woman can be good friend. i mean pure friendship. but somehow, laogong always think that i would get mad when he contacts his girl friends. if they are betul betul kawan one, why u need to hide from me? i dont mind to see their pic, got to know their names, meet them, n know them. i definitely would respect my laogong's friends. laogong said, if i let u know, who knows u going to mad like lion n go n bite ppl. pls la, i wont roar if this is truly friendship, takde scandal or private affair. i am understanding person, though i am sensitive, but i can think ok!

i found this is unfair when laogong said, u r too sensitive, narrow minded, dont trust laogong, small air, made him afraid of me. pls, if u always make me feel secured then i wont think yang bukan bukan then go n disturb your feeling. your response made me suspect the simple issue. only u think i am so childish got no brain to think.

aaaahhh.. dont want to talk much, when read sis's post on her laogong also complaining about sis has changed before n after married, i think somehow this is unfair too. coz sis is always the same, memang like that la, very fast get mad, n very fast cooling down. ki siao one. but sis is a loving person with kind heart. hmmm our laogongs seem to start complaining about us when they never tell us what they want or what they are thinking. always keep things in the heart, when burst up, then start complaining. helo, our 'suggestion box' are always available for u all, but u all never tell anything but direct go n public out your dissatisfaction. fair meh? right way to maintaining our relationship meh? i would much prefer u ask for improvement 1st before u go n look for altenative solution n replacement. if u never tell us anything, how would u expect us to know all these while our attitude have caused issue to u wor..

huh.. dont want to talk much la. this morning only i told laogong, i dont want to put much time on u already la. never appreciate n get nice score one. recent month i only focus on improving our love relationship n understanding laogong more, i have neglected bbb. let time tells the true love is, dont need to talk so much. now, i want to give my love to my lovely shonejay angels :) whatever gf ke, girl friend ke, laogong goes n thinks of himself worth of not to hurt n lose me this angel lo as i rest the case to God ^_^

just now we were in the train, laogong checking the weather with his mobile phone. then he said, u dont have this one in your phone. i told him, i dont need to check weather forecast to set my mood. i just need to be happy for myself, if i am happy n feeling good, raining brings nice rhythm to me.. if i am not feeling alright, the bright sunshine hurts my eyes.

anyway, today i am in sunny day! :)

dear are u pregnant?

just got this question posted by arpu, my eyes opened wide when reading this. how come she got this question shooting to me? am i really look like pregnant? chubby face or growing tummy? i look much bigger size than before? hor~~~ so many question marks popping up! immediately i called up sis, 'mie~~~ my friend asked hor..' 'r u pregnant ar?' har?! how come sis got the same thought? 'hahahaha :D' hey, this is no joke lo, am now trying to lose weight, n already frustrated with only 5kg lost, then i got this question been asked, so what i have done is failed lo :~~~~ wawawawawa :~~~ 'u follow my exercise plan la' wahh! then sis said, 'no ma, your PD pic not bad ma, look young (hey, i am young ok!).. maybe she seen your old pic in my blog ler' hmm before sis hang the phone, somemore added 'hey, dont drink so many cup of tea ooo, no good for pregnant woman' 'ya, walk slowly, or else later pok gai' :S

came back to work station, got to know arpu read my blog, she thought the secret i mentioned in it is i got pregnant, as she assumes that hubby didnt want another baby.. aaaa.. lega sikit ok. u know, a bit phobia now, i used to get offered seat in the train u know if i wear the loose cloths.. last time i just ignored, if i was tired, then i thanked for the seat n just rest. normally i would say 'it's ok', then continue standing. but now, after some workout n food cutting, still got the offered seat, then i will betul betul need to follow sis's exercise plan lo :( (or continue eating more to release tension)

btw, arpu, thanks for reading my blog word by word n take it into your heart :D i dont get mad of the question, but i would get mad if bcoz u see my recent pic then only posted this question :p dear, i am not pregnant la (how i wish i was, i would definitely let u know before i posting it up to public :p) now, i have put the plan aside, since bbb are demanding more now, then commitment also higher, economy downturn somemore, laogong memang said he needs time to adapt himself as a father of 3. so, now i only concentrate on what i am having :) if we have extra money, then will go travelling with laogong to see the world (now starting with local trip 1st :p) then can have more toys n educational aids for children ^_^ in life, we get some, we lose some. so never mind la, sometime i do think that, if i have another bb, then i would continue staying at home, no time for myself n travel around the world. then laogong would be boring with my short hair, n high tone 'mummy is angry!' or 'No! n all the loose n faded color baju :p somemore, frankly, my body is getting old already :( sini sakit sana sakit. last nite, in the midnite, i asked royee to stand on the bed, then only i can carry him to the buai, somemore very slowly my action, afraid my back terpatah :( (wondering why suddenly want to sleep in the buai after so long he sleeps on mattress, hmm macam macam)

'Be more healthier for my husband's sake.I want him to live long. I want to go London with him in our old age. Imagine holding hand and walk in the London roads with white hair and beautiful smile :)' i love this, touched. and i had imagined my day when me n laogong, holding hand, walking slowly n see the world together ^_^

conclusion, i am not pregnant ya :D

a new beginning~

ya.. at last, everything is settled down. i am sitting facing the sky. i love this :D today we have clear blue sky ^^ hmm wondering if i can see birds flying in this metropolitan. so far, i see smiley n friendly faces, maybe everyone is new here. i just hoping this good feeling can continue. good persons are around. i got 2 cabinets, big one apart from my personal workstation attached cabinet. so everything is here. can work hard then :p ya, blog updating still as usual.

just now, i went up to level 13a to have lunch with my old friends. the feeling is still the same, asking each other how's the new work place, got happy, got complaint ^_^ life is, up n down. we get some, we lose some. i hope our friendship continues..

ya, new supervisor just asked me, michelle, when is your promotion due? hmm me not yet, next year i think. ya, hope i can get promoted lo~ then gaji tinggi sikit :)

from level 13a

to level 8.. huat aaa!

10 things to do during earth hour

Here are ten different ways to spend Earth Hour and reduce your greenhouse gas emissions:
1. Gather family & friends for a night picnic

2. Dine in one of the many Earth Hour participating restaurants by candlelight

3. Organise a family night playing board games

4. Throw an Earth Hour street party with your neighbours

5. Arrange a house party lit by torches

6. Take the dog for a night walk

7. Hand write a letter to loved one by lantern

8. Sit in the dark and share stories

9. Read a book using a book light

10. Share a romantic night in with your loved one

got this from forwarded mail. yes. 28/3/09 a special day, my papa's bday, my paktor anniversary n earth hour - global event! will do number 10 with laogong in our love outing - dont know where, as this outing planned by laogong :p i like number 7 suggestion ^_^

brainless vs heartless

love this ^_^

thanks nana. at least, i know u care about my heart :p

am feeling nice today. nice n easy. dont worry be happy ^_^

where is happiness?

feel so touched to receive the envelop from my kawan nana. so touch! terharu u know, speechless.. felt to hug nana when i saw this :~ of course, there is office doc inside the envelop :p bad, my camera got no battery today :( so only snapped the pic with my handphone. in fact, thanks nana for giving me little surprise once a while like this, i keep all these envelopes ^_^ they are LOVE to me.. full of friendship love :* thanks nana xoxo

our genting outing pic

honestly, today i am a bit down. bad hair day i think. at the same time, i feel love. thanks friends n sis. they are many ppl around me love me n care about me, i think, i need to refresh myself, there is no reason for my to be down since i have so much love. right? to those we concern about me, worried me, love me... dont worry, i am doing alright here :)

But whatever is I want you to be happy. You r the sunshine to us :) - arputha

got this from a forwarded mail.. share with u all..

One day, the young lion asked his mom: "Mom, where is the happiness?"Mom replied: "It's on your tail." So the young lion keeps on chasing after his tail. But after a whole day of trying, he failed to get the happiness that was on his tail.Then he told his mom about this, his mom smiled and said: "Son, you don't really need to chase after your happiness, as long as you keep going and moving forward, your happiness will always be with you."

You can't decide the length of life, but you can control how you want to live it.

You can't control the weather, but you can control your mood.

You can't change your look, but you can smile.

You can't control others, but you can control yourself.

You can't foresee tomorrow, but you can utilize today wisely.

You can't win everything, but you can try your very best to achieve that..

Hope everyone can face the daily life positively and always happy...

no beginning and no end

what is wedding ring?

A wedding band is a symbol of marriage. When worn as part of a pair, it symbolizes the bond two people share, the solid, enduring, endless bond that connects them even when they're apart.

The wedding ring shows the combining of 2 people who have fell in love and set there hearts to only eachother. The importance of the ring shows that "Hey I'm married and have a wonderful Husband/Wife" The ring shows dedication to eachother, and true, strong love that sadly some people neglect and throw away something that is so beautiful which is love.That is the importance of a wedding ring my friend. ~Jessica Edgell

yup. i have lost my anniversary ring. not the 1st wedding ring. laogong left his wedding ring in cyberview lodge resort last year. then he bought a new pair of rings last year end for our 5th year anniversary. n now, i lost the anniversary ring. i dont know how this happen, coz the ring was always on my finger, never play around it or left it. so frustrated right? my maid kakak has been looking for it in the room n the house, she claimed, banyak kali saya cari tak jumpa.. so today is 3rd day, i also dont want to bother about it, maybe the ring will pop up 1 day.

think of what u learned from the master shifu in PEP program, everything happens is with hint and signal to you, if u r sensitive n alert enough, u can see, actually even the tiny normal thing happening around, is leading to a final picture of God's plan or your success plan. so, the ring just gone missing while i was wearing it. i have not losing so much weight recently until my ring loose off itself. what's the subtain meaning for this happening. hmmm i didnt feel annoying when the ring is with me, but now i feel uneasy, without the ring. my hand seems to be lighten. bcoz of the ring carried responsibility n burden?

so let's think. lost ring. it's time to have a BIG diamond ring? :p hmm.. is time for me to have quiet moment n rethink of my current relationship? i need to reconsider my marriage? huh.. anyway, just let it be no ring. we dont need a ring to tell us i am married as i dont bring my marriage cert with me either. let's fully concentrate on being a good mother. sometime, i feel tired to handle both roles - mother n wife. especially when both roles need my full attention n demanding. it's time, for me to rest. slow down my steps.

anyhow, a ring is with symbolic meaning to me which my heart attaches with which man. so next time, i will take time to think, when i want the ring to be on my finger. when i am ready to fall in love again ^_^ thus, i would much happy to hear this 'would u marry me?' when the next ring of mine comes to me :) can open to anyone who is interested to commit with me this super sensitive woman :p

baby gender or health?

this made me sad. see, anything can be happened. so, pls dont hate yourself or hate your baby bcoz the baby is not the gender as your desired. whether if bb gal or bb boy, as long as they are complete n healthy, love u n care u when u r old, why care so much? they are lots ppl out there whishing, praying for bb. they are many ppl gone thru the hurting process to try to get conceive. but why still have lots more ppl out there, throw own bb, hurt own bb...

if we dont appreciate what we are given n having, we wont be reach true happiness n satisfaction in life. last week, junie asked me dont get down bcoz of the office transformation, 'maybe the other floor kakak is much better than the one in level 13a' i told junie, this is not right for me to think that way, if i have that thought, means that am not appreciated what i am having now. always looking for something better or waiting for something better out there. it can be yes, or no.

we hurt ppl, we r not happy, we r greedy, bcoz of we dont see what we are having now. we always see what is lacking in ourselves. in my pep program class, the master said, in order to reach true happiness in life, is not sucess, but satisfaction.

hmm a bit geram here. coz i always read pregnancy forum talking about baby gender, then before the baby get delivered, the mummy already feel sad about the baby existence. sad.

good morning ^_^

lets start this blog with a warm :D

today, my breakfast is soya bean milk + a lemongrass sweets

today, am going to see my new boss. ya, wearing a new shirt, am in blue and skirt with flowers pattern ^_^ just to cheer up myself. i hope my new boss is a good boss. a guy, i can work better with male supervisor than lady boss. however, i dont know my job scope n actual supervisor :S

today, i tell myself, to be strong n be happy no matter what. need to be healthy for myself. yesterday read about this, do everything for u 1st, then only think of the rest. if the 1st one is not alright, the rest will just gone to be not right.

today, i cried in the journey to the office, laogong lend his broad shoulder to me ^_^

today, is 03/03/2009. remember i was in PJ section 14 in year 1998. together with my banting friends, woan ling n chui fern, si ci, celebrated si ci's friend bday. ya, tomolo is chui fern's bday.

today, i want to work hard. less curi tulang :p need to clear many pending job before handover takes place. new boss called me yesterday, asked me to continue working, business as usual, n at the same time, preparing to move my workstation to other location at 20/3/09

today, i read this from indra's facebook feed 'love is forever no one can loose it' i like this. ya.. love is forever. but, is this forever love to be coming from a same person? hmm i would much prefer to get love from my parents, siblings, n shonejay angels.. percentage for unconditional love is much higher than husband-wife, bf-gf relationship.

today, i want to be talkative. laogong said, when i am non stop talking, very zhi-zha, means that i am happy. he likes to see that. hmmm.. later talk to much, irritates ppl pula :p

today, i want to be happy ^_^

twins formula ^_^

hehe.. funny crazzy..

Quiet moment

3am+ eva asked for milk. Then till now, i been staying awake. Cant fall asleep hmm. Today need to reach the office earlier than normal day, coz i need to leave the office at 5pm so i can only manage to be at ah gong's house for prayer at 6 or 7pm.

Last nite i slept early, after buaikan bbb sleep. Was so tired. N i knew i was being moody to laogong. For nothing? Not really, just feeling down when he promised to sleepkan bb together with me, but he forgot? N reading papers in the hall. I was so tired n sleepy, both royee n angel were active still. Hmm i slept with black face to hubby. Didnt want his massage offer :( though i like his recent learnt body massage. Not when i am having down mood with him. Ai.

Will be on leave tomorrow. Hope the weather would be nice for the outdoor prayer n activity. Am still feeling not well, hope tomorrow weather wont make my flu n fever worse. Hate to being sick recently, coz i cant rest well at home, bbb can dance on my pillow while i sleep n rest, n afraid they kena from me then somemore tired to take care of them when they are sick.

Hubby told me 'u know why i dont like to read your blog? Coz they are negative, your posts made me down' hmm i dont think this is right, coz i do post many travel n bbb pictures n stories. Maybe it just an excuse for not visiting my blog. Hmm.. Whatever, i just want to keep record n memory here, n hope 1day, bbb can read my posts by their own :)

project 365

A Challenge A Commitment A Promise

i love this. a day a photo. my friend's blog. from day 1 in a brand 1 in a brand new year, a day a pic post. what can i do something similar like this? currently what i am doing is reading bible, follow the calendar. n another 2 books on thoughts about god.

hmmm may think of something special, n i am interested to start, say, in 2010. hehe. what came across my mind is 365 meals for a year, or recipe, or bbb, books i read, songs stories (this is my to-do list since last year, create a blog to share songs stories)

well.. think about the idea later la. suddenly think of what u told me last night 'i dont like ppl comment about my english, coz they also dont have good english. only u can comment about my english, coz your sentences are really nice n good' huh? my english? ok.. thank u. take it as compliment, although i know my english is poor :S n i got shocked when u told me the mail that u asked me to do some correction was from your boss. pls la, what i write is not always right, it might be only u get used to my words then u can understand my english more than other ppl english. or u should read my friend's 5stars-english blog :) anyway, hope one day i can study english to upper level like what i did last time in ELS. i love english language ^_^ (found this interest when i was age 18)

chinese-english language translator

yesterday, junie said, 'wei, your blog has so many chinese wording, i donno what r u talking about'. ya, this is my concern now. sometime i feel to post in chinese, coz i can express my feeling with better description in chinese. hmm my english is poor ma :~ i told junie, i wanted to have chinese n english blogs, but i feel tired to maintain 2 blog sites. i had the idea to translate my chinese post to english, but then, i am not VIP, not many ppl are reading my blogs, doing this, ppl may laugh at me la :p hehe

anyway, i have set up my mind. maintain this blog for my daily feeling n stories around me. i have my yippieyaya.blogspot.com this would be my main blog site to connect to all my links n all my bbb small pic there! will try to translate my chinese posts with my broken english. i think, my readers would understand my broken english than those direct chinese-english language translator. i had tried that, hmmm i myself didnt understand the english translation :p

it might be only few frequent visitor come to @sweetie. i thank u all. willing to come n share my stories n feeling here ^_^

reply email to kc

Being a mother can always make us strong n stronger. I am sure u can overcome this tiring n suffered period just give yourself good rest n happy mood :) i am tired also, taking care 3bb who r now very active n talkative, non stop playing n being naughty. Sometime i feel angry with their disturbance, i cant rest well even i am sick. But think deeper, they r my own children, last time our parents also taking care us day n night. So i diam diam jaga them. Working n travelling also tired but need to earn money, see supervisor face color do things lo, 1day 1day very fast also.

When husband not around, i feel very lonely, tired, busy, have to take care everything by my own, bills, bbb, in law.. Sometime crying alone after children sleep. Life goes on anyway. Luckily i have my parents n siblings support me lo. Last month husband just came back from philippines, very happy he came back, but i also need time to adapt myself again. Man is man. Taking children no patience one. So still the same lo, but better is i let him handle in law n i have someone to share stories other than my sis. Last week he went to philippines again for a week. On n off, just hoping he has more time here with children.

Ya is good to have sister. When i feel down n really need a shoulder to cry on, my sis is always be with me. I am enjoying the stay at bukit tinggi house, try recipe with my sis, go shooping for grocery together, got a partner who is really close to heart lo. Ya, let god decides gal or boy, as long as jane has sibling then she wont be lonely. My children now all study at kinder, hope they learn good living skills for their own good. n more behave lo then i dont need to be that tired n non stop shouting them like ah soh.

Since children r growing, i want to have some personal time for myself. Reading in the train, pamper myself by going massage n buying some new cloths. Doing it slowly la, at long as i can let myself release stress n be more relax n happy. Ya this year goal is to change myself :p recently only confirm dont want another bb. Economy downturn, children edu spending more, so better focus on quality than quantity as husband always mentioned. I love children so i hope my sis faster has her baby, then i can tolong jaga :)

U be happy ya! We all r learning to play well in wife, mother roles. All the best! N u can always share your feeling with me :)

phone call

当时我有个想法，第一，如果没有电话，该怎么办？第二，为什么当发生事情时，身边亲密的人却联络不上？万一这次我是奄奄一息，想要交代或听他们的声音，那岂不是很遗憾？嗯。。平时看到亲人联络自己，以为没什么好着急，稍微没空就不回复，如果当时亲人正受重伤，就期待跟你最后的道别，错过了就一辈子就没机会啦！！！过后才一直责备自己，这就后悔莫及咯。。 - pooh-

sometime we tend to not answer ppl call, n especially when we r busy, n our loved one calling, we would take advantage to igore the call, n say 'ok, call him/her back later' or pick up the call, before the other side start talking, 'let me call u back' then we hang the phone. hmm we cant control the situation of the recipient, n sometime we might stay in the situation where we might have no chance to call up our love one n tell the last word to them or asking for help. i always sms hubby 'i love u' when he is taking flight, or when i am taking flight. if i travel farer, i sms to my papa mama n siblings to tell them i love them. if somemore farer, n a very new place for me, i tell all i want to say to my sis, even passwords, pin number, what to do if anything happen.. hmmm.. n in my phone, i have the template message 'i love u all n my shonejay angels' n i always set my family phone number as a group. when hubby drive the car super fast, i wont scold him, i would hold my phone very tight n start looking for the sms template.. or if the public train that i take, suddenly has weird sound, then i would make sure my phone in function.

remember 1 of my college lecturers asked this question 'how many of u ever think of death? everyday?' hmm i think we seldom think about death but we are more tend to think of problems that we are facing or might be facing. the lecturer said, 'u would tend to appreciate your life more if u think of death (positively)' to me, this makes sense to me at some points. that day i went for the PEP class, the lecturer said, what would u do, if your love one have only 7 days left to stay with u? u will give your love one everything the best, u give all your time n love in these 7 days. well, we dont know when is the final 7 days for our love one n family to stay with us, so treat everyday is the 7 day, treat your family n love one with your true heart n celebrate each of the moments together, spend quality time with them.

ya. 7-days. we dont know what's gonna happen at tomorrow. so dont think too much on what u r lacking, just need to celebrate with what we are having n treat everyone with our sincere heart. n try to answer calls with calm n smile ^_^ welcome the disturbance, sometime u would get to see this beautiful world at different angles :)

Life is full of challenges

Am waiting papa mama n royee outside lcct airport. Many thoughts r in my mind. 'a thought can kill a person' hmm i have so many decision made now, my thoughts wont kill me, hoping them make me have spirit to move forward for better future :)

Decided to send bbb to sunday school at klang chinese methodist church. Checking the time table. Am going for sunday player at kcmc too. Let me adjust the time table for every sunday.

Well dad just called up, need to pick them out now. Miss royee so much. Miss his sunny smile :)

Hmm

On the bed. So many queries hoping to be answered. I wish i could see n read ppl mind. To escape. Am wanting that. To release myself. Yes, i am very tired. My mind is busy, non stop thinking of so many things. I feel to cry. I feel to shout out loud! Wondering why so many different feeling come up at once. Exhausting.

playlist

《小小的梦想 》

蓝天是白云最美的故乡 大地是小草成长的地方

海洋是河流安歇的暖房 梦想是未来幸福天堂

小小的梦想能成就大事 只要仰望天父的力量

小小的梦想能改变世界 带来明天的盼望

《我要向高山举目》

我要向高山举目我的帮助从何来 我的帮助从造天地的耶和华而来

我要向高山举目，我的帮助从何来 我的帮助从造天地的耶和华而来

哈利路亚，哈利路亚，哈利路亚，哈利路

哈利路亚，哈利路亚，哈利路亚，哈利路

only these 2 christian songs in my phone playlist. listening to them when i am on the journey to the office, or drive back home. i play these 2 songs to bbb when i prepare myself to the office, and when i buai them to sleep.

many things we can do to get happiness in our lives. so am looking around to explore more n not sitting there n non stop thinking of some facts that cant be changed.